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Cry
let the tears flow
let the blood run dry
cry for yourself
cry for your past
cry for what's lost
no one can judge
they don't know
they can't know
feel
feel for once
feel it all
let everything sink in
let it all in
forget what you can't have
forget the cause
loose yourself
let loose
let the blade bite a little deeper
let the punch sink in
have it all
take over
no need to stop
feed the addiction
bleed it out
bleed away the shame
the loss
the disappointment
the pain,
the pain
always coming back
always stirring up trouble
always seemingly at the route of all
causes
reasons to stop?
I was told to,
but who cares...
I will scar,
too late for that
I could die,
that's a comfort
not a fear
keep listing...
I guarantee no reason
is enough
no cut deep enough,
no amount of blood,
no physical pain to mask it,
nothing
how I crave it
to be blissful in nothingness
to have even the numbness gone
what a utopian idea
but the catch....
the catch? no life left,
give it all up, for nothing
how odd...
to loose everything,
so you can have nothing
as if nothing is everything
would everything make
the want of nothing less?
can everything make me
forget nothing?
but everything is unattainable
nothing only takes suicide
just click the easy button
out of life
step over the edge
swallow the pills
pull the trigger
do whatever it takes
let suicide be a comfort
such a choice to make
to live or die?
live in pain
or die in peace...
easy choice right?
but the guilt,
the unfinished,
the disappointment
it's too much
it's a choice,
not a choice
it's THE choice
yes or no,
maybe so?
not possible
so I still cut,
so that choice
is not necessary.