DeepestPainter In reply to Luigi-Totty-Girl [2018-03-19 02:54:40 +0000 UTC]

I will die for you now.
((Translation: THANK YOU!! I'm super glad you like it!))

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Luigi-Totty-Girl In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-03-19 23:03:34 +0000 UTC]

NO DON'T DIE ON ME!!!
((Translation: Your Welcome!!))

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DeepestPainter In reply to Snowballflo [2018-02-06 22:25:50 +0000 UTC]

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Snowballflo In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-02-06 22:26:23 +0000 UTC]

i really miss everyone......how are you dear?? <33

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DeepestPainter In reply to Snowballflo [2018-02-06 23:42:20 +0000 UTC]

I'm pretty good, thank you darling <3 And how have you been holding up, sweetness?

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Snowballflo In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-02-09 10:37:17 +0000 UTC]

my anxiety has been getting better thankyou, and guess what, i went to the doctor that my dad was going to for his appointment and he gave me a free checkup and he said i have a panic disorder thats been growing on me since childhood and now its gotten dangerous, basically he explained to my dad that im not jokeing and its serious and i need medication, or else when i grow up leaving this still unattended the simplest stressful situations might make me immovable from bed for 3-5 months. and yeah i think he also said some things about heart attack probabilities and etc and over all he explained all there mostly was about it to my dad and he accepted it and got me another appointment to get my medication, its this tuesday......im kind of anxious since he said i need to use it for a year or two, he even said he'll give me someone from back in my own country to continue helping me when i go back. i felt so relieved that i actually have something wrong with me 'physically' then to just be told 'im a really negative person'. at least now i know its not entirely in my hands to control at this point. ive gotten a lot better since then but i still wake up in the mornings with my heart racing and breath quickening. the doctor just said its okay because its not really me, its just that my brain is constantly signalling my entire body that im in a death-level danger, so my body rattles with anxiety randomly at times. so technically its not really me so i just lie down til it passes....

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DeepestPainter In reply to Snowballflo [2018-02-09 11:12:55 +0000 UTC]

See? I always ALWAYS knew and said that you are a truly sweet and wonderful person. I'd known your anxiety was a deep-rooted issue that was causing you such ache and turmoil, and my heart has always gone out to you. But I was also certain that with just a little time and some effort to seek help that a solution would make itself known and you'd be feeling better.

I can understand that it must feel so much better to have a name for the way you've been feeling and what has been going on with your body and emotions. I'm sorry to hear that you have this condition, but I am honestly not surprised. Because you are a good person, and all the "negativity" in your life made you a victim, not a burden. And those two things are not the same.

You remain in my prayers my darling, and I wish you all the fortune and happiness that will come with you pursuing your God-given right to peacefulness and joy. I'm so glad that not only you know what is wrong and how to go about fixing it, but your family does too. What a great turn of events!

Lots of love my dear Snow, I'm so so happy for you! <3

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Snowballflo In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-02-09 11:32:56 +0000 UTC]

i really cant thank you enough for being there when i needed help the most, specially since you never treated me special but all the same you actually made an effort to try and help me. tbh i dont really expect everyone to get my condition since the doctor actually says its not really a well known illness in my country and during our parents time it didn't exist to them thats why not many from my country are going to accept it and are probably going to always try and tell me im wrong, and i even experienced that with my physics teacher yesterday, i tried explaining but he took it as a joke too. in the end i gave up trying to explain, its not like i can help it anyway. although i AM a little worried about the medication....i dont know what those are or how they work or effect the body. i haven't really heard many good things about medications for mental illnesses. but its still better then nothing, and im trying to be hopeful. ive learned that when my head is thinking about negative things against my will i just do nothing and think about nothing cuz i know in a few more hours ill probably regret them anyway.
but thank you for everything...i just wish my condition would have let me draw something for you XDD i still have trauma and i havn't managed to draw anything to this day.......im kind of.....asking different people for their opinions on the reason why they draw........because i want to understand the reason to why different people draw, to maybe understand different purposes. i admit most of the reason to why i draw is to connect with people instead of my own enjoyment.....thats probably why i couldn't draw anymore cuz it seems so pointless.......i want to learn to draw for myself or not draw at all.......using are as a way to connect with other people and finding friends is good, but not when its because you lack self acceptance and are looking for it in other people's point of views.......probably the reason why when someone insults me i accept it all too easily......so yeah im trying to work on my head more....and point of views......ironically this includes a few minutes of talking to myself in the mirror every night XD
thank you for everything again.

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DeepestPainter In reply to Snowballflo [2018-02-09 20:58:53 +0000 UTC]

You're very welcome. And of course I'm perfectly alright with just hearing this news, you never needed to draw anything for us to be friends.
You seem prepared to do some self-reflection, trying to figure out how your head works and how to work your way around it. It's going to be a tough and tiring job, but one that I'm positive you can pull off. Trust me when I say it'll get easier over time, since it's something I've had to do in the past too. 
As for your medicine, your doubts and inhibitions are justified. But try to put trust in your doctor. In a country that didn't know what to make of you, he sussed out your condition. The medicine you'll be taking will help, even if it makes you feel uneasy at first. 

Bless you darling, and remember that I have faith in your ability to manage yourself and your condition. <3

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Snowballflo In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-02-09 21:14:36 +0000 UTC]

thank you q-q it means a lot to me. is it weird i see you as a professor figure? =7=

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DeepestPainter In reply to Snowballflo [2018-02-10 02:18:31 +0000 UTC]

Haha, I don't think it's weird but it is unexpected!      Hope to keep in touch with you my lovely, be sure to check in whenever you want!

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DeepestPainter In reply to SaraPlutonium [2017-12-12 02:16:29 +0000 UTC]

Are you kidding? You're the best! Your art is beautiful!

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SaraPlutonium In reply to DeepestPainter [2017-12-12 03:16:47 +0000 UTC]

oh goodness aaaa thank you so much that means so much to me you have no idea ;; keep up the great work yourself!

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DeepestPainter In reply to SaraPlutonium [2017-12-12 03:25:20 +0000 UTC]

Many thanks!! And lots of love to you and your continued growth as an artist, similarly <3

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DeepestPainter In reply to WeirdKev-27 [2017-11-17 08:11:49 +0000 UTC]

I typically get requests over on my tumblr, and after I explicitly say I am taking requests. Usually it's after I post or reblog a compilation of character poses/expressions/things like that. You could find me, if you like, my name is heythatsdeep.

Or if you prefer, I'll probably open requests on deviantart after a few weeks pass, since I'm a little busy with work at the moment.

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joshspeed7 In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-02-04 04:01:19 +0000 UTC]

Hidden by Commenter

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DeepestPainter In reply to joshspeed7 [2018-02-04 04:49:18 +0000 UTC]

'Fraid not, my friend. Requests are for only when I specifically ask/open them, and usually only on my tumblr.

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joshspeed7 In reply to DeepestPainter [2018-02-04 04:50:53 +0000 UTC]

I see well Goodbye Forever.

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DeepestPainter In reply to Snowballflo [2017-10-31 00:48:48 +0000 UTC]

Duuude good to see you my friend!

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Snowballflo In reply to DeepestPainter [2017-10-31 10:19:23 +0000 UTC]

yay o7o

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