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Description You were small and timid, well. Maybe not your physical appearance.

But inside, you were small. So small, smaller than a mouse.

You never dared to speak to anyone else unless they do it first, you would keep pesky comments to yourself about others. Going to a new environment is basically nightmare for you, the fear of being hated, the fear of being too annoying, the fear of being left out. You couldn't never explain how relieve you would be when someone else strikes up a conversation with you, it's not like you don't want to talk, it's just that you are too scared too.

Appearance and the way people talked is the first thing you would see and listen in order to judge. Which explained why you would always fear going near the Volleyball captain in Nekoma, considering the fact that he was in your class didn't make you feel any better. Maybe it's because of his big build? Or maybe his intimidating eyes?? Or even the way he would throw smart comebacks at people?

Well by now you should have probably realised that the type of person you can get along the best is Kenma. He was your online friend for the past 3 years before you moved to Tokyo and attended the high school, to your relieve you were happy to know that Kenma is a quiet person. Unfortunately, you only got to join the school during the 3rd year, which means you won't be able to share classes with Kenma but instead with his best friend.

Oh praise the lord how you wished Kenma never introduced you to him. Once when you went to visit Kenma during his practice, you witnessed the captain scolding some 1st year juniors for being too noisy and disturbing their session,

"Don't you know when to shut the fuck up? You're 15, not 5.  Learn how to close your goddamn mouth." that sentence itself was enough to scare you for the next 3 months. Despite Kenma telling you that you've caught Kuroo in a bad mood that day, you were not convinced at all.

So you could really imagine how your first meeting with him went.

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"Yoh ,(L/N)!" You immediately jumped at the mature and deep voice, before taking a deep breathe and turning around.

"H-hi Kuroo...Can I help you?" You said, perhaps sounding a really too soft.

"Yeah. Do you mind lending me your English homework? I don't know how to answer the last few questions." He rubbed his neck. You quickly nodded before fumbling through your backpack to look for your homework.

And suddenly a thought came to you.

What if your answers were really bad? Wouldn't he laughed at you? W-what if he blames you if he got them wrong too??? W-WHAT IF HE DECIDED TO TELL EVERYONE SO THAT THEY CAN ALL MOCK YOU OH MY GOD THIS IS SO SCARY-

"(L/N)? Yo, are you alright? You're looking a little pale..." Kuroo quickly called out to you, earning a flinch from you.

"Hah...ha..A-ah...I-I'm fine! I'm fine, hERE TAKE MY HOMEWORK!" You shouted and shoved your homework onto his hands. To be honest, anyone who sees this moment would probably think that you're probably a victim in this situation. Thus it started to attract a lot of attention around the classroom, making Kuroo panick.

"(L/N), it's fine if you don't want to lend me....!" You glanced up at him before another thought popped up in your head. 'Is it because you're not good enough?'

"....I'm sorry.." You mumbled and retreated your arm but only to feel an unfamiliar touch on your palm. There was a short pause before a voice spoke.

"Hey...You know what, I take that back. Literally." He chuckled before removing the piece of paper, gently brushing your hand in the process, "Also I don't know what you're worrying about but, you're alright the way you are." was what he whispered to you before leaving the classroom, leaving you rooted to the ground like an ancient stone.

You could feel blood rushing to your face as you slowly recalled what just happened, it might not mean much to other people but to you,

it was everything you ever wanted to hear.

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"Kenma, you know... Kuroo said something funny to me." You spoke as you took a seat next to the pudding-haired boy.

"....What did he said?"

"Well, he said something like, I'm alright the way I am...Why would he suddenly say that?" You blinked in confusion before turning to the setter, only to see a slight smile on his face.

"I wonder."

[Flashback]

"How to...make (F/N) not scared of you?"

"Yes. Everytime I talk to her, she has this face of 'please don't kill me.' Am I that scary to her!?" Kuroo exclaimed as he fell to the gym's floor, making a loud thud sound.

"To be honest you are, you look like you came right out of a mafia." Kenma blurted absently.

"KENMA DUDE."

"Okay ,okay!" He sighed , "(F/N) is a timid person, she gets scared easily like I do. Just...be gentle, I guess? But then, if you don't push her she probably won't speak to you either...." Kenma's words gradually became softer as he wasn't sure if he was giving the right advice.
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"Kenma? You listening?" Your words immediately interrupted his trains of thoughts.

"O-oh. Well, just give him time to see what he wants, yeah?"

"Alright..."

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For the next few days, Kuroo always seemed to need help with his homework. Not only that, he would also ask about the most random things ever,

"What do you think about Volleyball?" or "What do you usually have for lunch?" and even "Do you wear make up?"

Honestly you felt uncomfortable as hell, but you could tell that he was just trying to make up conversation so you didn't want to seem like a bad person and answered his questions with the utmost awkwardness. Sometimes he would invite you out for quick snack because he needed to 'study'. And when times come to worst, he even asked you to attend volleyball training just so he could 'revise his work'.

You thought you hated it, not having the hearts to reject someone when they invite you out. But slowly time passed by, it was a part of your routine. Without you realising, he's planted a seed in your heart and grew in your life.

And you didn't mind a single bit, you started to forget about his intimidating looks and speech, you grew to love the way he spoke and his action. Yes, it escalated a little further than you thought but it was perfectly fine with you. You were so confident, thinking that you knew the real Kuroo Tetsurou, the kind and lame and trashy and sweet person.

You thought you knew it all and now, how you wish you didn't get ahead of yourself.

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It was huge shock to you, walking into the gym to see everyone sitting in a circle, quiet and gloomy. You gently stepped in, not wanting to get their attention and quickly took a seat on the closest bench, eyes not leaving the team even for a single moment. You could hear Kuroo discussing something in a soft voice, so soft that you can't hear anything.

"....Dismiss." was the only word audible from him. Everyone got up on their feet except for Kuroo and packed before leaving, not even saying a single thing to you. The only person who gave you a sad smile was Yaku and you didn't even have the time to reply his gesture before he left too. You frowned after remembering something Kuroo said this morning,

'We're going to an important match today, wish us luck yeah?'

Your mind processed this pretty quickly and you realised they must have met their defeat, the thought couldn't help but bring tears to your eyes. You slowly made your way to Kuroo and sat down beside him on the floor.

"Hey.." No reply from him. You tried to poke him, and tugged his jersey.

Well, I didn't mention that you're not the best at comforting, right?

Kuroo gently pushed your hand away, still quiet. You pouted, not wanting to give up, you started to make weird noises and funny face. You even topped it off with some of the worst pun ever,

"Kuroo, I heard the astronauts were tired of exploring earth for 24 hours so they called it a day!" You giggled but only to be faced with disappointment when Kuroo didn't react at all. You thought he looked a little annoyed but you brushed it off, thinking that you can definitely cheer him up.

"Please leave me alone..." He stated, and you could hear a tint of sadness in his voice. Feeling stubborn, you continue to shake him, poke him, anything to get a reaction out of him. You even went  as far as acting like a spoilt child, shouting things like , "listen to me!". You found it amusing though,but he didn't.

He stood up abruptly, pushing you off. You fell on your back and looked back up at him, his face was dark and scary. It sent a chill down your spine as you slowly stood up too, taking a step back while fumbling your hand nervously.

All of the sudden, he grabbed your collar and you caught his eyes, it was filled with annoyance, anger ,sadness, disappointment, name all the negative emotions you ever known. You flinched and your heart started to beat at a rapid rate, your hand not knowing where to grab for comfort. Kuroo glared at you hard, it was worst than what you saw before, his piercing-gaze stabbed your heart and you were terrified to the bones, shaking uncontrollably. Your eyes wanted to pour out, but your mind is telling you to keep those tears.

"What the fuck is your problem." He spat, "Didn't I told you to leave me alone? When will you learn your place? You don't fucking understand, do you? This match meant a lot to us. Stop acting like you know everything, when in reality you're just someone outside of this team."

You could practically feel your heart stop beating, your worst nightmare is coming true, all thanks to someone you loved the most.

"All I wish is for someone to be my side and understand my pain. You...You're just fucking mocking me. Laughing at my team and I. HUMILIATING US." He raised his voice at you.

"N-no, I-"

"Stop trying to act nice. We know you've been looking down on us this whole time. You never liked me do you? I was someone you hated to the core and terrified of but yet I forced myself on you. I regret it, I regret ever thinking that YOU are different." Kuroo finished his sentence before pushing you down on the floor.

"DON'T EVER COME BACK!" His last words broke you, but you couldn't cry. He clenched his fist and punched the empty space that was next to you. You were stunned, you were taken aback by his action, you...felt betrayed. He stood up before getting his bag and took off.

You lied down there, not knowing what to do. Just staring into the gym's ceiling. You sniffled, tears threatening to spill out and they did. You sobbed and sobbed for minutes. Your self-esteem started to fall like an anchor, you felt so empty. You cried hysterically, calling out some inaudible words. You hit the floor again and again, echos could be heard through the closed room. The whole gym was filled with sounds of a broken person.

After what seemed like hours, you sat up and headed to the toilet. Only to come face to face with a face of complete mess. Your hair was stuck to your cheeks, your eyes were red and puffy, and the tear stain on your face was sticky enough to make you feel comfortable. Splashing some water against your face, you took a deep breathe and left, no longer looking forward to tomorrow.

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The next day came as fast as any other day, and you dreaded it. The moment you stepped into school ground, your anxiety was already sky high. You made your way to the class and to your dismay, Kuroo was already there. When your eyes locked, you flinched, recalling what happened yesterday. Kuroo caught sight of it and his eyes widen, he immediately stood up ,attempting to approach you but it made you backed off instead, you thought he was going to hurt you again, the look of panic in his eyes makes you uncertain.

On the other hand, Kuroo was feeling like shit. Those pair of (e/c) eyes staring at him with fear, just like the first time he met you. After what happened yesterday, he felt like he was dying on the inside. For forcing those unwanted words on you, those words that you despised the most.

After a long silence, you quietly reached for the classroom door and pushed it closed as gently as you can.

"Wait." He barely managed to speak, not wanting to choke his threatening tears. You jumped again as you halted, the door being half-closed.

"....Y...yes?" You answered timidly.

"I'm sorry. For saying those words. For scaring you. For doing something you feared the most. I know you'd probably hate me but...I don't mean it. I don't want you to leave me alone. I don't regret for thinking you are different. And I definitely don't regret ever liking you." Those last words came out soft, as he felt a blush creeping up on his face.

You wished you could you could accept it, you wanted to love him as badly as he did. But that fear continued to pursue you not to. "What if he hurts you again? If he lashed out on you, that probably means he never liked you."

"(F/N)." Your name rolled off his tongue perfectly, "If you forgive me, will you open the door to your heart and let me in again?"

You bit your bottom lips, feeling liquid sliding down your cheeks.

"....Maybe you should have done it first then." You weakly cried out,

and closed the classroom's door.

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Comments: 62

DedeKichii [2017-09-04 05:24:26 +0000 UTC]

Oshiete this wAs good and i liked how she just didn't forgive him right away like lot of people do, that really got to me. I really loved the story to,

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to DedeKichii [2017-11-02 15:00:48 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much >v👍: 0 ⏩: 0

ramendangosenbei [2016-08-06 02:28:09 +0000 UTC]

Wait, am I crying? Holy shit, I am crying.

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AxisDemonias [2016-06-12 01:25:46 +0000 UTC]

aahahahahahahahah
is
is this
is this what a broken soul feels like?

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thedanishone1 [2016-06-02 01:27:32 +0000 UTC]

CRI
IM MENTALLY DYING OF FEELS

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to thedanishone1 [2016-06-04 10:50:08 +0000 UTC]

Ohmy- Are you alright? 👍: 0 ⏩: 0

TeppitGirl [2016-05-30 22:56:59 +0000 UTC]

Oh my lord ;-; I just wanted to give myself a big hug in this story T-T you made me tear up, oh but I loved it!!

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to TeppitGirl [2016-06-04 10:49:57 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much >////👍: 0 ⏩: 0

beyoonceparody [2016-05-02 20:23:43 +0000 UTC]

im..officially dying inside..i love it ahhhh  

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to beyoonceparody [2016-05-13 14:27:38 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so muchh!

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KristaUzumaki [2016-04-28 04:23:20 +0000 UTC]

Omg this... Awesomeness someness
Great job
The feels

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to KristaUzumaki [2016-05-13 14:27:45 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much! ><

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vivianthe [2016-02-29 18:57:46 +0000 UTC]

THIS IS SO GOOD
OML

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to vivianthe [2016-03-05 01:50:47 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much :')

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cremareo [2016-01-20 08:38:19 +0000 UTC]

jeSUS CHRIST THIS IS SOME FEELSY STUFF RIGHT HERE

I actually really liked this like in a lot of these stories she forgives them super easily like waht??¿¿

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to cremareo [2016-01-28 10:07:59 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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ketsamachan [2016-01-06 23:04:28 +0000 UTC]

nice, get at him Reader-chan!

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ZDoesWolfCraft [2015-12-31 01:30:20 +0000 UTC]

Aw, I'm sure I would be too scared to even look into that classmate's eyes ever again T3T"

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BumblebeeNinja [2015-12-01 01:41:19 +0000 UTC]

Your stories are soooo fantastic, BUT WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME GOD DAMNIT T.T

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to BumblebeeNinja [2015-12-02 03:56:22 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so so much >////< <3

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itsaliasotaku [2015-11-26 13:21:15 +0000 UTC]

this this is amazing I LIOVE IT AUTHOR CHAN its actually really hard to make me cry from reading so good job you performed a miracle !!

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to itsaliasotaku [2015-11-26 23:29:42 +0000 UTC]

Ohmygoshhh thank you!! Are you alright?? ;n; im so glad you liked it!

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itsaliasotaku In reply to Fanfictionofyou [2015-11-27 07:21:11 +0000 UTC]

yes yes I'm fine ) its just this made me really emo the feeelssssssssss

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itsaliasotaku [2015-11-26 13:20:22 +0000 UTC]

IM ACTUALLY CRYING HOLY CRAP

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AkiraPinkFloyd [2015-10-17 14:17:36 +0000 UTC]

loved it ;3 

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to AkiraPinkFloyd [2015-10-18 00:23:33 +0000 UTC]

Thank you ^-^!

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Makucchi [2015-10-15 20:22:30 +0000 UTC]

oh shit it's 4:21 and i'm sobbing. it's amazing how you can totally relate to the feels. awesome work author-san! //thumbs of approval

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ketsamachan [2015-09-18 02:07:38 +0000 UTC]

YESSS!! YOU DID NOT DISAPPOINT ME, I LOVED IT, YEEEESS!!!!

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to ketsamachan [2015-09-27 13:48:38 +0000 UTC]

Thank youuu!! ;o;

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murasakibaka [2015-07-20 11:22:11 +0000 UTC]

YES DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FIC?? AND THERES A SEQUEL NOW! I AM SO HAPPY

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to murasakibaka [2015-07-21 05:35:44 +0000 UTC]

OMG AHHHH THANK YOUU =\\\\= Im so glad this made you happy <3

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murasakibaka In reply to Fanfictionofyou [2015-07-23 16:42:40 +0000 UTC]

YES ONE OF MY FAV KUROO FICS

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NofaceSpirit [2015-07-18 21:06:17 +0000 UTC]

Mah FEELS!!! T-T

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lunarosej [2015-06-08 07:03:12 +0000 UTC]

I know it's been like 6 months but damn, that's kinda mean of your classmate. Kuroo's anger scared me, to be honest, like you can actually feel it. Anyway, I love this and everything's on point! This is a lovely fanfiction, Author-senpai.

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to lunarosej [2015-06-09 01:08:24 +0000 UTC]

Oh my gosh, thank you so so much <3 It's so sweet of you!

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Random0806 [2015-05-15 01:57:18 +0000 UTC]

Ohy God I was literally cringing and feeing scared when Kuroo got angry like I felt he was focusing all his anger on me! Anyways you ok though, darling? Are you still friends with that friend? Hope you are ok though. Sometimes the past comes back to haunt our thoughts and the only thing you want at the moment is to erase all of it but you can't do that so yeah.....I cringe every time I think of my past. Great story, love! Gonna go read your sequel now. ❤️❤️❤️

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to Random0806 [2015-05-15 11:38:33 +0000 UTC]

Goodness you're so sweet thank you! 
But yes I am fine, and my friend has been a lot better now that I understand her better, I know what piss her off and not xD
I hope you're okay too about your own past! Thank you again, lovely <33

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Random0806 In reply to Fanfictionofyou [2015-05-15 13:10:41 +0000 UTC]

Good to hear that, love! Awwww you're welcome, dear! Read your sequel! It was amazing! I teared up because the way reader talks is really emotional and you can feel it in your bones that she really loves Tetsu. Good job, love!!! ❤️❤️❤️

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to Random0806 [2015-05-15 13:15:35 +0000 UTC]

AHhhh you're so flattering oh my goodness =//////////= <333 
I'm so glad you enjoy my writing, thank you so much sweetheart, you never fail to make me feel happy with your words! Thank you man, it seriously means a lot to me :')!!!!!

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abvore [2015-05-05 00:34:59 +0000 UTC]

*pats you on the back*

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the-TomatoBoss [2015-04-29 04:14:14 +0000 UTC]

Ow my heart. Oh so many tears. Ow Ow ow.........
Oh gosh. So beautiful. Too beautiful. I feel my heart tearing in two. KurOO YOU BASTARD. 

Oh but ahhhhh I don't know who I should feel bad for because I can totally empathize with both of their positions...

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to the-TomatoBoss [2015-04-29 06:01:07 +0000 UTC]

Aawhh thank you so much <333

Feel sympathy for both: ')

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JovySanchez02 [2015-04-05 08:14:35 +0000 UTC]

Why!!!!! Why did  it end like that!!! I want to Forgive Kuro!!!! But maybe after a long time... Arghhh I don't know anymore!! T^T

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Raidkiller [2015-03-31 16:48:00 +0000 UTC]

I got in the zone and was crying alot and my cat jumped  on my. Nearly gave me a heart attack.  

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to Raidkiller [2015-04-03 03:54:22 +0000 UTC]

Omygosh are you okay? X'D, thank you sweetie!

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makotobrokefree [2015-03-31 15:40:00 +0000 UTC]

 

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Fanfictionofyou In reply to makotobrokefree [2015-04-03 03:54:05 +0000 UTC]

 

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CalimakaraoFIR [2015-03-26 23:12:11 +0000 UTC]

*Crys*

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Kitteh19 [2015-03-26 14:53:04 +0000 UTC]

Kuroo,you had one chance .3. And blew it -0- nice story btw :3

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Flowery27310 [2015-03-16 08:42:42 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful... *claps*

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