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Reynbeau12 [2011-11-04 22:07:34 +0000 UTC]

i feel you..... iv been cutting for a few years now. all of my friends know. and iv tried to tell my parents. but my friends dont tell me to stop and my parents just brushed it off....

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AshetheREDscout In reply to Reynbeau12 [2012-08-28 18:30:24 +0000 UTC]

same here *hugs*

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cAliwasnthere [2010-09-21 23:02:41 +0000 UTC]

i never thought of it that way.. No one has ever told me to stop..

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eskimuffin In reply to cAliwasnthere [2010-10-02 16:34:42 +0000 UTC]

same here.

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TheDeviDee [2010-08-31 04:28:38 +0000 UTC]

this picture says everything i've been to afraid to admit to myself.

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eskimuffin In reply to TheDeviDee [2010-08-31 04:49:44 +0000 UTC]

I know what that's like...
I guess we have to try to stop on our own...
at least that's what I've tried (and failed) to do...

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TheDeviDee In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-31 05:01:03 +0000 UTC]

just curious, do you want to stop?
because even when people found out, i didn't want to. i still don't.

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eskimuffin In reply to TheDeviDee [2010-08-31 13:45:15 +0000 UTC]

well, I do, but I don't at the same time.
I want to stop in case someone checks...they think I've stopped. so that's kind of why I want to, so I won't get in trouble or something like that...
but I don't want to stop, because, it's how I cope, you know what I mean?

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TheDeviDee In reply to eskimuffin [2010-09-01 00:18:25 +0000 UTC]

i know what you mean.
and yeah, the only reason i don't do it as much is because i know the second i indulge, someone will decide to check me.

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eskimuffin In reply to TheDeviDee [2010-09-01 14:13:27 +0000 UTC]

Exactly the same with me.
the only person who checks is my mom OCCASIONALLY, she only has about 4 times, but I just have the feeling i cut, she will check.
So I just cut in random places...

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TheDeviDee In reply to eskimuffin [2010-09-01 17:48:34 +0000 UTC]

yeahh, same.
i hate it though... i can never cut deep enough because i can't risk the scarring.

&i wish people would see cutting the same way they see drinking and smoking weed. getting drunk & high? acceptable coping method. a little harmless bleeding? now thats wrong.

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eskimuffin In reply to TheDeviDee [2010-09-10 02:00:39 +0000 UTC]

I agree
I hate how people think self harm is nothing to worry about
they don't know how it effects people
the only people who know what its like, are the ones who actually do it.

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rcsi1 [2010-08-29 07:00:03 +0000 UTC]

In my experience, my parents couldn't help me and realized I had a problem too late. I ended up having to help myself. I haven't cut in about a year.

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eskimuffin In reply to rcsi1 [2010-08-29 14:44:46 +0000 UTC]

congrats, that's really good you did it on your own, it can make you a stronger person
I have helped myself too, my friend said she "helped" but she made it worse, so I have just been trying to resist the urge on my own

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HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 02:14:27 +0000 UTC]

Unfortunately i understand.

mine say they're trying, but practically ignore me, and only talk to others about me

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 02:16:11 +0000 UTC]

I meant to say "yet they don't help me"
not "tell me"

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 02:23:28 +0000 UTC]

alright

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 02:15:43 +0000 UTC]

exactly the same.
my mom and dad tell so many people in my family
yet they don't tell me.
my best friend, told her friend....
seriously people?

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 02:24:11 +0000 UTC]

yeah they all talk about it and you keep hearing that they worry, that they care, yet they never come up and help you

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 03:58:47 +0000 UTC]

see thats exactly the same
everyone was like "I care" (well, my best friend, and parents, ect)
but they don't even try...

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 04:01:42 +0000 UTC]

and they say they ARE trying.

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 04:07:23 +0000 UTC]

when they clearly just sit back, and act like they know what's going on with the SH
and believe everything you say.
they believe I haven't cut in months, and they believe I only cut in one place.

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 04:19:24 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, same here.

they just wait for you to come to them, when you cant

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 04:20:37 +0000 UTC]

I know
it really sucks, I wish people would ask if I'm okay, and they won't take "I'm fine..." as an answer

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 04:23:55 +0000 UTC]

but they always do. even if they do push a little, its always in front of people.

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 04:25:43 +0000 UTC]

I know

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 04:30:03 +0000 UTC]

and then you say you can't talk, and they just stop asking.

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-29 04:31:55 +0000 UTC]

my friend is like that.
all she talks about is herself, and the one single occasional time she asks what's wrong (she knows about my SH, and shes the reason my parents know)
but I say "nothing..." or "I'm fine" or "why does it even matter" something to see if she cares enough to ask more, she's always just like "okay"

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 04:51:57 +0000 UTC]

yeah. there's a few people, and apparently they all care and they all talk about me. but they all talk to this other guy. not me. and i dint understand why if they care so much.

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-30 21:04:45 +0000 UTC]

awww, I know what that's like

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-30 23:15:52 +0000 UTC]

It sucks. how can i believe them?

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eskimuffin In reply to HollowValentyne [2010-08-31 04:48:35 +0000 UTC]

I guess you can't....
or you just have to trust them?

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HollowValentyne In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-31 04:51:10 +0000 UTC]

im trying.

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bird-bone [2010-08-28 23:06:34 +0000 UTC]

Maybe someday.. Don't give up, please. We all struggle with you. You're not alone.

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eskimuffin In reply to bird-bone [2010-08-29 01:42:35 +0000 UTC]

aww thank you
one thing every self harmer has in common

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Love-in-the-blue-sky [2010-08-28 20:33:24 +0000 UTC]

I really love this picture. Its simple but it has alot of emothions.
And I've gone through that as well. It really sucks. And sometimes (i dont know your situation so plz dont get mad ) your friedns and family dont know what to do about it so they push it away and try to not think about it. Im not saying it right but im do understand why its frustrating.
If you ever need a real friend to talk to about something you can always send me a note and ill talk to you, or try to give you advice.
But as for the picture you get 5/5

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eskimuffin In reply to Love-in-the-blue-sky [2010-08-29 01:44:01 +0000 UTC]

thanks ^^ I took a picture of a "post secret" I need to send
so the quality looks bad
but I understand what you mean,I went to therapy, my dad didn't want to pay
long story, but it's kind of like the white elephant in the room.
I like them not really mentioning it, but at the same time, its killing me.
and thank you so much,these comments make me feel good

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Love-in-the-blue-sky In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 14:28:26 +0000 UTC]

Not really.
I had to go to my mom was estatic to get rid of me.
Yea I Understand.
Well i never really had that problem cause they only wanted to talk about it...i didnt want to but thhey forced me...and took my cds away. But if you want to talk to them about it just like sit them daonw and say can we talk about this for just like 5 mins no more no less.
Your welcome, You should always feel good.

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eskimuffin In reply to Love-in-the-blue-sky [2010-09-10 02:01:28 +0000 UTC]

yeah, I'm sorta glad my parents don't talk about it...

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Love-in-the-blue-sky In reply to eskimuffin [2010-09-11 00:02:08 +0000 UTC]

well if you ever need someone to talk to im listenning

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RhayvenNite [2010-08-28 19:58:10 +0000 UTC]

Meh.

As far as it goes - my friends and family know they can't stop me.

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eskimuffin In reply to RhayvenNite [2010-08-29 01:44:22 +0000 UTC]

mine don't even try

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RhayvenNite In reply to eskimuffin [2010-08-29 07:11:13 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry to hear that.

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