MechaRoboSheep In reply to JasperTheShota [2016-09-03 04:16:19 +0000 UTC]

 :^)

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to Mr-Thoughtless [2012-11-11 07:29:41 +0000 UTC]

Si.

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-05-10 16:53:16 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, but this day was horrible and I hope it ends soon.

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TheGimpStory In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-05-10 17:02:37 +0000 UTC]

oh god what´s the matter? you shouldn´t be sad at your birthday

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-05-10 17:21:29 +0000 UTC]

lol I kid. I don't personally mind being alone on my birthday, and yeah the fact my dad is an ass gets me miffed, but other than that I'm fine. I just wish there was something to do. Enh. I'm a loser and Im fine with that. And I'm a loser and a sinner too (OOOOOOOOOOOH) But what can I really do but just sit back and laugh? In all reality this is hilarious, terrible yet hilarious.

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TheGimpStory In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-05-10 17:53:33 +0000 UTC]

even if you´re depressed you should try to cheer yourself up with some stuff to do! watching tv makes you depressive but you have to go outside to feel better
you´re in kiel right? go to a gay bar! i was there 6 years ago but maybe the "birdcage" still exists XD search it! and if you don´t find it: build one!

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-05-10 18:50:10 +0000 UTC]

Haha, well I tried doing that but I got kicked out by a casino and by a resteraunt for "wrong clothing" to which I said "Fuck you". It's not Jula Im pissed at, its my dad. I feel very alone in this country, and all he has to say to me is "Your not right, your a sinner, I love you, but you are evil and a sinner, let me pray for you to come to Heaven with me." It just.... compounds the loneliness I have. I dont know anyone in Kiel, except for Jula, but she is too busy with work, and the one person who calls from America, just made me feel like shit. So yeah... I don't feel very important right now, and the person who is supposed to make me feel important, doesn't think I'm important enough. But that's my fault for thinking so impulsively, I just thought you know, if I came and showed up, that she would drop everything for just a week and spend time with me. But I guess that was the last piece of my naivity that needed to die. At least it went out with some dignity.

What to do, a woman who has no time for her man
a man feeling worthless to his father,
and I don't have the clothes "appropriate" for this town.

Aiya. I need a drink.

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TheGimpStory In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-05-10 19:14:26 +0000 UTC]

wow you have a real bad mood right now. try to start everything new: go to a shopping center and buy new clothes, write something to your gilrfriend and then check out casinos and bars again.

and don´t feel sad because your girlfriend doesn´t have much time girls are difficult sometimes but she told me how long you two are together now and i really think she loves you. love doesn´t always show in spending the whole day together, there are tiny little details that show love. try to see them

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-05-11 01:12:37 +0000 UTC]

I did. I bled the casino who told me my clothes were no good slowly and painfully at the blackjack table. I got about 4 free drinks on the house, and I even forget why I was mad. Tonight was fantastiv and a win in my book.

I think, Jula and I have different priorities and how we view each other.
I love her enough to be with her, even if it means sacrificing my time, money, and comfort.
But I don't know what her view is, I thought it would at least to allot more than 4 hours, but I was wrong.

I've known the girl for 4 years, and I still don't know how she truly views me.

Am I important? Am I a crush? Am I someone worth working towards? What exactly am I worth to this woman? Because I honestly don't know, and when I don't know I assume the worst.

I know that there is love... but I think our definitions of love are different.
Love to me is unbounded and limitless. When two people love each other, deeply and truly, pain, sacrifice, and sadness have no power or meaning. Love is the ultimate happiness, and without it I feel horrible.

What her definition of love is, I do not know. Perhaps maybe she is in a position where she simply cannot back out, or perhaps she simply does not know how to react. Or perhaps I'm so horrible that she wants nothing to do with me. I honestly do not know.

She was right, (she normally is) I don't know her at all. I'm a stranger to her, and what time do you make for a stranger?

It's cold, and hard, and difficult to swallow, but thems the facts. I love her, with all of my heart and soul, but until she wants me as a boyfriend, and someone close to her, I can't be next to her. She leaves town Saturday to Hamburg, and I will ask to come with.

Watch this, she will say no, because something along the lines of shyness, no it will be a disaster, or I barely know you, sort of deal.

I believe, that my girlfriend, the love of my life, and the woman I want to marry, will turn me away, and in fact I'm mentally preparing for it even as we speak.

"no josh, you can't come with me.
>insert predicted line here
I'm sorry, it really sucks,
I told you May was bad time
Eat a snickers."

Aiya. What to do what to do.

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TheGimpStory In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-05-11 18:43:11 +0000 UTC]

WELL
i can only tell you what i think: so your girlfriend is in contact with your for 4 years now. that´s a really long time and staying together for a time like that simply does not work without any kind of attraction and interest from both sides. and i think that you both met now also proves that you´re not a "crush". i don´t know her as good as you do i guess and maybe everything you think is right, but you could also do a big mistake by always thinking at the bad things.

try to be positive life is difficult and relationships are difficult but sometimes things are so easy. switch off your brain and enjoy the little happy things you see everyday. try to see the positive.
i´m also a negative person but since some stuff happened in my life i try to enjoy everyday as much as possible

you should do that too!

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-05-10 17:09:00 +0000 UTC]

All my birthdays are terrible, but this one is just lonely, compounded by being told by my father (who I havent spoken to in 3 years) call me a sinner and a failure. I spent 3 hours with Jula yesterday, and because of her work she can only spend 1 tomorrow, and thats it.


I guess, I'm bitter and pissed off. Not at her, just at the situation, and then having the wound salted by my dad. I can't even make the woman I love have more time to want to be with me. The woman I've spent this time and money for. This honestly is even more depressing than last year. At least there was no soul crushing failure. Whatever, I can't off myself (because I would fail at that too) so I guess the most I can do is fail to get Jula's attention, AGAIN, and go drink myself to sleep.

Being alone on my birthday is nothing new, but add all of this failure up, and the remarks from my dad, I just feel like a total piece of shit.

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-12 14:10:38 +0000 UTC]

From Outer Space? AMAZING!

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-13 15:48:43 +0000 UTC]

yes, exactly

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-13 16:23:41 +0000 UTC]

outer space is quite breath taking, I would know since Im a Space Admiral and all.

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-16 13:23:50 +0000 UTC]

get on my horse, i´ll take you to the universe!

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-17 21:46:43 +0000 UTC]

Well if I can perfect my constant variance equations and learn some more spatial equations, I think in a period of an hour, or perhaps a dat, I can create a universe of numbers. Would you like to visit such a place like that? An imaginary realm of infinite layers within infinite layer, that grows exponetially upon every gigagoogleplexian of a second? Like I said, in a matter of minutes, I can create an imaginary realm that is larger than our universe, but my realm of equations is doomed to invalidation, because of the reliablilty of the constant variance equation of 1/1/j/0 which is an extended form of division by zero. But's that basic extension, perhaps if I consider creating an advanced constant variance equation of j^2/j^2/j^2*j^2/0 and adding it to a 6^6 matrix I can push my realm's lifespan to several more infinite eons that just a single infinite eon. (Infinite being defined as j*j of j.) (j being defined as infinity-1^infinity*infinity/1ggpxsecond.)

Sorry for your brain matter on the floor though, this is still a work in progress though. Once I perfect my equations, I will have become a creator of illusion number realms.

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-18 12:52:33 +0000 UTC]

i hate numbers.

and your plan will never ever work. why don´t you make necklaces with horseshoe crabs anymore? that´s easier and looks nice too!

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-18 17:15:01 +0000 UTC]

Because the horseshoe crabs are not in season

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-20 14:27:24 +0000 UTC]

lol, those bitches don´t go swimming when it´s that cold?

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-20 18:18:23 +0000 UTC]

No, they only beach when the water is cold, but not too cold. They thrive in the summer, but they don't come on the beach. In winter they are on the bottom of the ocean floor. So I have to go around July-August when they have their mating spree and collect the dead bodies of the literal dead fuckers.

Speaking of mating spree, have you ever had sexy dream about someone, woke up feeling all like sexy, and decided yup it's sexy time?
Yup.

I actually open my fridge with mine today.
And I started my toaster with it too! XD

Anyway I'm online today

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-21 13:18:51 +0000 UTC]

1. interesting information
2. lolwut
3.........
4. PROFIT

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-21 17:50:13 +0000 UTC]

Y U NEVER ONLINE?

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-22 14:59:30 +0000 UTC]

sorry i have life xD

i will be online maybe....next weekend xD

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-23 10:37:06 +0000 UTC]

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-23 12:55:21 +0000 UTC]

honey, we´ll meet soon
you won´t be alone FOREVER. just for a few more years

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-24 18:19:27 +0000 UTC]

Haha, actually it's best that you have plans the next two week anyway, I'm going through spring finals and I do need to concentrate.

We just need to chatty mc chat chat before I fly on the 8th so we can figure out all the little things like,

"Where and when will we meet up?" (Because I don't feel like coming to your house in the rain and blasting a boombox with a love song and saying "Come out here and face me like a man, woman!")

"How we will keep in contact when I come over to Germany"(Because I don't feel like doing the fishing thing on ICQ and DA to hope that you will answer me when I'm in Germany)

And other little plans like "What to actually do" (Because I love you and everything, but I really just don't want to stare at a wall for a week and not doing anything XD)

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-25 17:54:36 +0000 UTC]

i thought your mobile phone works in germany too
my one is normally switched off but i can force it to be on :3

i don´t know when we can meet but i will figure that out and i will be online before you fly (when do you fly exactly anyway?? )


and kiel is the most boring city of boring cities so i don´t know what to do o__O
we can go shopping......or maybe go to the water and watch boats.......we could go to a museum....... i don´t know

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-25 18:58:05 +0000 UTC]

It does work in Germany. (I just havent tested it yet XD)

Yes you will be turned on, but will you answer? I don't even know your schedule, (I guess we'll figure it out)
Not so much when, but where. You put on so many restrictions, that I'm not sure what to do. ( I fly in 2 weeks)

I could rent a car and we can travel the city or go wherever. But wherever it is, I want to go with you.

And oh God please don't say When, I have only 5 days with you, if that. I leave May 8th, fly 16 hours and I'll be settled in my hotel, late May 9th. I guess we have Thursday to Monday to have fun together. (Donnerstag zu Montag) Then Monday night I have to leave to go back to America by Tuesday. So yeah, I'm only in town for a long weekend I guess. :3

We could fuck.

XD

Sorry, I just wanted to break the tension.

Two weeks away, Juli, that's why I've been like. Y U NO ONLINE?

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-04-28 11:45:27 +0000 UTC]

of course i will answer your texts when my phone is on :3

hm... it´s your choice. a little problem could be gas stations because they are hard to find in kiel. even if it sounds a little strange: the easiest and cheapest way is seeing kiel by foot or by bus xD i walk nearly everywhere and only use the car for long distances.
when we meet i wouldn´t drive with you, we would walk. because everything is close to everything :3
you ahve to decide if you want to drive in your "private time" xD


and i made a vid for you but it´s too long to send via mail i have 4 days off work now so maybe you are online too? :3

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-04-28 14:59:46 +0000 UTC]

well if you don't want to drive around that's fine, renting a car is expensive anyway.
Lol and private time? I won't have that much, seeing on how I only really have four days to spend with you. So it's either spend time with you, or don't spend time with you, and to behonest I like the first option more.

I'm actually online now, under the "Joshi" account, but it doesn't say that your online. D: but your account name under this account is "KonataKitten" so maybe that has something to do with it?

Anyway, I'm on. :3

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xKinutaDosux In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-05-05 09:34:23 +0000 UTC]

but i guess i only have 2 days time to spend with you i told you that may is the worst month in the whole year >___<
i told you about that learning thing and i have to go there at friday and be there for about 4 days so that really sucks.


and my nickname is only "kitten" right now : / but icq is a bitch anyway

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to xKinutaDosux [2012-05-05 22:17:32 +0000 UTC]

I'd write a response, but I already left an email. XD

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to KonataKitten [2012-03-30 22:19:27 +0000 UTC]

I was online the whole time waiting for you Jula! D:

Y U NO COME ONLINE?

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KonataKitten In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-03-31 17:19:28 +0000 UTC]

were you using the right icq? xD

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to KonataKitten [2012-03-31 20:20:54 +0000 UTC]

Appairently not. >_> But from now on I'm using the account that I talked on Thursday from now on.

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-03-29 20:47:22 +0000 UTC]

Oh goodness no, that is simply a trolling act. XD

If I were to have a fursona, then I suppose a fox or an Elephant in estrus, but I don't have a fursona. My spirit animal is a bear though, and I have multiple identities, if you want to use that though. I do have to warn you, there are something of the far ends an oscillation model sort of nightmare wise. Something like a sheraphim mixed with Nightmare from Metriod, with eyes covering its entire wings, with a bulls hooves, and a sepernts tongue. Also it bleeds hatred and vomits blood!

And that's one of the more moderate ones! I draw nightmares, and envision nightmarish things, for the sake of an interesting world. :3

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TheGimpStory In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-03-29 21:12:25 +0000 UTC]

......THAT´S A CHALLENGE!


seriously, i draw all kind of shit as long as i get attention. i´m a bitch

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-02-27 20:57:56 +0000 UTC]

Oh hey, Ms said I should come to you for a fursona.

I don't particulary understand the whole " I AM AN ANIMAL IN HUMAN DISGUISE FUCK YOU STARSCREAM" sort of thing, but I am assuming it is an animal likeliness of someones personality am i correct?

Like a Poke personality (Mine happens to be Snorlax)

or a pony personality: Mine happens to be King King Son-Son. (Which looks like this, but with a look of I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK on his face. [link]

So for a fursona, should I be something Completely random, ( which I love doing) or something that is easy to draw? ( I want to be GLTHGLHTRTH The Colossal Flying Squid with a Fox Tail and Dragon Wings and a Squidward Nose.)

Or should I go with Lumie "Thomas Servoxitron Kit" Fox? (Which is actually all my online community stuff XD )

Please help a budding innocent flower (BWAHAHAHA) of a fur artist bloom into a yiffy pile of furry mess.



also, me and her are still doing FANTASTICALLY, and in may I'm going over to Germany to have a couple of dates and make her some dinner (and silently judge her on the state of her bathroom)

XD

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TheGimpStory In reply to MechaRoboSheep [2012-02-27 21:29:46 +0000 UTC]

woa
how the hell did she get the fursona idea?
i don´t think aza really is my fursona... it´s not like i´m running around and say "oh yeah i´m a female wolf hooray"....but i think you can solve your problem very easily:
just think of something you want to be and BE IT! ^___^
so if you want to be glthglhtrth (chthulus best friend?) then ....be...it? what the hell XD

it just needs to be something or someone you really adore and WANT to be. you can even change the personallity.
if you´re a shy guy (or a budding innocent flower ) you can make your fursona a real bitch or playboy. if you´re having a female side in your heart you can get a beautifully girlish character

it´s all up to you. and your pokemon personallity is snorlax?? we´re buddies, i think i would be slowpoke.......


to switch to your girlfriend:
go and have sex with her no seriously she´s always talking about you so i expected you two to still be a couple ^-^
she said you spent tons of dollars for her °____°

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MechaRoboSheep In reply to TheGimpStory [2012-02-27 21:35:21 +0000 UTC]

Lol.

No, I'm sticking to Lumie "Thomas Servoxitron Kit" Fox, which is pretty much my normal self, BUT WITH A CRAAAAAAAZY FOX PENIS!


Your not , your

Wow, really? I didn't know she talk that much about me.

Lol, I definately would eat that up, I really would. I would break her down the middle and turn everyone in a 3 mile radius gay by doing so. But she's shy, and doesn't want me hanging around her flat. XD

I tried asking her to spend like 2 or 3 nights at her place by the end of the vacation and she was like "NO THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE HOLY SHIT BLAH BLAH BLAH" and I was like "Oh whatever, I'm still making you dinner sort of thing"

I still love the FUCK out of her and everything, whoof, I'm excited, and scared and all sorts of things. I feel like a little kid. Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......... I want my Juli!!!!

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