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School got kinda crazy last week, after I added a course in the same week I was supposed to hand in research. But now all's good. I really enjoy learning the stuff I do - it doesn't seem like a chore at all if the interest is there. I`m going in to this co-op program next summer for sociology, which should be a really crazy experience.
Life? Well, I left my gas bar job to look for another one. Not to sound spoiled or elitist, but I need a better working environment.
I'm single, but I met someone online and she's crazy about me now. Only, she lives in Alberta. We text though.
I love having conversations with people. I can talk for hours and still keep people interested. Taking classes in the humanities is kind of...a life-altering process. Not in the sense that I`m essentially any different, but like the inner core of who I am is off in to new territory. I have my own ideas about gender roles, sexuality, power, friendship, work, religion, art, and life. So there is a lot to think and talk about and I`m never bored.
What`s new for you...how`s your experience outside Gleneagle? Isn`t it like, so much more chill? How is your life in general?
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I definitely agree with you about the value of creating. I'm totally a sucker for the 19th century romantic mindset of creativity as the highest expression of human life. Creation is one of the few expressions of human free will. We may be restricted by the societies we live in, but art can be a way to, like you said, personally work through your problems and express yourself in ways that you couldn't in the "public sphere" of life, e.g., at work. The one way that I kind of deviate from that idea of art is that it's always also connected to society. It may be a transcendent act, but that doesn't mean it doesn't depend on 1) the idea of the audience, or at least the average reaction of the target audience and 2) the consciousness of the artist, which of course is formed by going through specific social situations. So as much as I love the Nietzschean idea of art (read The Birth of Tragedy Out of the Spirit of Music by Friedrich Nietzsche) as the ultimate life-affirmation, I also have to add: -in the face of social experiences/institutions that might deny or stifle life, or at least the good life. People are always looking to make a profit, often doing it at the expense of people and society in general. Art should be a way of grappling with your place in the world and breaking the chains (of depression, of bad memory) that weigh you down and that have developed as a result of experiencing life in a society that might be life-negating. Ironically, I don't paint, draw, sculpt, sing, dance, write melodies, but I admire people who do. Personally, I think art should include all forms of creative thought, e.g., writing, and not just poetry or fiction, but also social theories. Well, I wouldn't be studying that if I didn't think it was its own form of art! Art is just a kind of free action, like "free thinking" too. Only, to be a free thinker you have to realize what ideas are actually yours, and not received ideas. So you have to have some interest in the society you are in, if only to realize how to think for yourself and not just in the officially-sanctioned ways.
I work at the Superstore Gas Station. It started as a part-time job, and still is, but I'll be leaving it soon. It's just not good to be pumping gas if you're a university student. And not for the reason that it will lower my popularity with other students who see me, or anything like that! It's mainly because you pick up habits and ways of thinking from working that affect you in strange ways that you don't always like. With working at a gas station, it's definitely like that. So I think I will do a co-op semester next summer and find a job somewhere else in the mean-time - you basically get paid well to do a job that is relevant to your interests, and you learn something from it too. Which is cool. I may be some sort of social worker, helping people give their lives meaning other than through drugs, alcohol, and other substances. That would make me feel useful and give my life meaning too. But that's just me. Maybe I should watch that movie, but honestly, I disagree with the Zen Buddhist view of happiness, so I probably won't get the same kind of effect from the movie that you did. I'm not sure happiness is a passive, transcendental state of submission. I think it's more something that comes as a result of actions in the world. The danger with the Zen kind of happiness is that happiness becomes transcendental, i.e. it denies that the transformation of the world around you might be the solution to the problems that plague you, and no doubt millions of others. I could only submit to Zen happiness if I'd given up hope in the world ever changing, or even for the hope of me to, on a small micro scale, develop meaningful relationships with other human beings, or to become happy as a result of the things I actually do. So Zen happiness seems like a symptom of resignation and defeat. It's consoling, yeah, but it's kinda like a last resort to save your sanity. I will watch that movie when I get back from Calgary on Thursday. Anyway, I have a movie that YOU should try lol: Breaking the Waves. I think the only place I found it was online through some torrent site, but it's a really good movie about a very religious Catholic girl who gets married, and whose condition (behavioural or something, I don't know) makes it a hard experience for her and her husband. It raises the question: how can you interact meaningfuly with someone who has a mental problem when you don't know if there is any real reason behind what they say/do with you? How do you keep an equal, unexploiting relationship when clearly both people aren't equal, but both 'love' each other? That's all I will say, but it is pretty tragic. Don't worry, not too tortuously sentimental though - it's without Hollywood cliches and genre conventions - it's just a good story, which should be like the most basic foundation of any movie but often isn't. Anyway, yes, I should probably write: it's probably a good thing, if I want a writing career, that I CAN think and write as much as I do without my brain exploding.
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what is your last name. I'm not sure if you are the Mike I think you are.
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McDonell. Remember I played Bruno?
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yeah I thought it was you but I wan't sure. so hows school and life?
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My interpretation: 'together forever' taken literally. 2 corpses, 2 brains, 2 mouths, 2 noses (lots of snot!), 1 brain, 1 eye...unless that is another eye above - an omniscient 'eye of the world', perhaps? One side is dark - the dark baby and and dark skeleton and the other is light, which I think is emphasizinf the uniqueness of both people. I think this is great: especially how the arm of the person on the left fits perfectly with left nose. My other interpretation: they are trying to fight this monster as it eats them alive and tries to absorb their human forms.
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HAHA. Interesting observations.
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Besides the bad English - was I drunk? I think it's possible since this was around Canada Day - was I kinda close - do you say to yourself 'well that is in this location relative to this over here which forms a link together' or just go where your heart feels? I'm an amateur when it comes to art criticism - aside from films, rock music, and poetry - I always want the 'absolute meaning', whereas some forms of art aren't really able to provide that. Thoughts?
This is Mike, by the way. I made a new account recently cuz I forgot about the other one.
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mike who? i know oh so many mikes. and yeah you were possibly dead on, though you could be way off. I know what I'm trying to express but its hard to put into words ( which is why i paint it) but everytime i look at something ive done it either means so much more to me now than it did when i made it, or it could make me feel like shit. this is one that means more to me now than when i made it a year ago haha. everything you said fits well into it. what I thought of when I originally sketched it out (which only had the internal body parts exterior to our exterior body parts) was how we tend to judge ourselves on things we have no controll over. As we expand our minds further than our own self centered realities we start to build ourselves from the inside out and judge one another on the qualities we have created for ourselves, rather then our appearances or how we talk or walk or dress, etc. That makes it sound cheesier than in did in my head, but it goes deeper. Now that it is painted and I've spent billions of hours redoing parts and meditating on it, I feel it is more of a dedication to the unknown
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Yes there are so many Mikes, I'm sorry haha. It's Mike M - from Gleneagle, and now SFU. You couldn't tell by the picture of me tho? I don't think I look that different lol. I think I will always recognize you if I see you. It's funny you told me you were going to UCFV in Abbotsford, and I swore that one day as I was working (pumping gas lol) I saw you going by in someone's car in down Lougheed Hwy...was that you? Cuz I was staring, trying to figure out if that was Kyla or no.
I see what you're saying about how you know what you mean but don't know how to express it. It's hard to convert your particular (and often half-formed!) thoughts in to like universal ideas that anyone can understand. I took some philosophy (logic), since it was required, and since then it's helped a bit. I realized that a lot of awkward moments could disappear if we all could fit our thoughts in to categories that everyone can understand, regardless of age/class/ethnicity etc. But it's different for art. You're just letting your imagination go a lot of the time, with a total lack of any logical thought processes. That's why I think it's okay if an artwork is more... enigmatic, and resistent to rationalized explanations. It loses its charm somehow. I always refer back to sex and the universe when I think about that: real good sex happens when you aren't following a rational method, and isn't it funny that sex is what causes life to happen? And the universe can't be understood by any logical method at all. We can understand that 2+3 = 5 easily enough, but then the universe is infinite, and how are we going to penetrate that if we can only understand what is finite....you know? I think art is in the same category as sex and the universe.
I don't think your concept is cheesy, though. Can you let me explain? My mind just won't slow down lol. I agree with you, but it's more that you set your will too high too soon, and it doesn't match your ability level. It's not always the right time to expect something, but often people give up because they think they fail, when the egg just needs some time to hatch. Of course it's failing if you compare it to a newly hatched chick, but that would be missing the point. Unfortunately it's not always just us who is impatient and over-expectant. Like ya know how in gym class, whether you were ready to do how much exercise/skill training they wanted you to do or not, they still forced you along anyway? Maybe you could've used one more day to catch up, for all kinds of reasons, but because they had a need to progress at a steady rate as a whole class, you kinda got the shit end of the stick. Eventually you get to a point, also, where your ambition has ascended too high, and maybe it needs to be there in the future, but in the present it's doing you no good, but giving you all these pretenses and delusions. But the will never stops.
I think I'm gonna stick with what I said earlier, since there is this head which I think represents the forceful ordering of the world in to a logical system. It's dehumanizing the two people, stealing their children even. Yeah, I could definitely draw something political from this....nothing escapes politics. Ever! You artists can try all you want to be in this transcendant aesthetic realm, but ultimately art always seems to unconsciously refer back to the social relations around which it was produced. Because really, whether any of us wants to we go through these big complex social structures and institutions on a daily basis, or whether we'd rather live on a communal farm in the wild, we still go through them. Since they are such a part of our lives, it must have some impact on who we are and what kind of thoughts we think. And it was interesting...I was reading an article for a social theory course in which the modern state was described as a "Janus-faced" (meaning two-faced) institution. Then I remembered your big head with the insane brainpower, and I definitely came to think, after seeing that world-eye too, that it's representing the will of the social world around you. So yeah, I think that art doesn't just unconsciously reference sex, like Freud thought, but just as much, social structures as well.
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What gas station do u work at?
watch I <3(heart) Huckabees. I think you'll calm down a bit after watching it. Your thoughts seem a little forced, I always imagined that you would enjoy writing or painting but I imagined you would use alot of discriptive words and find yourself lost in a beauty that you created. I like what you said about art being better when its irrational but I think that is only for the colors and shapes. Thought everything ends up fitting so well when you paint from your own instinct without interruption. in the end its just a bunch of dried pigment swirled across a page and its all in our perceptions whether it's good or not. . Art works as a logic problem for me and it helps me sort out my bitterness, and anger and ugly thoughts and then turn it into a visual healing process. Here in the western world we instinctively think that life will be better if we change it externally, by building bridges, growing technology, etc, but the more I change myself and paint out my healing process to remind me of every place I've been in my mind, I feel heaven is a state of mind; nirvana is complete humbleness and appreciation for life. I wan't to keep learning about the world but I don't exist without the things I've created. It's important to create, if we don't we commit suicide because there is nothing but creation and destruction. Watch that movie, maybe smoke a splif beforehand and seriously pay attention to everything, it's halarious but brilliant. Changed my life. Let me know when you watch it!!
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