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If theres one thing i hate about myself the most it's my eyes, they aren't an ugly colour, quiet the opposite, they're grey, blue and green, they change colours depending on my mood, they're pretty.

i hate my eyes because of what they are and what they do.
I grew up with a 'lazy eye' it's not properly aligned, people say 'oh it's cute that you're eye is like that!'
you don't have to live with it, you don't have to deal with people saying 'oh, are your eyes always messed up like that?'
you don't have to deal with the bullying and teasing and humiliation of it, somedays they're so messed up i just want to stay home and hide from the world.

then there's the pain.
they cause me so much pain, migraines, so bad behind the eye that it hurts to breathe and open my eyes, it makes me cry and vomit, once they even put me in hospital.
my eyes get so painful that i feel like gouging them out is the only way to get rid of the pain, sometimes i try, just see how far i can go before the pain of trying to remove them get's to intense, of course it's harder than it looks.
pain medication doesn't work, the doctors don't know what's wrong with them.
I don't want my eyes, they hurt me.

they hurt.

i doubt anyone read all of this, but if you did then, thanks for listening to my rant? haha

Description
If theres one thing i hate about myself the most it's my eyes, they aren't an ugly colour, quiet the opposite, they're grey, blue and green, they change colours depending on my mood, they're pretty.

i hate my eyes because of what they are and what they do.
I grew up with a 'lazy eye' it's not properly aligned, people say 'oh it's cute that you're eye is like that!'
you don't have to live with it, you don't have to deal with people saying 'oh, are your eyes always messed up like that?'
you don't have to deal with the bullying and teasing and humiliation of it, somedays they're so messed up i just want to stay home and hide from the world.

then there's the pain.
they cause me so much pain, migraines, so bad behind the eye that it hurts to breathe and open my eyes, it makes me cry and vomit, once they even put me in hospital.
my eyes get so painful that i feel like gouging them out is the only way to get rid of the pain, sometimes i try, just see how far i can go before the pain of trying to remove them get's to intense, of course it's harder than it looks.
pain medication doesn't work, the doctors don't know what's wrong with them.
I don't want my eyes, they hurt me.

they hurt.

i doubt anyone read all of this, but if you did then, thanks for listening to my rant? haha