taelmx In reply to Gillian9813 [2023-01-19 03:09:12 +0000 UTC]

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taelmx In reply to alabasterdragon [2019-05-30 23:05:03 +0000 UTC]

I am doing origami as well!!! 1000 sheets of paper! It's literally about all I can do here at the ward...hopefully I get out sometime next week!  

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alabasterdragon In reply to taelmx [2019-05-31 04:44:58 +0000 UTC]

Ward? You ok?

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taelmx In reply to alabasterdragon [2019-05-31 19:20:27 +0000 UTC]

Yes, perfectly capable of everything, it's my parents that actually HIRED A LAWYER to try to convince a judge I need medication. I was taking IV methamphetamine and smoking cannabis pretty responsibly before here...they have the D.A.R.E. fear based mentality with those things...I actually have the 2 qualifying conditions to take the meth and weed....ADHD and PTSD, respectively. It sucks here because I have PTSD/Anxiety that is pretty much untreated because they are giving me rispreadal(sp?)...it's an anti-psychotic and basically agitates my ADHD and makes me feel dumb and stupid. I really hate it here but I basically have to take this "mental illness" thing seriously instead of laughing at it like the fart it is.

What does suck is they make you keep your door open...I hear doors knocking...it's one of my PTSD triggers...I get a little shockwave I feel right in the chest when I hear it in the hallway...it's really cruel here if they had my perspective...kinda exacerbating my symptoms...also mis-transcribing a lot of what I say. Okay I have to go it's "group time"

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alabasterdragon In reply to taelmx [2019-06-03 05:25:39 +0000 UTC]

Sounds like they may believe in the myth of reefer madness. I'm not sure about the meth part, all I know about that stuff is that it destroys your body. It sounds like when you get out on your own you should seek medical support that is qualified and trained to help with all of your needs,not just a generic clinic for addicts. With the propper doctor you would be protected from your parent's interference.

They probably mean well, but they say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. Do what you can to get through to the other side intact and use what you can of the experience. Try to focus on the good when you can.

Can you get earplugs for the knocking? Would that help?

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taelmx In reply to alabasterdragon [2019-06-07 02:15:32 +0000 UTC]

I'd prefer to actually not be considered an addict!!! I don't like that word. I don't like the inferior medication either! I don't think I am addicted to much other than maybe cigarettes...even those I haven't had for a month here...getting wrongly placed in the "addict" category is my source of distress...the whole "I can't understand you speaking gibberish" thing, therefore, send you to rehab or say you have mental illness...hate it...absolutely hate it! I combine what I do with art, not destroying my body. Here's a very scientifically accurate statement:

Methamphetamine can actually HEAL the body...why is that? It needs to be combined with a proper mindset!!!

Wish I could show you my before and after to back it up!

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alabasterdragon In reply to taelmx [2019-06-16 00:37:32 +0000 UTC]

I can't pretend to understand that. I live clean of all alcohol and drugs by choice. My real addiction is sugar and dairy which I have given up as of 1/1/2019. I don't like things that compromise my body functions and health.

I don't judge others for their choices and lifestyles so long as it harms no one, including themselves.

All that being said, I have never heard of meth being beneficial. Maybe that's the source of your struggle with the other people?

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taelmx In reply to alabasterdragon [2019-06-18 18:09:24 +0000 UTC]

Yes! It's very rare, thus I have to really struggle to get away and distance myself from addiction/rehab informed perceptions. I kind of recoiled after realizing it helped me; started preaching about how great it helped me, but then recently realized that's a bad bad behavior. I've been kinda settling it back down but fight the urge to preach about it...thus the sort of "secret cult" thing needs to start becoming more of a focus for me, so people don't see a giant name tag that says "HELLO I DO METH"...so yeah, part of it is just shout shout let it all out. I used to have a stigma, fearing I'd get addicted at any moment, then realized I won't.

In other news, I am out of the psych ward! Woo! it's been almost 2 months without even weed, just recently started smoking cigarettes again...sorry my cigarettes are not going away anytime soon. I don't get carried away usually but I smoked a lot after a month of not smoking, so that's kind of good I guess! I had been eating cheesecake nearly every day at the psych ward, and I weigh like 150 normally, came back at 160 haha.

I am pretty average and healthy considering my habits, my body works very hard at it, I'm grateful. When I die maybe my genetics can be shared, maybe not! idk yet.

I also folded 3 jars full of origami cranes and then some all out on my dresser, maybe 50 or so!

ALSO WANNA START THIS BACK UP AGAIN SO I BOUGHT HOSTING AND A DOMAIN!
risingtide.international

I wanna put up a gallery of all the old artwork and just set up a forum that has attachments, then backup anything uploaded. I need to get myself settled in and maybe some weed before diving back in and recruiting and whatnot. I'm also wanting to go to school at DIGIPEN at some point so I might SEE YOU IRL if I move there! We'll see, it's a longshot as my parents are in "mental health" mode and trying to send me to "programs"...bleh!

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alabasterdragon In reply to taelmx [2019-06-18 21:30:50 +0000 UTC]

I live in Seattle so if you get into digipen we should totally leet up.

I recently made a t-rex Skelton using origami. I gave it away without taking many pictures but I plan to upload them soon. I saw the same pattern done by a master online (with some modifications) that made the same model hyper-real. I plan to revisit the model with the goal of getting a hyper real one...

Here's a link to the amazing one I aspire brio duplicate since day...

marianozavala-origami.blogspot…

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taelmx In reply to alabasterdragon [2019-06-18 22:20:54 +0000 UTC]

Meet and L33T, I love it!

Wow that skelleton looks totally accurate! You should try to make an Origami Weeble, remember the big ol tail?

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alabasterdragon In reply to taelmx [2019-06-22 07:55:09 +0000 UTC]

I've never invented a model... I don't think I'm up for it yet lol

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taelmx In reply to Koricthegreat [2014-09-10 01:53:27 +0000 UTC]

MUSIC WILL COME! AND THANKS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES I SHOULD DROP BY DEVIANTART MORE....hold on....*caps lock turn off!*....often!

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taelmx In reply to LinkinT [2013-10-01 11:01:04 +0000 UTC]

Thankies!~~~ (OMG SO LATE)

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taelmx In reply to UnicornReality [2013-02-11 08:03:36 +0000 UTC]

<3 <3 <3!!!

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taelmx In reply to SolomonMars [2012-08-04 20:23:41 +0000 UTC]

WHOA THIS IS THE COOLEST COMMENT EVER, THANK YOU!~ *BURP*

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SolomonMars In reply to taelmx [2012-08-04 20:40:16 +0000 UTC]

haha well, you make the coolest music ever
so i 'spose it's appropriate eh? XD
y'welcome welcome :3

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taelmx In reply to SolomonMars [2012-09-27 06:41:48 +0000 UTC]

Cool music Chatto loves to make Chatto music!~

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taelmx In reply to GRODSPEED [2012-08-04 19:20:54 +0000 UTC]

YING!~ TY TY

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GRODSPEED In reply to taelmx [2012-08-09 01:20:01 +0000 UTC]

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taelmx In reply to ReCloud [2012-06-13 05:08:02 +0000 UTC]

Well, I am quite busy atm! If you can wait 2 weeks I should be able to compose something though. If not you can find somebody else to do it :3 Let me know!!!~

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ReCloud In reply to taelmx [2012-06-13 05:26:33 +0000 UTC]

dose this week count? or ya mean the next 2 week ?

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taelmx In reply to ReCloud [2012-05-15 12:48:07 +0000 UTC]

For a single song, it really can vary! I've whipped up stuff in 2 hours, and taken as long as 3 days for some.

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ReCloud In reply to taelmx [2012-05-16 08:39:22 +0000 UTC]

cooool *u* i wanna ask if ya can do one from me and my team for our animation graduation project

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taelmx In reply to ReCloud [2012-05-20 21:09:24 +0000 UTC]

Possibly possibly, what all do you need?

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ReCloud In reply to taelmx [2012-05-22 12:32:24 +0000 UTC]

Could you compose a song? We have the lyrics. It's a really short one. It's a rhyming song for our project.

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taelmx In reply to ReCloud [2012-05-22 21:40:20 +0000 UTC]

Possibly possibly, are they just lyrics, or do you have a vocalist to sing em?

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ReCloud In reply to taelmx [2012-05-23 09:27:45 +0000 UTC]

yea we have a vocalist to sing. Not a professional one, but as good as we can find. We are open for any suggestions though, what material do you want to get going?

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taelmx In reply to GRODSPEED [2012-05-08 01:08:59 +0000 UTC]

:icomcannotevenplz:

Arigatou Kei-san!~

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GRODSPEED In reply to taelmx [2012-05-15 01:35:34 +0000 UTC]

Heeeey, I heard parts of "Call to Time" in The Mindless~

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taelmx In reply to GRODSPEED [2012-05-15 12:48:36 +0000 UTC]

Yep!~
Good ears!

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GRODSPEED In reply to taelmx [2012-05-21 18:37:15 +0000 UTC]

I didn't notice at first.

These songs are great! When were you working on 'em?

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taelmx In reply to GRODSPEED [2012-05-22 21:41:04 +0000 UTC]

Pretty recently! I've been delving into a lot of electronica and whatnot.

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GRODSPEED In reply to taelmx [2012-05-28 23:20:59 +0000 UTC]

Ah! Yes! They're different from anything I've heard from you, more of an interactive/music game feel. I wanna press some music notes or shoot stuff! Or both! 0:<

Dog Walk. I was like... "whoa, this sounds like Lumines!" Probably because that song, Take a Dog Out a Walk. [link] But your Dog Walk sounds like it's on another planet lol. *shot*

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taelmx In reply to GRODSPEED [2012-06-05 04:56:58 +0000 UTC]

ah yes, the planets. This dog isn't even from the Milky Way, it's from Adromeda.

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