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The night you told me, "I won't say that I love you," I dreamt that I was shot in the chest, fatally wounded, and dying in front of my friends. I said my goodbyes and faded to blackout. That's how scared I was. I dreamed about the things I feared the most.

And I was afraid to hear you say it. Afraid because I'd just done the most shameful thing in my life right in front of you and you were the one crying because you let it happen. "It's all my fault," you said. And all I could think about was, no, baby, it was mine. My fault.

I let him come over me. I let him touch me. And I let you pull my hair. I let you whisper to me and ask me if I wanted more. And I was the one that said yes.

And today you said you loved me. And I didn't want to hear those words. I was afraid.

You aren't the one I should be afraid of.

Tonight I will tell you I miss you.

I will tell you I can't wait to see you again.

And tonight I will dream about the bullet in my chest - bleeding to death as I hear your words playing in my head: "Tell me when you decide if you ever want to see me again."

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The night you told me, "I won't say that I love you," I dreamt that I was shot in the chest, fatally wounded, and dying in front of my friends. I said my goodbyes and faded to blackout. That's how scared I was. I dreamed about the things I feared the most.

And I was afraid to hear you say it. Afraid because I'd just done the most shameful thing in my life right in front of you and you were the one crying because you let it happen. "It's all my fault," you said. And all I could think about was, no, baby, it was mine. My fault.

I let him come over me. I let him touch me. And I let you pull my hair. I let you whisper to me and ask me if I wanted more. And I was the one that said yes.

And today you said you loved me. And I didn't want to hear those words. I was afraid.

You aren't the one I should be afraid of.

Tonight I will tell you I miss you.

I will tell you I can't wait to see you again.

And tonight I will dream about the bullet in my chest - bleeding to death as I hear your words playing in my head: "Tell me when you decide if you ever want to see me again."