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I think I threw away the last page of just writing because I got mad at it. I have no idea what I thought this was going to get me. I guess it was a shitty attempt at a portfolio or resume. I added a collage of concept monster / creature drawings at the end of this whole thing. I think I thought Steve could throw me into the special effects department at Industrial Light and Magic or something even though that's George Lucas' department. What the hell, I was a young stupid guy. Well not that young, but pretty stupid. Well I sent the letter and it got returned to me with a “return to sender” stamped on the front of it, probably because they don't accept unsolicited material. At the time I didn't understand that concept or even think of it, so I sent it six more times and it got returned to me every time. I even sent it in fancy packaging with original drawing right on the envelope, but it came back every time. About this time is when I had a turn around in my attitude towards life, like in Taxi Driver. Travis says, “My life has taken another turn again. The days move along with regularity over and over. One day undistinguishable from the next. A long continuous chain and suddenly there is a change.” Well that’s what happened to me except this felt like my first turn in my life since I was 7. It wasn't because the letter never got to Steve, it was other reasons. The biggest reason is I started thinking. I'm still into weird things. A couple of my favorite movies are Tron and Flash Gordon and sometimes I still listen to my GI book and records. That stuff’s classic. It’s pretty freeing not caring what people think. People try to make themselves feel better by putting people down for what they like. It’s so stupid. People are so stupid. It’s like Wendy O Williams says. “Basically I hate conformity. I hate people telling me what to do. It makes me want to smash things. So called normal behavior patterns makes me so bored I could throw up.” Well put Wendy.

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I think I threw away the last page of just writing because I got mad at it. I have no idea what I thought this was going to get me. I guess it was a shitty attempt at a portfolio or resume. I added a collage of concept monster / creature drawings at the end of this whole thing. I think I thought Steve could throw me into the special effects department at Industrial Light and Magic or something even though that's George Lucas' department. What the hell, I was a young stupid guy. Well not that young, but pretty stupid. Well I sent the letter and it got returned to me with a “return to sender” stamped on the front of it, probably because they don't accept unsolicited material. At the time I didn't understand that concept or even think of it, so I sent it six more times and it got returned to me every time. I even sent it in fancy packaging with original drawing right on the envelope, but it came back every time. About this time is when I had a turn around in my attitude towards life, like in Taxi Driver. Travis says, “My life has taken another turn again. The days move along with regularity over and over. One day undistinguishable from the next. A long continuous chain and suddenly there is a change.” Well that’s what happened to me except this felt like my first turn in my life since I was 7. It wasn't because the letter never got to Steve, it was other reasons. The biggest reason is I started thinking. I'm still into weird things. A couple of my favorite movies are Tron and Flash Gordon and sometimes I still listen to my GI book and records. That stuff’s classic. It’s pretty freeing not caring what people think. People try to make themselves feel better by putting people down for what they like. It’s so stupid. People are so stupid. It’s like Wendy O Williams says. “Basically I hate conformity. I hate people telling me what to do. It makes me want to smash things. So called normal behavior patterns makes me so bored I could throw up.” Well put Wendy.