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"Limbo"

This is a doodle that turned into a quite reflective drawing based on how i currently feel.

Er some background info required: Since the death of my dad my life became engulfed into a rather dark place of misfortune.

I use this dark oblivion as symbolism for that, and the claws you see here are of the beast that caused/created this abyss of torture. This beast is made up of evil and shadow,
it can change form and controls the shadows in this dimension.
Wich are basically everywhere and threaten to devour (the wolf) my soul, at any moment should i show any sign of weakness.
Basically i have been here for a very long time, beaten banged up and torn to shreds by this monster and unable to escape its infinite dimension of darkness. Wandering aimlessly trying to fight for life and freedom.

When my fiancee came along, it was like a light opened up at the roof of this dimension, like a pathway of light that i could to follow up to my escape.

But lately its as if i've just been floating there with the shadows nipping at my heels and the exit still so far out of reach.

I moved to Texas and still nothing seems to be happening,
we are barely eating, and we still dont have jobs, its taking forever to get my diploma, i want my own apartment and a steady job aswell as free time to go for a walk to the library or do art, but since we got here we've been having to babysit my fiancees 1 year old sister from 11am to 11pm.
Mind you i dont tolerate children well. Nothing against kids, but they severely mentally drain me.
while we watch her we have her ALL DAY and we cant go anywhere or do anything. We dont have a car or even a drivers license for that matter.

So now it just feels like im floating in some kind of limbo.

So close to freedom and a real life of happiness, and yet just below my feet is the beast that threatens to devour me.
Its reaching out to catch me again in its grasp, and im floating still, thrashing about in protest anger and fear, trying desperately to find some solid ground, some grip, i want out of this hellhole, i dont want to go back down to where i was in a constant battle, but at the same time i dont want to float here in limbo forever either. I would run out of here so fast if i could just get some grip...

Not fun...

I've been using this since i was a kid as symbolism for my life's misfortune. Many of my sketchbooks depict my soul (the white wolf) fighting against these shadows that threaten to taint/devour. I wont be able to escape till i get into/through college and have a job and my own place...

Description
"Limbo"

This is a doodle that turned into a quite reflective drawing based on how i currently feel.

Er some background info required: Since the death of my dad my life became engulfed into a rather dark place of misfortune.

I use this dark oblivion as symbolism for that, and the claws you see here are of the beast that caused/created this abyss of torture. This beast is made up of evil and shadow,
it can change form and controls the shadows in this dimension.
Wich are basically everywhere and threaten to devour (the wolf) my soul, at any moment should i show any sign of weakness.
Basically i have been here for a very long time, beaten banged up and torn to shreds by this monster and unable to escape its infinite dimension of darkness. Wandering aimlessly trying to fight for life and freedom.

When my fiancee came along, it was like a light opened up at the roof of this dimension, like a pathway of light that i could to follow up to my escape.

But lately its as if i've just been floating there with the shadows nipping at my heels and the exit still so far out of reach.

I moved to Texas and still nothing seems to be happening,
we are barely eating, and we still dont have jobs, its taking forever to get my diploma, i want my own apartment and a steady job aswell as free time to go for a walk to the library or do art, but since we got here we've been having to babysit my fiancees 1 year old sister from 11am to 11pm.
Mind you i dont tolerate children well. Nothing against kids, but they severely mentally drain me.
while we watch her we have her ALL DAY and we cant go anywhere or do anything. We dont have a car or even a drivers license for that matter.

So now it just feels like im floating in some kind of limbo.

So close to freedom and a real life of happiness, and yet just below my feet is the beast that threatens to devour me.
Its reaching out to catch me again in its grasp, and im floating still, thrashing about in protest anger and fear, trying desperately to find some solid ground, some grip, i want out of this hellhole, i dont want to go back down to where i was in a constant battle, but at the same time i dont want to float here in limbo forever either. I would run out of here so fast if i could just get some grip...

Not fun...

I've been using this since i was a kid as symbolism for my life's misfortune. Many of my sketchbooks depict my soul (the white wolf) fighting against these shadows that threaten to taint/devour. I wont be able to escape till i get into/through college and have a job and my own place...