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Kiota
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[2003-11-23 05:17:07 +0000 UTC]
"Kiota"
(Israel)
# Statistics
Favourites: 221; Deviations: 146; Watchers: 206
Watching: 19; Pageviews: 36005; Comments Made: 519; Friends: 19
# Interests
Favorite bands / musical artists: Nightwish, Within Temptation, MuseTools of the Trade: canon powershot A520
# About me
Current Residence: USA# Comments
Comments: 118
Remembering with love... during this last week you were here, you went on inspiring me with your vision. Now, nine years afterward, you don't need a cam anymore to write with light. Yes?
Not quite cameraLess yet, I've been doing new photos here all week. All these years, in fact...
Same place now, different weeks. New ones.
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Happiness, and pervasive and quiet joy to be moving here into Olympia, again and finally. One-way ticket, can't be re-used. Your final photos take on a new glow and timelessness: your souls are eating right across the table from me, and in the same room, seven days a week now. I share their doorways...
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This weekend past, and in two days the Wednesday to come again -- April 13.
2008 fresh in memory as always.
Those last words you ever said to me were "next time I will come to you." But there was not a next time. Because you, your light, and the beauties of your art have never left at all.
Peace always now.
Brad
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Photographic art creates timeless bridges, here is another you made:
kiota.livejournal.com/2130.htm…
"...for those four weeks that Spring..."
~Brad
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I miss you so much. I have never stopped thinking about you. I love you.
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Has it really been 6 years? I still miss you.
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We still all miss you, Anna.
I'm so happy you're not hurting anymore, but I'm so sad you're gone. For selfish reasons, mostly.
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I thought a lot about you, actually. I've been thinking about you often lately. A few months ago when I felt like I had a bit more strength or energy to exert myself, I tried turning one of your stories into a visual novel for my own sake, just to remember you or something. It made me cry and I couldn't do it. I'm hurting myself by wondering what you could have written or done by now in 2014, but I really do wonder.
I really really really miss you.
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Einaudi: Like you say, many of us wish Ki would come back; but she can come as close as our thoughts of her and our remembrances ... and that is timeless. Most of us knew her only through her journal, but her light still shines as bright as her art does here in DA... and we can hug with arms wide open all the gifts she left us.
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Thank you, that's very kind of you to respond with. I agree with you completely.
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Hi Kiota... I'm still torn up over everything that has happened. I miss you even though I was too afraid to talk to you. Not because you were an unkind person, but I looked up to you a lot, and I'm simply used to... things not working out. Even in your absence, I try to keep in mind the things you would ask us to avoid as much as possible-- I wonder if you'd feel proud of how I've been told over and over that typically someone with my severe of depression is self-harming, but I remember you begging, pleading. I'll never forget all of the things I read in your journal-- while I was too afraid to talk to you, I felt I knew you because of your journal.
It's unfair of me to say this, but I wish you could come back. I really do.
Rest in peace.
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Last visit... 204 weeks ago I never got to talk to you, but i really wish i had. your work is better than amazing, so much of it is awe inspiring. You had quite the talent. You were a good writer too. I'm sorry i never got to talk to you...
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"My comments are not needed.
My photos are already telling you everything you need to know."
That's from Lynn van Asperen, a first/second year photography student at the Royal Academy here in den Haag. She printed it on a poster exhibit of her work last weekend.
And it immediately reminded me of yours, especially "The Discarded", "Gritty", "So Cold" and the rest of that whole series you made; and your "Abandoned Railroad" essay.
You are already telling us, too.
Then. Now. And always.
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As the seasons keep turning, away nearly 200 weeks now but also not gone at all. Some things will never be measured by clocks...
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Every once in awhile I think about you. It's such a shame that you aren't here anymore. Rest in Peace Anna.
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Three years today, sweetheart. We miss you.
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"Away 127 weeks" but your art and your passion have not gone away any weeks at all.
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All your photographs have such painful beautiful emotions
The sort of thing that leaves people torn between averting the eyes and staring mesmerized
It's something all photoraphers should aspire to
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It's funny how even though I know you'll never read this, I feel the need to comment. I miss you, Kiota. You'll never know how important you were, and still are, to me. Hope you are at peace.
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I had no idea. I noticed your LJ was cut off a while back, but I was hoping you were doing it to try to move on. Or that it was cut off as part of another LJ cull.
I hope, wherever you are, you've found peace.
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"Above all else, I'm free."
A favourite of yours then, a favourite now. And forever.
The freedom to love. Ours, also. Coming to you.
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why was anna's livejournal suspended?? :/ i miss her and thats just not right..
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Her family requested it. Now it is private and available only to them.
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its a bit disheartening but understandable i suppose.
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Miss you so much Kiota.
You helped me not cut so many times.
Love you still.
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You are very much alive in the hearts of everybody at Arlington Street, I know, I was there yesterday with us all. You are also going to Cambodia. In a timeless way ... <3
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I wish I could see more of your artwork, Anna. Miss you.
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Damn,
I never really knew you that well, I knew you from LiveJournal etc.
We kind of got out of touch in the last few years, but still, I feel sad to have learned of what happened. The that can be said is she is in a better place now.
R.I.P.
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Just another thing I meant to click the sadness emote, not anger
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I don't know you. I've never even seen your work or your page until today (same goes for the person through whom I found you ... Jen).
But ... knowing what happened makes me sad. Based on what others have said, it seems you were a particularly special person. Your cousin seems to have cared a great deal about you.
I'm certain that many others did, too ... and still do.
It's unfortunate that you were unable to find happiness on this earth.
I hope that those who loved you will find some solace in the idea that you're now happy wherever you are.
~J
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I never knew you personally, but I found your journal through Lois' and have followed your public writings for a while now. While I didn't have a personal connection to you, this still hurts because even from your journal posts I could tell you were a tremendously courageous, intelligent, beautiful young girl. You had a bright light about you that affected and touched many people.
Rest in peace, sweetheart. You will be greatly missed.
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We had the weirdest love/hate relationship. XD;;
I don't know if she ever mentioned it before, but Anna was very little and very light. I got angry at her this one day and went completely crazy!! I waited on her hand and foot all weekend but she never thanked me, or even seemed to notice that I was catering to her every whim- I skipped classes, let her photograph me in ways I wouldn't under normal circumstances, let her photograph me hanging out of my third story window (legs dangling really, but it wasn't very safe), and I bought her everything she said she liked when we went shopping a couple of times.
She wanted to do some photography one day, but she wanted to have a gun in the photos since I was all decked out in leather for the shoot. I looked all over for my dad's pistol, since I was being such an airhead... I can't believe I did that. We ended up using a very large kitchen knife instead though.
The photography was fun... but it was all for her really. I thought maybe my being extremely sweet would have some kind of impact on her... Like maybe she'd forgive me for being weird sometimes.
However, she didn't say thank you once. She didn't use typical courtesy habits that most people have. Things like saying- good morning! or, how are you? or so what have you been up to? She had no real interest in anything besides what she was doing or feeling. I always initiated any conversation, and we mostly talked about whatever she was thinking about.
Anyway, I kinda snapped and confronted her on my patio this one night. She completely ignored me though and smoked a cigerette. I snuffed out the end of it with my fingers since I was so angry. I kept trying to get her to look at me and she told me "Leave me the fuck alone."
So basically I picked her up and threw her in our pool. Like I said she's really light and small.
After I'd done it though I came back to reality and sort of realized what I'd done. I'd acted like a complete psycho and it was making blood rush to my head.
I cried and cried and helped her out of the pool and than apologized and told her she looked beautiful. (It was kind of odd, she still had that very angry look on her face from when she was holding her cigarette, except her hair was all wet, it was kinda funny- but not at the time.)
Anyway... afterwards we both put on some clean clothes and she went straight to her computer... as usual. I knew she'd be up all night writing to people if I didn't, so I turned off our internet connection. So she wouldn't be able to go online. :/
It made her very angry, but it was 2am and she had to leave early the next day. Dang she spent WAAAAAAY too much time online.
We shared a room in Idaho during winter break also... She was all out of sorts because the condo didn't have an internet connection. I asked her if she was going through withdrawals for lack of interweb. She was all- "YES, I AMM."
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i bet you really regret how that all happened now.
but i know for years all she had was herself, and she learned to survive that way. she had to take care of herself because she didnt think anyone else could.
i know i regret not talking to her more, and i think everyone has regrets about how everything happened.
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