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Software used: Apophysis

Slightly different tweak. I was mainly just trying out my new gradients based on sunset photos. My apartment's terrace is facing west, so I spent many afternoons there during summer and I took a lot of sunset pictures. So this is really a mixed media piece. I may release the gradient set to DA but so far I made about 5 gradients, which is not quite enough to justify uploading the set yet
There's stuff I need to talk about but not yet. I'm in a in-between place right now, which fills me with a lot of doubt. I need things to end, to be over, cut-off and over for good. My self-confidence is usually pretty solid but these days it fluctuates and I tend to fall back on bad coping habits like seeking validation outside. I over-think, scrutinize every detail in every conversation, looking for clues that I am not wanted. Inevitably, there are always clues confirming my bias - totally made up and nonsensical of course. I hope my friends can bear with my less stable self right now. I wish I had the iron will to crush all my doubts. I can crush them in work, in my art but I can't crush them when it comes to people.

Thank you for all favourites, comments, critiques and devwatches! It means a lot to me.
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© Eli Vokounova (CC BY-NC-ND 3.0) - Sharing my artworks with attribution (link to the image and my name) is allowed. Commercial usage of my artworks is forbidden. Altering, transforming or building upon my artworks is forbidden.

Description
Software used: Apophysis

Slightly different tweak. I was mainly just trying out my new gradients based on sunset photos. My apartment's terrace is facing west, so I spent many afternoons there during summer and I took a lot of sunset pictures. So this is really a mixed media piece. I may release the gradient set to DA but so far I made about 5 gradients, which is not quite enough to justify uploading the set yet
There's stuff I need to talk about but not yet. I'm in a in-between place right now, which fills me with a lot of doubt. I need things to end, to be over, cut-off and over for good. My self-confidence is usually pretty solid but these days it fluctuates and I tend to fall back on bad coping habits like seeking validation outside. I over-think, scrutinize every detail in every conversation, looking for clues that I am not wanted. Inevitably, there are always clues confirming my bias - totally made up and nonsensical of course. I hope my friends can bear with my less stable self right now. I wish I had the iron will to crush all my doubts. I can crush them in work, in my art but I can't crush them when it comes to people.

Thank you for all favourites, comments, critiques and devwatches! It means a lot to me.
Find me also at Facebook

Want to hire me or license my images? Check out my Commission & licensing info

Buy my prints and art gifts at: DeviantART prints | Society6 | Redbubble

Similar artworks from my gallery:

Want to learn this style? Check out my tutorial:

© Eli Vokounova (CC BY-NC-ND 3.0) - Sharing my artworks with attribution (link to the image and my name) is allowed. Commercial usage of my artworks is forbidden. Altering, transforming or building upon my artworks is forbidden.