bgnl2 [2016-08-31 18:12:36 +0000 UTC]
I know this picture goes back quite a bit, but I still have a lot of things I’d like to say about it.
First up, I like your pendant. It’s kind of hard to make out all of the details, even at full size (the only way to view your pictures), but it looks very interesting and I would love to hear a bit about what it represents.
Second, your hair. Your blue hair. If a friend had asked me 2 weeks ago, what I thought of blue hair, I’d have said nah, doesn’t work for me. I don’t think it looks good on a girl. But 2 weeks ago, I hadn’t encountered you yet. I hadn’t seen this picture yet. What is “aesthetically pleasing”. What does it mean to us? Well to me, rightfully or wrongfully, it is a box that we all build, and in it we put all of the things we think look nice, attractive, fun to look at etc. Anything outside of that box, just isn’t something we think looks good. It’s our “Aesthetically Pleasing Box”. But then along comes you. You pick up that box, rip it up and throw it over your shoulder. You force me to rethink what I think is aesthetically pleasing. You show that so many different looks and styles can indeed be aesthetically pleasing, and beautiful to see. Very much so. You help me redefine and build a new box. Bigger, broader, with a lot more in it. Then you make me wonder why I even need a box. There is just too many things in this world that can look amazing, that they can’t possibly fit in a confined space. You’re always making me think and re-think what I only thought I knew. Now I think even blue hair can look great. On the right person. Surrounding the right face. My sincere thanks for broadening my horizons. I enjoy growing, and learning and you are a great teacher.
Lastly, I come to your eyes. Eyes are the most interesting thing on a person in my opinion. Sometimes we do things we wish we hadn’t. Sometimes we say things we regret. But the eyes don’t lie. They are the window through which everyone can see into our true selves. See who we really, truly are. A quick glance at yours in this photo and people will say they are cute, beautiful, gorgeous, striking etc. And they certainly are. But in this photo, your eyes here seem to be begging for someone to look really deeply into them, to see what lies beneath the surface beauty. To be their voice. And so I did. And I encountered layers. The first layer I see is the current you of today. She’s happy. She’s starting to feel brave. Sometimes a bit cheeky. She’s learning it is ok to be happy. It is ok to feel good. She knows the everyday her is a pretty darned alright person. She finds solace in nature walks. She is relearning fun things she forgot long ago. She is pretty amazing.
Looking a bit deeper, I see another layer, a bit farther back in time. There is a sadness in her eyes at this layer. Frustration. Some despair. She feels a bit lost. Directionless. She has a fear of those unknown things that go bump in the night. There is an overall quiet desperation to her. But there is something else. Strength. Incredible strength. Strength to survive, strength to hold on and make it to a brighter future. I’m in awe of how strong she is. It helped her to get to where she is today, in that first layer I spoke of. It helped her to hold on to become the much happier person she is today. We should all be as strong as her.
Then I look even deeper and I see the inner core of this soul. This is the part of a person that is immutable. It is unchangeable. It is who we truly are at our core essence. The first thing I notice at your inner core is creativity. There is way more here than a single person should possess. But nobody can take it away from her. I say without shame, that I recognize that she is far more creatively talented than I could ever hope to be. Does that make me jealous? No, it makes me proud, for lack of a better word. Proud of what I have seen her accomplish, of what I continue to see her accomplishing, and what future successes I know lay ahead for her. She allows all of us to share in that. How wonderful that is.
In this layer, intertwined with her creativity is intellect. It is very easy to fall into the trap of dismissing her as just another beautiful, attractive girl. Beautiful girls aren’t intelligent, right? To anyone thinking that, I say think that at your own loss. Her intellect is substantial. It is something to be experienced. Her intelligence works hand-in-hand with her creativity to conceive, design and produce works that we all admire so much. She is generous, treating us to views of what she can do. Letting us witness her magic. And there is kindness. She utters words that could melt any icy heart. I look around in those eyes but can’t find ego in her . She doesn’t brag about her capabilities, gifts, and skills, whether they be drawings, writings, photography or modeling. She offers them up almost shyly for our judgement. It is a beautiful layer to behold in those eyes. I smile constantly when I encounter it.
And I look just a touch deeper to see the innermost portion of her inner core. Her absolute center. It is blindingly bright. Dazzling. It is priceless, with value beyond compare. It is irreplaceable. But how can I describe it? I’ll try, with a true story …….. I have stood in a Canadian field, with no one else around on a cloudless, bright sunny morning in mid-winter, after a blizzard happened overnight. The blanket of snow is blinding it is so bright to look at. It looks fresh. It looks pure. There are no footprints. No one has walked here before. Completely untainted by the world around it, but the world is a better, more beautiful place with it in it. I’ve removed my protective glove to interact with it, scooping some up and holding it in my hand, marveling at the uniqueness of each individual flake, and the complexity of the unified whole when they all come together, struck by just how truly beautiful it all is….. It’s not the only way, but it is one way to describe what I see at your inner core.
And all of these layers I spoke of, are my personal interpretation of the person I see when I look into those impossibly big, stunningly blue eyes of yours.
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