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Published: 2015-07-12 09:20:17 +0000 UTC; Views: 403; Favourites: 17; Downloads: 0
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"What if somehow you get hurt. What do I do? I don't want that for you...What am I going to tell you? You're better off not knowing the trouble i'm in. I don't want you to worry, about what I've just seen, about where I've just been. You don't have to be a part of this. I don't think I want you to be.
You don't need this.. You don't need me.."
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I'm about to vent so uh, be warned: I got back from the GNPDMA Friday and i've been feeling kind of upset ever since I left. I met so many amazing people there and everyone was so motivated and involved in the program. Everything about the place was wonderful, but the people especially were fantastic, they were so kind and encouraging and oh man how much i wouldn't mind seeing my squad again or participating in one last march off with all those amazingly talented people. Anyway long story short, i got home and have been feeling really upset and lonely ever since. I mean it's probably something i'll get over soon, but being around people like that for pretty much 18 hours of the day for five days has already gotten me used to the energy and generally tight knit feeling of the whole group. It's amazing how much you can grow attached to complete strangers in just five days of being around them, especially when they're really great people. But yeah, i guess in general i'm just feeling really lonely, and i miss everything about dma and time is a sucky thing to watch go by.
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First of all, this is really beautiful sweetie. ;w;
Second of all, I know how you feel. I go to a lot of cons and meet a lot of awesome people there- spend the weekend with them and then head home, and it can leave you feeling kinda lonely and unfulfilled afterwards... But the important thing to remember is that you still have people around you that love and care for you and you don't need to feel alone. You always have friends that are there for you, and people that need you to be around and want you to be happy wherever you are and whatever you're doing. I would say that you can note me if you need to talk but I always say that and you should know this by now LOL. But I'm gonna say it again just in case you need a reminder: My notes, Skype, and everything are always open to you if you want to talk to me. I don't want you to feel alone and unneeded because you are an awesome person, an amazing friend, and dozens of other things I could list out. Just try to take care of yourself love. //hugs
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Thank you so much. I honestly really needed to hear that. I just really am upset I guess because it was such an amazing experience and I'll probably never get to do that ever again in my life. Being around people like that is just so phenominal and I wish I could transpose my thoughts and feelings into other people so that they could fully understand just the whole magnificence of it. I will most definitely send you a note as long as can remember to not fall asleep after I get home later. Thank you again, it really means a lot when you say stuff like this. I don't know how you got to be so kind but you are absolutely a wonderful person and I wish the very best for you.
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Pfft there is no need to thank me for anything dear, all I ever try to do is speak the truth. ;w; And hey you never know so don't say things like that- you still have a lot ahead of you and a lot of things to go do and explore! Just try to keep your chin up, shoulders squared and face the world with a positive outlook, and surround yourself with people that make you feel good, because being around people that are negative can only hurt you in the long run and sometimes you have to do what's best for yourself, even if it means cutting off other people. There are always experiences that make life so much better and as long as you look for things that you wanna do and put your mind to it, you will be able to do it again, and you'll be able to connect with people like that too, people can really surprise you sometimes, even if its someone that you've known and was right infront of you the whole time. I really hope that you can feel at home and happy even at home too.
But I always just try to drill it into your head and my other friends and stuff too that my life wouldn't be complete without all of you and you all matter tremendously to me, if you feel like you're unneeded or not wanted its not true because there's always a spot in my family and in my heart for you, if I didn't need or want you around I wouldn't bother talking to you and trying to be here!
And your words mean a lot to me too, more than I could probably say (its so indescribably awesome that I'm having a hard time describing it) but I'm just glad that I can make your day a little bit better sometimes and put your mind to rest even a small bit. And hey if you need the sleep then get some rest- I'll always be here.
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Ahh if you need someone to talk to you can drop me a note ; . ; /
this is really pretty btw, his hair is really fluffy ; v ;
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Thank you for the offer. I probably will later on today, it's been a little while since we've talked so it would be nice to get hear from you again. :'v
Thank you, that's good to hear considering I can never draw Carmal right consistantly especially his hair, it's always parting in different places.
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yeah I haven't talked to anyone in ages especially since I was on break for some time
it looks great, you did a good job! c:
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