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from you came words, sounds,
thought; you tied me to your belly
and opened wide. i learned
to hold my breath and plunged
headfirst into that imperfect world.
i used you like a buoy, like polaris:
found sacred paths, any way forward
that fled you, until the tether choked.

i slipped inside desperate women
and searched for a surrogate.
i softened their hearts, then cut
when their voice became yours,
leaving nothing for the autopsy
but scars as memory, as evidence.
their weight still drags behind me;
always, your corpse holds me down.