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in the best of interest
i wonder sometimes
if appearances
really do deceive?

and how could someone
believe so fully in something
that seems so real
but just end up killing time.

is pottery the only thing
hard to put back together
when it shatters or breaks
and spills the water it holds?

how can someone say
it means so much to them
and then forget it all for a better thing
forget it all for an easier thing.

a decision made so
your lungs don't hurt
from the inability to breathe
from the pressure?

a choice settled upon so
a pair of sissors is taken
to a growing flower in hopes
it will look better in a vase.

is it really true that people
cower from emotion
and run from the first sign
of a difficult moment?

why does it have to relate
to those who can't risk even
looking you in the eye for fear
that they might be wrong.

as for me i always wonder about
the different road to take
if it is hard and with obstacles
will i even be able to handle it?

it just amazes me
how in my experience
short periods of time always
allow for the "right" decision.

a couple days here and there
a little thought, a little distance
and then fate is decided
all in the blink of an eye?

and the same reasons
the same thoughts
the same words used
it just is all the same.

is everyone the same
in how they think in the end
when it all comes down
to who needs what?

why is it all about the individual
and the individual's needs
when there really is
more than one that exists.

everyone is the same
show me someone who isn't constantly
selfish and full of themselves
is someone like that really real?

or am i just dreaming
dreaming that someday
someone will finally
tell me the truth.

tell me the truth about life
about the real motive behind it all
about the honest feeling
and not just be afraid of me getting upset?

no one seems to understand
that keeping things hidden
with the "kind" notion to keep me from crying
just brings me more tears.

and pain so agonizing
and wondering always thinking
about who that person really is
will i ever really know someone that well?

that moment always escapes me
even when i think i know someone
it turns dark and clouds gather above me
and i am shrouded from everything.

and then i'm wrong in what i thought
and i gave myself in mind and spirit to someone
that in the end could not give back to me
why am i always so stupid?

stupidity is giving your all to something
and allowing yourself to fall
and believe you will be caught
but only end up breaking into pieces in the end.

pieces that take a while
to put back together
but does it really matter
to who forgot to catch me?

there isn't one person i've met
who has turned out to be different
from the rest of the world
everyone is just the same.

after it all i'm ignored
i can't even make an effort
in the end i still don't matter
am i ever good enough for anyone?

everyone is dishonest and selfish
not listening, not caring
wanting other things
that i can't give away.

and i just remain in pieces
no one even stopping to pick me up
and i shrug it off and shrink back
should i just take it all as it comes?

if you think you know me
better than anyone on this planet
then you are wrong
because life doesn't warrent anything like this.

i'm tired of trying and giving
i'm tired of being something
for someone else all the time
don't i deserve someone in return?

someone to try and to give
to listen and to decide
to be assertive and helpful
to just be there no matter what.

in all this world
all these billions of people
is there not one person
that can even do that?

do you even exist out there
i don't care about perfection
i guess i just really need you right now
i need you more than anything.

i need someone to talk to
and someone who can talk to me
who will be honest and straight forward
is there anyone with integrity out there?

i haven't met you yet, i don't think
but i'm waiting for you to come
and i just wanted you to know
that i will remain unconditionally yours.

because i know that if God did not
put me on this earth to live alone
then isn't this supposed to be a team
to further His purpose in this generation?

that has been my dream, my hope
my want and desire and destiny
to share my everything with someone
who will share everything with me.

i guess i need to stop searching
and to just wait and be patient
because haven't all my other
hopes turned into mistakes?

but i know you exist
i just know you do
and for that reason
i will never, ever lose hope.

Description
in the best of interest
i wonder sometimes
if appearances
really do deceive?

and how could someone
believe so fully in something
that seems so real
but just end up killing time.

is pottery the only thing
hard to put back together
when it shatters or breaks
and spills the water it holds?

how can someone say
it means so much to them
and then forget it all for a better thing
forget it all for an easier thing.

a decision made so
your lungs don't hurt
from the inability to breathe
from the pressure?

a choice settled upon so
a pair of sissors is taken
to a growing flower in hopes
it will look better in a vase.

is it really true that people
cower from emotion
and run from the first sign
of a difficult moment?

why does it have to relate
to those who can't risk even
looking you in the eye for fear
that they might be wrong.

as for me i always wonder about
the different road to take
if it is hard and with obstacles
will i even be able to handle it?

it just amazes me
how in my experience
short periods of time always
allow for the "right" decision.

a couple days here and there
a little thought, a little distance
and then fate is decided
all in the blink of an eye?

and the same reasons
the same thoughts
the same words used
it just is all the same.

is everyone the same
in how they think in the end
when it all comes down
to who needs what?

why is it all about the individual
and the individual's needs
when there really is
more than one that exists.

everyone is the same
show me someone who isn't constantly
selfish and full of themselves
is someone like that really real?

or am i just dreaming
dreaming that someday
someone will finally
tell me the truth.

tell me the truth about life
about the real motive behind it all
about the honest feeling
and not just be afraid of me getting upset?

no one seems to understand
that keeping things hidden
with the "kind" notion to keep me from crying
just brings me more tears.

and pain so agonizing
and wondering always thinking
about who that person really is
will i ever really know someone that well?

that moment always escapes me
even when i think i know someone
it turns dark and clouds gather above me
and i am shrouded from everything.

and then i'm wrong in what i thought
and i gave myself in mind and spirit to someone
that in the end could not give back to me
why am i always so stupid?

stupidity is giving your all to something
and allowing yourself to fall
and believe you will be caught
but only end up breaking into pieces in the end.

pieces that take a while
to put back together
but does it really matter
to who forgot to catch me?

there isn't one person i've met
who has turned out to be different
from the rest of the world
everyone is just the same.

after it all i'm ignored
i can't even make an effort
in the end i still don't matter
am i ever good enough for anyone?

everyone is dishonest and selfish
not listening, not caring
wanting other things
that i can't give away.

and i just remain in pieces
no one even stopping to pick me up
and i shrug it off and shrink back
should i just take it all as it comes?

if you think you know me
better than anyone on this planet
then you are wrong
because life doesn't warrent anything like this.

i'm tired of trying and giving
i'm tired of being something
for someone else all the time
don't i deserve someone in return?

someone to try and to give
to listen and to decide
to be assertive and helpful
to just be there no matter what.

in all this world
all these billions of people
is there not one person
that can even do that?

do you even exist out there
i don't care about perfection
i guess i just really need you right now
i need you more than anything.

i need someone to talk to
and someone who can talk to me
who will be honest and straight forward
is there anyone with integrity out there?

i haven't met you yet, i don't think
but i'm waiting for you to come
and i just wanted you to know
that i will remain unconditionally yours.

because i know that if God did not
put me on this earth to live alone
then isn't this supposed to be a team
to further His purpose in this generation?

that has been my dream, my hope
my want and desire and destiny
to share my everything with someone
who will share everything with me.

i guess i need to stop searching
and to just wait and be patient
because haven't all my other
hopes turned into mistakes?

but i know you exist
i just know you do
and for that reason
i will never, ever lose hope.