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♦☺>The Artwork

Title: Haida
or (Random Haida)
or (The Lonely Walk)

Type: Painting
From the "Aggretsuko Fan Art" series

Duration:
Painting Started on 10-07-2019
about 11 days, 6 to 7 hours.

♦☺>Story

生 Live
笑 Laugh
愛 Love

i may not be very good with handwriting kanjis, but I though it might be interesting.

In the good hope of not letting all my written words be forgotten and be no use at all,
I will paste it all,

//////
hehe

This picture was taken with a Huawei P30 Pro phone with 50x zoom
CIA send me the picture,
They realized they could use the potential of Huawei phones as a tool to spy on people so they decided to delay the ban,
and decided to use them themselves.

He seems to have a problem on his back
Perhaps spends too much time sitted on a desktop all day long.

At least he goes out walking every once in a while to meditate about his miserable life.

/////

Nice picture by the way.

Who ever did this, surely had a hard time trying to make it look good.
It sucks tho ,
but we apreciate the effort.

I mean, I just can do so much,
wish I could come up with something better
but,
This is all there is.

/////

At the end
Everyone is looking for love.

And they are many ways true love can manifest.

////

♦☺>Inspiration Sources

Aggretsuko

♦☺>about the technique

Looking references of contemporary paintings
And hoping for one day, to actually,
Learn to paint something cool-aid.

♦☺>Critique

I donut but..

We are, we are the face of the future
We are, we are the digital heartbeat
We don't wanna change, we just want to change everything

i wanna change the world, but for a rock to move,
it has to evolve legs.

or let it be moved by the wind.

♦☺>Score

Score: 6.2/10

+ positive
Color: 7/10
Composition: 6/10
Gesture: 4/10
Anatomy: 5/10
Style: 6.4/10
Shapes: 5/10
Legibility: 6.9/10

- negative
Ugliness: 4/10
Boringness: 2.5/10

♦☺>Gripe

Today I had a very depressive hit,
this happens randomly, maybe too quite often.
Making me feel, i don’t want to do anything,
I mean, I’m really fighting to keep myself doing positive things and stuff
pretty much I’m at war against myself.

♦☺>Status Report

I feel sad, I feel very, very sad
I just wish for once, I could be happy for more than one night,
For more than a brief moment,
After doing something,
I can feel somehow proud of doing,
something that doesn’t actually destroy me.

If I could just somehow let this heavy grief get out,
Always, looking for a bright spot, a hidden shine in the darkness.

♦☺>Recommendations

All of the Above,
and Bottom.

♦☺>Random Text

Pretty much going to write about everything that got accumulated during time and times.

And I have a saying, if not for the value of the artwork,
then for the value of the description.

I hate to give "Spoiler Alert" warnings,
I dont believe in Spoilers, I believe in Colas de Pato.
but....SPOILER ALERT.
may talk in reference about a few things about Aggretsuko,
I already saw all of it, but,
this aint gonna be too specific anyways.
Just literally going to try to blow up the meaning of the existance of the whole series
and the universe itself.

To think about a few things.

Maybe freedom is the lack of fear.
And maybe fear is due to the lack of knowing.

Maybe Haida doesn't ask Retsusko for a date, because of fear,
even though he knows his own feelings, he cant see his own feelings reflected on Retsuko,
is this uncertainty, the lack of knowing about what she really feels,
produces in himself, fear,
and so, the insecurity and incapablity to talk about it.

I think fear, can have many shapes and forms.

Fear as drive, can induce you to get to the other side
making the jump, for the fear of dying trapped in the hole, as an impulse

Fear as an invisible wall, could be a warning claiming to be understood,
An acknowledgement of the state of yourself and your surroundings,
so you can know whether you are yes or not ready for taking a decision.

and, so, maybe, the fear of Haida, opened the events for the second season,
and so, let Retsuko have the chance for the exploration of herself,
To find what she really wants, and who she really is.

Just as Kabae suggested to Retsuko,
She will find the right person, just being herself.

You should not rely on the definition someone gave you about who you are,
you will know who you are by just truly being yourself, and so
Get to know the right people who can understand you,

As for romantic love,

it seems to me, that both parties should acknowledge the truth,
and fear should not interfere, for both know what they feel about each other,
and know each other's feelings,
without even having to speak a single word.
The answer is already there.
floating in the air,

And so, when the time is right, there shall be no fear, but courage.

///////

Life has taken me to a moment when I find myself unaware of what I want,
Has hit me in a way that longer enjoy small things,
has bounded in me in an uncontrollable state,
leaving me wandering in the darkness of the unknow,
not knowing where to go, where to head, and finding myself,
incapable of doing what I really want to do.

I do what I dont want to do,
and everything I want to do, I cant do it,
Im weary, navigating without direction, and hoping for a wave to sink the boat.

You may want to change the world.
But you can't change all of it.

You may want to help everybody,
But you can't help everyone.

You can do anything,
But you can't do everything.

You can be The best
You can be The Only
You can be The First
But you can't be all three.

These rules, I have tried to break since a long time.

Even though some videogames are hard,
they core essence for them to exist,
is to enjoy them.

You may take life as a game, even though, sometimes hard,
is meant to be enjoyed.

as for me...

I DECLARE WAR!

I declare war against my own Dark Link,
build an strategy against the enemy,
and wil blow up his head his a grenade.

I'm going Conker.

For a point where stagnation has hitted my life
removing time I had left for myself, to just a couple of hours per day,
no longer being able to paint as much and as often as I did, but every minute counts,
even if you only have an hour left in your day, make it count,
one day at a time.

I can picture someone asking me if the stuff I write is too personal.

But is only in the liberation of the natural expression of who you truly are,
that you can truly be free of fear.

so for me, writing from the inside is important.

you gotta let, let it all come out

and well… when you live in Hell, in a country like mine,
in the condition I physically and mentally live,
Pretty much you get to be unsure, whenever you may live another day or not.

And so got myself into the idea, that if I leave this world today,
I can at least right now, know I did something that is engraved somehow, in maybe just a little stone,
but a stone that is shared with everyone.

Maybe to say,
Here be a soul, whose struggle was engraved in stone,

An I idea that I can live with, that makes me feel comfortable.

You just need to have resistance, keep strong enough to pull yourself together.
Going succesfully through hard times, would just make you stronger,

Life is trial of resistance. At the end, is just about.
Never giving up.

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?

Open your eyes,
look up to the skies and see

easy come, easy go,
little high, little low
Any way the wind blows,

If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters.

Nothing really matters,
anyone can see
Nothing really matters to me

Any way,
the wind blows...

And the wind blows where it wishes,
and you hear the sound of it,
but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes.

v04 21/07/2019

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Description

( ' w ')

♦☺>The Artwork

Title: Haida
or (Random Haida)
or (The Lonely Walk)

Type: Painting
From the "Aggretsuko Fan Art" series

Duration:
Painting Started on 10-07-2019
about 11 days, 6 to 7 hours.

♦☺>Story

生 Live
笑 Laugh
愛 Love

i may not be very good with handwriting kanjis, but I though it might be interesting.

In the good hope of not letting all my written words be forgotten and be no use at all,
I will paste it all,

//////
hehe

This picture was taken with a Huawei P30 Pro phone with 50x zoom
CIA send me the picture,
They realized they could use the potential of Huawei phones as a tool to spy on people so they decided to delay the ban,
and decided to use them themselves.

He seems to have a problem on his back
Perhaps spends too much time sitted on a desktop all day long.

At least he goes out walking every once in a while to meditate about his miserable life.

/////

Nice picture by the way.

Who ever did this, surely had a hard time trying to make it look good.
It sucks tho ,
but we apreciate the effort.

I mean, I just can do so much,
wish I could come up with something better
but,
This is all there is.

/////

At the end
Everyone is looking for love.

And they are many ways true love can manifest.

////

♦☺>Inspiration Sources

Aggretsuko

♦☺>about the technique

Looking references of contemporary paintings
And hoping for one day, to actually,
Learn to paint something cool-aid.

♦☺>Critique

I donut but..

We are, we are the face of the future
We are, we are the digital heartbeat
We don't wanna change, we just want to change everything

i wanna change the world, but for a rock to move,
it has to evolve legs.

or let it be moved by the wind.

♦☺>Score

Score: 6.2/10

+ positive
Color: 7/10
Composition: 6/10
Gesture: 4/10
Anatomy: 5/10
Style: 6.4/10
Shapes: 5/10
Legibility: 6.9/10

- negative
Ugliness: 4/10
Boringness: 2.5/10

♦☺>Gripe

Today I had a very depressive hit,
this happens randomly, maybe too quite often.
Making me feel, i don’t want to do anything,
I mean, I’m really fighting to keep myself doing positive things and stuff
pretty much I’m at war against myself.

♦☺>Status Report

I feel sad, I feel very, very sad
I just wish for once, I could be happy for more than one night,
For more than a brief moment,
After doing something,
I can feel somehow proud of doing,
something that doesn’t actually destroy me.

If I could just somehow let this heavy grief get out,
Always, looking for a bright spot, a hidden shine in the darkness.

♦☺>Recommendations

All of the Above,
and Bottom.

♦☺>Random Text

Pretty much going to write about everything that got accumulated during time and times.

And I have a saying, if not for the value of the artwork,
then for the value of the description.

I hate to give "Spoiler Alert" warnings,
I dont believe in Spoilers, I believe in Colas de Pato.
but....SPOILER ALERT.
may talk in reference about a few things about Aggretsuko,
I already saw all of it, but,
this aint gonna be too specific anyways.
Just literally going to try to blow up the meaning of the existance of the whole series
and the universe itself.

To think about a few things.

Maybe freedom is the lack of fear.
And maybe fear is due to the lack of knowing.

Maybe Haida doesn't ask Retsusko for a date, because of fear,
even though he knows his own feelings, he cant see his own feelings reflected on Retsuko,
is this uncertainty, the lack of knowing about what she really feels,
produces in himself, fear,
and so, the insecurity and incapablity to talk about it.

I think fear, can have many shapes and forms.

Fear as drive, can induce you to get to the other side
making the jump, for the fear of dying trapped in the hole, as an impulse

Fear as an invisible wall, could be a warning claiming to be understood,
An acknowledgement of the state of yourself and your surroundings,
so you can know whether you are yes or not ready for taking a decision.

and, so, maybe, the fear of Haida, opened the events for the second season,
and so, let Retsuko have the chance for the exploration of herself,
To find what she really wants, and who she really is.

Just as Kabae suggested to Retsuko,
She will find the right person, just being herself.

You should not rely on the definition someone gave you about who you are,
you will know who you are by just truly being yourself, and so
Get to know the right people who can understand you,

As for romantic love,

it seems to me, that both parties should acknowledge the truth,
and fear should not interfere, for both know what they feel about each other,
and know each other's feelings,
without even having to speak a single word.
The answer is already there.
floating in the air,

And so, when the time is right, there shall be no fear, but courage.

///////

Life has taken me to a moment when I find myself unaware of what I want,
Has hit me in a way that longer enjoy small things,
has bounded in me in an uncontrollable state,
leaving me wandering in the darkness of the unknow,
not knowing where to go, where to head, and finding myself,
incapable of doing what I really want to do.

I do what I dont want to do,
and everything I want to do, I cant do it,
Im weary, navigating without direction, and hoping for a wave to sink the boat.

You may want to change the world.
But you can't change all of it.

You may want to help everybody,
But you can't help everyone.

You can do anything,
But you can't do everything.

You can be The best
You can be The Only
You can be The First
But you can't be all three.

These rules, I have tried to break since a long time.

Even though some videogames are hard,
they core essence for them to exist,
is to enjoy them.

You may take life as a game, even though, sometimes hard,
is meant to be enjoyed.

as for me...

I DECLARE WAR!

I declare war against my own Dark Link,
build an strategy against the enemy,
and wil blow up his head his a grenade.

I'm going Conker.

For a point where stagnation has hitted my life
removing time I had left for myself, to just a couple of hours per day,
no longer being able to paint as much and as often as I did, but every minute counts,
even if you only have an hour left in your day, make it count,
one day at a time.

I can picture someone asking me if the stuff I write is too personal.

But is only in the liberation of the natural expression of who you truly are,
that you can truly be free of fear.

so for me, writing from the inside is important.

you gotta let, let it all come out

and well… when you live in Hell, in a country like mine,
in the condition I physically and mentally live,
Pretty much you get to be unsure, whenever you may live another day or not.

And so got myself into the idea, that if I leave this world today,
I can at least right now, know I did something that is engraved somehow, in maybe just a little stone,
but a stone that is shared with everyone.

Maybe to say,
Here be a soul, whose struggle was engraved in stone,

An I idea that I can live with, that makes me feel comfortable.

You just need to have resistance, keep strong enough to pull yourself together.
Going succesfully through hard times, would just make you stronger,

Life is trial of resistance. At the end, is just about.
Never giving up.

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?

Open your eyes,
look up to the skies and see

easy come, easy go,
little high, little low
Any way the wind blows,

If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters.

Nothing really matters,
anyone can see
Nothing really matters to me

Any way,
the wind blows...

And the wind blows where it wishes,
and you hear the sound of it,
but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes.

v04 21/07/2019

Posted using PostyBirb