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Published: 2013-02-22 19:40:48 +0000 UTC; Views: 977; Favourites: 80; Downloads: 2
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It's hard to feel happy with everything going on, but I don't want to be down, and I don't have TIME to be down. My mom doesn't have a husband, and my brother is Australia and the other brother flee'd from the stress. I have to be there for my mom while she has cancer. I need to be strong for her. She cries a lot and is in a lot of pain and really sick. I'm trying to stay positive and be happy, encourage her. But it's so hard. I don't want to bother anyone with my true emotions, so I keep them inside, and the stress is just bottling up more and more. But I need to be strong for my mother. I don't want to show her my own pain, she already has enough stress.My grandpa's second operation went wrong, aGAIN. They accidentally made 3 holes in the veins to the liver, and he lost a lot of blood. They filled it up again, but he's still bleeding a lot. He was close to death yet again, stupid morons don't know how to do operations. THey're ruining my grandpa with all their stupid mistakes. It adds to the stress too.
Butyeah. This is kinda expressing my emotions kind of thing.
I want to be happy and positive and I'll try to stay happy and positive as long as I can. Hide away the depressing stuff and don't show it.
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I hope everything is going better for you... Stay strong Aluri but don;t be afraid to open up to your mom when you really need her. It doesn't always help to keep things bolted up inside.
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Hope you feel better. It sounds like your having a hard time.
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hey aluri, deze tekening breekt mijn hart. ik heb ook wel veel meegemaakt, mijn tante is vermoord, mijn vader is overleden in mijn handen, ik ben mishandeld, (ik overdrijf niet). ik wil niet op een narcist lijken mja. ik snap het helemaal, dat je gestrest bent enz. leven is gewoon kut soms. soms best wel heel erg kut. het is een zwarte tijd waar je ingaat, maar probeer positief te blijven. en niet je emoties voor jezelf laten, je moet het ergens kwijt toch? damn, mensen verdienen dit niet, jij ook niet. life is unfair. keep your head up, lena! i am here, to support you! <3
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Wow.. Dan heb je echt veel meegemaakt, wat erg. :c En ik blijf positief, het moet er gewoon eens in de zoveel tijd uit komen, dit is mijn manier van doen xD
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At least your Grandpa didn't die on YOUR 5th birthday.Still,I feel bad for you.
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Oh gosh, I didn't knew of this :c
I'm so sorry to hear all that, I'll pray for you and your family
You''re being so positive minded, and you should stay that way!
Things will be better eventually, if you want to talk or something, feel free to send me a note
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Aww Aluri 
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It's really admirable that you try to stay positive, just take it easy, girl, and know it's okay to want some support from others sometimes<3 I still pray every day for you and your family. Stay strong!!
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I'm sorry about all of these things that are happening.
I'd say something more encouraging, but I just don't know how these things feel...
All I can say is sorry, and that I hope things get better soon.
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I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling this stressed, honey, but please know that no one will blame you for it. It's okay to let out your emotion to your friends, real friends will help you when you need them most <3 Don't be afraid you'll "bother" them or anything.
Pfff that's such a shame for your grandfather, I hope he will recover soon enough. Operations concerning the liver are always very hard, please know that those doctors are trying their best to help them as well, operating a patiΓ«nt is hard enoug already. You have a strong personality, dear, you're a fighter and you will fight your way through this. It's okay to feel a little helpless, but do realize there are allways people to support you in the meantime 
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Thank you Kirsten <3
Haha I guess I've got a problem with sharing my feelings haha. I can't help but feel like a bother. I want people to know me as that positive person, you know? n.n
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You're welcome! <3
That's all right, it's not the easiest thing in the world to do, in fact. I understand where you're coming from though, I do not like to share my sorrows with people either because it makes me feel that I failed in being strong. Yet, it can be so comforting to have someone listen to you when you need it most ;u; <3 The people that care about you won't ever see you as a bother. The ones that do, are most likely the ones that do not care about you as a person, so fuck those and share them feels! :'D
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Well d'awww, stop being too nice hasdjkashd DBut yeah, its true, Ill try to share my concerns with friends more often. It DOES help.
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Oh it's really not a problem dear ;3; <3
You should, you will find that it's relieving and it makes you face or solve your problems ^^
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Sending you lots of cuddles and hugs :< <3 Here if you ever need someone to listen
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BTW, Im coming to the UK in august xD
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Hey that's awesome! You know where abouts you'll be?
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Oh Aluri
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No problem.
I've never had as much misery as you have right now, but I really do care.
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Aw Lena :c I wish I could do something to help you feel better. Anything really. I mean, I'm not the greatest person when it comes to cheering up my friends, But I really care. I'm not that good at expressing my true emotions. It's really good to let it out sometimes, even if it's really hard. 
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Just being there and showing your support is very helpful, thanks Nova <3
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I'd be very tempted to sue those doctors...
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I'm sorry that all this is happening to you, if theirs any way I can help I'll try! If you ever want to talk just send me a note.
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Thanks for the support! <3
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I Hope you feel better soon, and that you mom and grandpa are going to be alright. I am going through a lot of stress to.
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np. though when you feel down, crawl in a corner and read creepypasta. Then you won't feel sad but more terrified^^
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Oo sweety I feel so sorry for you. It's so unfair. All the misery bottles up and it all comes at once....I really hope things will get better soon for you.. Sometimes we have to let out all the stress and emotions, we can't keep them inside forever. It'll be too much, but don't forget you can always, and I repeat ALWAYS come to us, to get things off your heart. You can always send me a note if you feel like talking, or just want to rant on the world, I'll listen. You're a strong person, and you put lots of energy in helping your mom but don't forget about yourself. Take good care of yourself
Take care sweety.
It's a nice drawing though, really love the way you 'painted' it
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Thank you for the support Bimmmm <3 You're too niceeee.
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Maybe don't pretend to be happy, but rather try to keep a supportive and considerably positive mindset despite the hardships? Which doesn't equal being happy, imo.
Faking a smile in situations where smiling isn't even really appropriate might in the end only make you feel worse. Show the people around you that you're there for them and try hard to improve the situation, but don't lie to them that you're okay despite everything that's going on, since it's only reasonable and likely pretty obvious that you're not, and I don't think anyone can blame you for that.
Keep strong!
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Okay, that's true. I'll do that. 
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I'm sorry dear :c
I hope things'll be better for you, your mom and grandfather soon..
If you want someone to talk to, you can always sent me a note or something!
I really hope it'll get better
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Thank you <3
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Dude, I've been put through h*ll. I guess its not as bad as you, but I just wanna say don't let things in life get you down.
I've literally cut myself because of pain I've gone through. And I regret it. Doing stupid stuff is bad (even though you probably wouldn't vnv'')
But all I'm trying to say is; Keep on keepin' on. Times get rough, we all know. We've been there. I just hope things get better for you...
Sorry for being that one random person you don't know thats trying to comfort youI've been trying to share the happiness and love<3
Anywho.... like I said, don't let it get you down. Try to keep a smile on. And don't bottle up emotions. Its bad! I do that alot, and usually when they 'errupt', I say mean things to the people I love, even though I don't mean to.
So like, note a friend, or make rant art! It all helps c:
Hope everything get better for your Aluri...<33
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