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tl;dr for people who dont care/have time: i hate 99% of my old art and ive moved it to storage. (i had to like bite down on something to resist storing a l l of it but whatever.) if you commissioned me and didnt save it or need it for whatever reason, note me and ill send it to you.

i will be doing the rest of the commissions i owe in my old style because im assuming thats what people payed for. after that, im gonna be trying out a whole bunch of shit (which may result in my not being able to make fucking decisions and posting nothing for another two centuries again, who knows) and making my gallery something i personally can feel proud of again. theres something about pretty much everything ive submitted that just bothers me on a fundamental level; in some cases its execution, in some cases its the subject, in some cases its for sentimental reasons or negative shit ive associated with it/working on it, but whatever the case i find myself kicking myself for how literally every single piece turned out and wishing i had done better or gone back in to fix something or just never posted it at all and im just tired of it. its so demotivating its ridiculous. if i ended up storing something you liked, im sorry, but i do hope you understand where im coming from. that being said, of course there are some pieces that im still really attached to, so i may go back with some of my old favourites and do some retouching (or completely redo them) and reupload them sometime in the future.

overall i think what im trying to revamp above everything else is my actual process. i cannot express in words how t i m e - c o n s u m i n g my current drawing/painting process is and i really, really want to figure out a way i can streamline it without losing quality or detail. because if staring at a whole bunch of work you hate is demotivating, spending hours and hours and h o u r s on one fucking thing that shouldve taken two hours max and that you end up hating immediately afterwards is fucking soul-crushing. its, like, stupid how much time i take to do every little thing the way things are now. which is part of the reason why commissions from me take about 3000 years. (again sorry) so like i said, the rest of the commissions im going to do like how i usually/used to do. after that, hopefully i will start to work on original/non-commission shit again (because i have three different folders full of unfinished shit as it is) and experiment and maybe see a bit of change. idk. im just trying to figure out what i like and whats gonna make me happy. the good news is, as far as my life in general, i am happier and more productive and busier (in a good way) and just overall in a better place mentally and emotionally now than i have been in literally years which is terrific for inspiration and just doing a whole bunch of creative shit so im really looking forward to just e n j o y i n g art again fuck