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some of you might remember this!! I had the lineart half finished for ????? really long now
the last time I was working on this I was streaming and had it finished but then SAI crashed and I lost everything except for half of the lineart

however I decided to actually finish it a second time, and from what I remember this version looks a shitton better!
I really miss the time when I put a lot of effort into my vent arts.... well here we go again, after years finally a proper piece of vent art!

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I realised that my mental health is really... instable right now?
In one moment I feel great, like i'm the Queen of the world. That's usually when I am friends... or at least around people
But as soon as I am alone, as soon as I get the opportunity to think about my life... I start getting those dark thoughts that make me want to kill myself.
I start feeling like all I do to be "happy" is push away feelings I had or have, or the realisation that at the end of the day (I mean, literally) I'm alone and sad, and I try to fill this hole with meaningless things
Spoiler alert, it doesn't fucking work.
For the moment, yes. But afterwards I will just lie in my bed again, crying and feeling like I've been running in circles for the millionth time.

Fact is, that there are things I try to get over, and it's been quite a while now but I'm still not over it, I still don't feel like I am where I want to be?
Or right now I don't. Sometimes I do... it keeps changing and that sucks so much

however idk how to put all my weird feelings into words so I will just....idk
shrug it off

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IF YOU COMMENT, COMMENT ABOUT THE ART AND NOT THE DESCRIPTION!!!
I am really proud of this and want feedback, not pity!

Description
some of you might remember this!! I had the lineart half finished for ????? really long now
the last time I was working on this I was streaming and had it finished but then SAI crashed and I lost everything except for half of the lineart

however I decided to actually finish it a second time, and from what I remember this version looks a shitton better!
I really miss the time when I put a lot of effort into my vent arts.... well here we go again, after years finally a proper piece of vent art!

--

I realised that my mental health is really... instable right now?
In one moment I feel great, like i'm the Queen of the world. That's usually when I am friends... or at least around people
But as soon as I am alone, as soon as I get the opportunity to think about my life... I start getting those dark thoughts that make me want to kill myself.
I start feeling like all I do to be "happy" is push away feelings I had or have, or the realisation that at the end of the day (I mean, literally) I'm alone and sad, and I try to fill this hole with meaningless things
Spoiler alert, it doesn't fucking work.
For the moment, yes. But afterwards I will just lie in my bed again, crying and feeling like I've been running in circles for the millionth time.

Fact is, that there are things I try to get over, and it's been quite a while now but I'm still not over it, I still don't feel like I am where I want to be?
Or right now I don't. Sometimes I do... it keeps changing and that sucks so much

however idk how to put all my weird feelings into words so I will just....idk
shrug it off

--

IF YOU COMMENT, COMMENT ABOUT THE ART AND NOT THE DESCRIPTION!!!
I am really proud of this and want feedback, not pity!