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my sweet

my love—

all I ever wanted was “you”.

but only—

the “you” I wanted you to be— the “you” that you used to be
the “you” who was kind, forgiving, grateful,
the “you” who would hold me close for no reason but to just simply be,
the “you” who would lean over and whisper sweets in my ear,
the “you” who would give me—
                                        a descent conversation.

not the “you” you really are— the “you” you are now
you are spiteful, ruthless, a horrid sex addict—
who could never be near me without grabbing my ass—
or (trying to) cope a feel,
your only sweet words are “C’mon babe, dont get mad”
when ever I tried talking to you, you would cut me off in the middle of a sentence
so you could to talk to your friends.
Who of coarse are more important that your “love”


but yet I will not leave you
but when I do
you always come crawling back…
                                     —begging— to me

                                          “Im sorry!”
                                             you always say,

“I didt mean to hurt you!”
you always urge,

“please baby, I dont want you to leave!”
you always plead,

and I always took you back.

                                           Only to have history repeat it’s self.

~but~

‘What happened?’
I wonder

‘when did it all go so wrong?’
I ask

as I lay on my bed before I go to sleep,
Insomnia kicking in from my persistent mind
for endless nights at a time.

‘What ever happened to the “you” I fell in love with’

And then I remember

And the tears weld—

~

“bitch,”
“go away!”
“looser”
“freak”
                   my ‘friends’ said.

“WITCH!”
“stay back! †”
“dont cast a spell on me!”
“retard”
                   The others say.

“you too creative!”
“learn to do real writing!”
“youre doing it wrong”
“youre never going to go far in life unless you can write in a five paragraph form!”

                                  The teachers would yell.

Then you…
“are you alright?”
“it’s okay”
“dont listen to them.”
And
“I like you.”

And I wouldn’t say the words (never had the courage to say)  ‘I like you too.’

~

but now—
You hurt me
You lie to me
You don’t care about me

but still.
I bared every scrap of my soul to you
I told you everything that I wanted to before
why I love you
why I keep taking you back
why I can’t stand being without you
why I need to have you with me
for all time
always
and I always hoped you would understand

you stood there, staring as I looked with hopeful eyes
you tilted your head down and said
“I dont believe you”
“youre lying”
“quit making shit up”
And
“all I want is sex”
“you know that”

So

Please

My sweet

My one and true and only love…

I still adore you despite your flaws,

But I cant STAND you!

Description
Please

my sweet

my love—

all I ever wanted was “you”.

but only—

the “you” I wanted you to be— the “you” that you used to be
the “you” who was kind, forgiving, grateful,
the “you” who would hold me close for no reason but to just simply be,
the “you” who would lean over and whisper sweets in my ear,
the “you” who would give me—
                                        a descent conversation.

not the “you” you really are— the “you” you are now
you are spiteful, ruthless, a horrid sex addict—
who could never be near me without grabbing my ass—
or (trying to) cope a feel,
your only sweet words are “C’mon babe, dont get mad”
when ever I tried talking to you, you would cut me off in the middle of a sentence
so you could to talk to your friends.
Who of coarse are more important that your “love”


but yet I will not leave you
but when I do
you always come crawling back…
                                     —begging— to me

                                          “Im sorry!”
                                             you always say,

“I didt mean to hurt you!”
you always urge,

“please baby, I dont want you to leave!”
you always plead,

and I always took you back.

                                           Only to have history repeat it’s self.

~but~

‘What happened?’
I wonder

‘when did it all go so wrong?’
I ask

as I lay on my bed before I go to sleep,
Insomnia kicking in from my persistent mind
for endless nights at a time.

‘What ever happened to the “you” I fell in love with’

And then I remember

And the tears weld—

~

“bitch,”
“go away!”
“looser”
“freak”
                   my ‘friends’ said.

“WITCH!”
“stay back! †”
“dont cast a spell on me!”
“retard”
                   The others say.

“you too creative!”
“learn to do real writing!”
“youre doing it wrong”
“youre never going to go far in life unless you can write in a five paragraph form!”

                                  The teachers would yell.

Then you…
“are you alright?”
“it’s okay”
“dont listen to them.”
And
“I like you.”

And I wouldn’t say the words (never had the courage to say)  ‘I like you too.’

~

but now—
You hurt me
You lie to me
You don’t care about me

but still.
I bared every scrap of my soul to you
I told you everything that I wanted to before
why I love you
why I keep taking you back
why I can’t stand being without you
why I need to have you with me
for all time
always
and I always hoped you would understand

you stood there, staring as I looked with hopeful eyes
you tilted your head down and said
“I dont believe you”
“youre lying”
“quit making shit up”
And
“all I want is sex”
“you know that”

So

Please

My sweet

My one and true and only love…

I still adore you despite your flaws,

But I cant STAND you!