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KrisCynical In reply to Eriu-Dawn [2016-11-28 11:19:57 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, I'm trying to make an effort. lol

Depression is a mighty big bitch, I can tell you that much. After almost 7 years I finally pulled myself out of it over the summer after deciding to try going off my meds in late spring because things were going pretty good and I felt pretty good because of it. (I'd tried going off of them a little bit before my 30th birthday in 2014 but that was a BIG mistake! ) Things have been going really great over the last couple months, though. I finally got up the gumption to clean out the junk room that used to be my grandmother's bedroom across the hall from mine (after 10 years of putting it off), and then my dad helped me remodel it into a studio space for myself. He taught me how to do everything and then supervised me doing it, so literally 95% of the work was done by me. That makes me even more happy because it makes it really feel like MY space, plus I learned a lot of useful new skills like how to strip wallpaper, score/cut sheet rock, and change doorknobs. lol 

I also got a new PC built over the spring because my old one was barely functioning anymore, and then after my studio was finished last month I finally took the plunge with the money I'd saved up and got a new 22" Cintiq HD. So now I have an amazing new space that's just mine, my desk is no longer in a common area, and my equipment is all literally brand new save for the keyboard and mouse. I can close myself up in here and work, and for the first time in YEARS I'm feeling inspired to draw again for myself and not just clients. Then on top of all of that, last month I landed the biggest job of my career thus far of coloring a children's Bible for the production company I work for as a colorist... 120 illustrations with a price quote that's going to literally double the size of my business account.

So... I'm glad to be back. Sorry for the long response; I'm just proud of myself and happy for the first time in many, many years. I'm making an effort to be active on twitter and tumblr again, and I have a backlog of stuff I still need to upload here on dA!

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Eriu-Dawn In reply to KrisCynical [2016-11-28 19:14:09 +0000 UTC]

Thats awesome! I learned how to score, cut, hang ,tape, mud and sand Sheetrock myself
over this last year doing a quick job to a small cabin for my mom we built on our
property for her to recover in post surgery. It was quite a process, and I have yet to finish my own downstairs
as well, bare bones wood and insulation still XD. YAY for personal space to work without distractions left and right!
PC woes are not fun, my PC has been a nightmare since I got it back in 2013. I just want a new one, but it
works for what I need it to for now. Ive been looking into a new tablet but cintiq isn't quite in the realm of possibility
right now, although their competitor MIGHT be, not sure yet.
Sweet on that job! I know I always get excited when I get one simple commission so you really must be over the moon
Boo about depression. Its never easy. I've had a few bouts of it that left me drained. Most recently this past December,
when my mom was diagnosed.
but for the last 6 years I've been battling debilitating anxiety and when the two of them meet, I lose the fight each time.
Each day is a struggle! Kudos for kicking its butt! I find it helps when mine is really bad, instead of bracing against
the coming storm I know is coming, since Anxiety builds up, to just let myself feel as miserable as I do, and let my nerves heal,
just have to remind myself I'm okay and it will pass!
Glad you're back, i miss your art you do for yourself

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