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The Hermit, I would say, is one of the most important cards for modern society, as it suggests that it is now a time to retreat from toxic people and all kinds of distraction and go within. You will only find what you want from life and the answers to your problems if you listen to your inner wisdom. Honest and deep reflection of your life and why your path unfolded the way it did can only be found in solitude. However, you will be so much stronger after going through this period!

And now I want to thank you so much for following through Sebastian's story! This is the last part:

From now on things got worse and worse. His health declined rapidly. He almost slept day and night, there was ever more frequent vomitting and a new epileptical attack here and there. One morning he had two of them in a row and I took him to the hospital. The doctors said that he was fine, he should simply come back for check up in eight weeks. Well, I really have no idea, who they examined, but it could not have been my husband. I had to brush his teeth and show him where to find the sauce on his plate and how to dip the food in it! The only adventures we undertook was me holding him thight so that he could walk through our apartment rooms a few times a day (to prevent thrombosis). Sometimes he would just stare at me or we were lying together on the couch holding hands. I insisted that we rewatch all of the Jurrassic Park/World movies as this has been his most prescious childhood passion besides building things out of Lego (which he was no longer able to do). We only managed to watch the first two of them and no matter how much he refused, I really needed to get some help if he was to stay at home in this condition. However, we were not even able to finish the paper work with the staff for professional health care at home. One morning he seemingly lost the last bit of control over his body... He had to spend the last 12 days of his life at a palliative care unit.

At this point, however, I would suggest to stop telling his story and spare you the details. I am sure you can imagine that this was not a funny ride at all! We did all we could do. His parents and I were sitting next to his bed day by day while the others frequently popped in and out. We shared fond memories together and tried to comfort each other and keep Sebastian calm.

Looking back to this day almost 16 years ago when I met this young smiling man at the train station for the first time in my life I can't help but feel that we were destined to walk this path together. Words cannot describe the pain of being ripped apart right in the process of building and spending your life together. Maybe one day I will be able to see the bigger picture as to why all of this had to happen. I really hope so! Until then I will try my best to carry on.

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The Hermit, I would say, is one of the most important cards for modern society, as it suggests that it is now a time to retreat from toxic people and all kinds of distraction and go within. You will only find what you want from life and the answers to your problems if you listen to your inner wisdom. Honest and deep reflection of your life and why your path unfolded the way it did can only be found in solitude. However, you will be so much stronger after going through this period!

And now I want to thank you so much for following through Sebastian's story! This is the last part:

From now on things got worse and worse. His health declined rapidly. He almost slept day and night, there was ever more frequent vomitting and a new epileptical attack here and there. One morning he had two of them in a row and I took him to the hospital. The doctors said that he was fine, he should simply come back for check up in eight weeks. Well, I really have no idea, who they examined, but it could not have been my husband. I had to brush his teeth and show him where to find the sauce on his plate and how to dip the food in it! The only adventures we undertook was me holding him thight so that he could walk through our apartment rooms a few times a day (to prevent thrombosis). Sometimes he would just stare at me or we were lying together on the couch holding hands. I insisted that we rewatch all of the Jurrassic Park/World movies as this has been his most prescious childhood passion besides building things out of Lego (which he was no longer able to do). We only managed to watch the first two of them and no matter how much he refused, I really needed to get some help if he was to stay at home in this condition. However, we were not even able to finish the paper work with the staff for professional health care at home. One morning he seemingly lost the last bit of control over his body... He had to spend the last 12 days of his life at a palliative care unit.

At this point, however, I would suggest to stop telling his story and spare you the details. I am sure you can imagine that this was not a funny ride at all! We did all we could do. His parents and I were sitting next to his bed day by day while the others frequently popped in and out. We shared fond memories together and tried to comfort each other and keep Sebastian calm.

Looking back to this day almost 16 years ago when I met this young smiling man at the train station for the first time in my life I can't help but feel that we were destined to walk this path together. Words cannot describe the pain of being ripped apart right in the process of building and spending your life together. Maybe one day I will be able to see the bigger picture as to why all of this had to happen. I really hope so! Until then I will try my best to carry on.