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"No.. You're wrong Probie, you do not get to blame this on me.. I saved her, I saved her for you. You need to go talk to her, you need to straighten things out. You can't keep using your team to do it. You lost her twice, yes the first time she wasn't 'dead' but she had left. She was afraid, afraid that you weren't over your first wife, afraid you didn't love her. She didn't wanna get hurt so she left, she knew it was best for both of you. The second time, in that diner sitting there she told me one thing. She said that no matter what happens to her she did that to protect you, she would do it over again if she had to. She cared about you Probie but you pushed her away. The few times I was back I saw how you two were. You fought with her, you probie not her. You barged into her office, you yelled at her she tried to keep it under control until she couldn't anymore. She was devastated when you left for Mexico, she did what she had to for the agency because her lead agent, her best agent, the agent she had big hopes for up and left leaving her a huge problem to figure out. Leaving your 'family' to piece back together. That was when she became the mother of your 'family'. She was there for Abby when she needed a shoulder to cry on, she was there for Tony, McGee and Ziva when they needed help on a case. She was even there for Ducky, someone she looked up to, she was there when he needed the support. They were all there for her as well, but one thing. Where were you? Where were you Jethro? When she needed you the most you weren't there and it crushed her. Those few yard she spent recovering here she opened up to me. You just think about that before you blame her. You were there for her once and look it got you a daughter... She's raised her for eight years without you, Ziva helped her she didn't have to but she did... You need to think before you go blaming Jenny.. Just think.."
Gibbs' POV
I sat there thinking about what Mike had just told me, I sighed and got up heading inside. I saw Mike point towards a rook at the end of a hallway and I nodded.
"Just think.." He said before disappearing into his own room I went and placed my hand on the doorknob only to find that it was locked. Carefully I knocked on the door. Receiving no answer I started to pick the lock. Once the lock was picked I carefully opened the door only to find the one sight I never expected to see I just stood starring in shock.
Multiple alcohol bottles littered the floor, a few suitcases stacked in the corner looking like they hadn't been emptied. A certain red head laid on the bed her red hair spread out on the bed where she laid with a bottle in her hand. She didn't move which gave me the impression she was passed out. Her face was towards the ceiling and her eyes were closed as she laid there. Carefully I made my way over towards her and grabbed the bottle and slowly started to pull it out of her hand.
"Mike I suggest you release the bottle if you want to live..." She mumbled without opening her eyes as she pulled the bottle back towards her. Carefully she sat up and took a drink without opening her eyes. Once the bottle was placed in between her crossed legs she opened her eyes, they widen as they saw me.
"Sorry to disappoint you but i'm not Mike.." I said with a weak smile which made her laugh drunkly as she took another gulp of bourbon. I stood there waiting for her to speak. Instead she just downed the entire bottle before tossing it into the pile of other bottles.
"I tried... it was just too much.. After that night in the diner it was just too hard... Surgery after surgery, I was basically paralyzed.. Paralyzed and pregnant... I didn't think I would make it through the pregnancy but I did. Once our daughter was poor I watched as night after night Mike cared for her because once again I was helpless. I hate feeling helpless.. You would know that better than anyone else, you've dealt with me the longest out of everyone, yet I don't know how you still stand beside me to this day. Tell me Jethro why, why do you come chasing after me, why do you still stand by me when all I do is run especially when I feel helpless, why Jethro?" She asked looking up at me. I stood there for a few minutes before I took a step forward and kissed her. She sat frozen for a few minutes but soon kissed back only pulling away when she needed air.
"Because I love you Jen. I really do. I always have and always will. When you walked out on me in Paris it crushed me Jen, I wanted to marry you but you left and I questioned myself. I drank for awhile before I realized that it didn't help your memory was everywhere and I would never get rid of it. You came back as director and I was excited. Excited to have you back in my life but that was when I realized you were now my boss and I wasn't yours. I was afraid, afraid if I tried to get you back it would cost you your job and I didn't want that. Yes all that fighting was unnecessary. That one night things got a little out of hands no I would never take it back because I love you Jen. We got a beautiful daughter out of it. I'm not mad at you for hiding it from me for eight years because I understand you were trying to do what was best for you. Just promise me you'll come back and this time let me back into your life. Jen I can't live without you please do this for me." She just starred at me for awhile before she finally nodded. When she did a smile spread across my face as I kissed her once again.
"I love you Jethro"
"I love you too Jenny." I said as I pulled her close. I laid down in the bed beside her as we laid in each others embrace and slept. It was the best sleep I had gotten in such a long time and I was glad I got it.
The next morning I woke early to a quiet house. I figured everyone else was asleep so I laid there and just watched. I watched as Jen slept beside me her breathing even, her form looked so small curled up into my side which I couldn't help but smiling thinking how fragile she really was and how it was my job to protect her. The sun that came in through the blinds made her red hair shine as if it were on fire. I don't know how long I was laying there watching her but I snapped out of my daze when I felt her turn to face me in my arms.
"Morning.." He soft voice came as she slowly opened her emerald green eyes and looked at me smiling.
"Morning Beautiful." I said as I kissed her temple still holding her close not wanting to get up. She smiled as she buried her head in my chest while I ran my hand through her hair. We laid there for a good while before we heard noises from outside the window. Carefully Jenny pulled away from me as she got up walking towards the window where she opened the blinds. I watched as a smile spree across he face, she turned and looked towards me as she waved me over towards the window.
Carefully making my way over towards the window I stood beside her wrapping my arms around her waist and kissed her neck before I glanced outside. I smiled as I felt her shift into my arms moving closer to me. I didn't look towards her I was too busy watching Mike and Kate outside playing together. Kate was chasing Mike, they were both laughing and smiling which just warmed my heart even more. My gaze shifted back to Jenny who was smiling as she watched them.
"Jen?" I said as I glanced back out the window tightening my grip on her.
"Yes Jethro?" She said leaning into me slightly.
"Come back home."
"This is my home Jethro.. It has been Kate's home for the first four years of her life." She said without looking towards me.
"No Jen it isn't we both know that.."
"There's too much pain there Jethro I can't go back."
"Never said you had to go back there."
"Than what do you mean Jethro?"
"Come back with me, you and Kate can stay with me. We can start over. Jen I still love you, I always have and always will. Yes these last eight years have been hard, you've haunted my dreams since the night you were 'killed'. Not only did I blame DiNozzo at first I blame myself, blamed myself for being too stubborn and not going with you to Decker's funeral. He was one of my agents as well, he was part of my team. I've lost so many over the years Jen that it's hard... I really is hard to keep saying goodbye." She turned in my arms to look at me.
"Don't blame yourself it isn't your fault. I can understand it's hard loosing close family and friends but Jethro you can't blame yourself. Promise me if I do come back you'll stop blaming yourself" I nodded as I hugged her tightly.
"I promise Jen, i'd do anything for you Jen. I have never loved anyone since my first wife but the day I met you that all changed I realized you were the one I was meant to be with, Jen I love you."
"Come on.." She said closing the blinds and leading me towards the bathroom. Once there she let go of my hand as she made her way over towards the bathtub where she leaned over and started the water, I smiled as I watched her. After awhile she walked over and stood in front of me, she stood on her tiptoes as she leaned up kissing me gently. She than backed away as she undressed leaving her clothes laying on the floor as she smirked looking towards her. My gaze automatically shifted to her beautiful long legs that I had learned to love over the years I had been with her. Carefully she climbed in disappearing into the water. I soon followed after climbing in behind her.
Once I was in she leaned her head back against my chest as she closed her eyes taking some deep breaths she than opened her eyes and looked towards me a smile spreading across her face.
"I missed this, not only that I missed you. I love you Jethro" I carefully leaned forward and kissed her. We never needed words, we always understood each other better in silence. When I pulled back for some air I rested my forehead against hers as I looked into her shinnying emerald green eyes. They were filled with love, passion, sadness and so many other things mixed together. I leaned forward once again and kissed her, I smiled as she kissed me back.
We had been in the bathtub for awhile just enjoying the company of each other. It wasn't until we were all washed up and the water was starting to cool down that we climbed out. Carefully I helped her wrap a towel around herself before I wrapped one around my waist as well. Quickly I pulled her to me kissing her forehead as I took in her beautiful scent. She looked up at me and I kissed her once again.
"I love you too Jenny."
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"No.. You're wrong Probie, you do not get to blame this on me.. I saved her, I saved her for you. You need to go talk to her, you need to straighten things out. You can't keep using your team to do it. You lost her twice, yes the first time she wasn't 'dead' but she had left. She was afraid, afraid that you weren't over your first wife, afraid you didn't love her. She didn't wanna get hurt so she left, she knew it was best for both of you. The second time, in that diner sitting there she told me one thing. She said that no matter what happens to her she did that to protect you, she would do it over again if she had to. She cared about you Probie but you pushed her away. The few times I was back I saw how you two were. You fought with her, you probie not her. You barged into her office, you yelled at her she tried to keep it under control until she couldn't anymore. She was devastated when you left for Mexico, she did what she had to for the agency because her lead agent, her best agent, the agent she had big hopes for up and left leaving her a huge problem to figure out. Leaving your 'family' to piece back together. That was when she became the mother of your 'family'. She was there for Abby when she needed a shoulder to cry on, she was there for Tony, McGee and Ziva when they needed help on a case. She was even there for Ducky, someone she looked up to, she was there when he needed the support. They were all there for her as well, but one thing. Where were you? Where were you Jethro? When she needed you the most you weren't there and it crushed her. Those few yard she spent recovering here she opened up to me. You just think about that before you blame her. You were there for her once and look it got you a daughter... She's raised her for eight years without you, Ziva helped her she didn't have to but she did... You need to think before you go blaming Jenny.. Just think.."
Gibbs' POV
I sat there thinking about what Mike had just told me, I sighed and got up heading inside. I saw Mike point towards a rook at the end of a hallway and I nodded.
"Just think.." He said before disappearing into his own room I went and placed my hand on the doorknob only to find that it was locked. Carefully I knocked on the door. Receiving no answer I started to pick the lock. Once the lock was picked I carefully opened the door only to find the one sight I never expected to see I just stood starring in shock.
Multiple alcohol bottles littered the floor, a few suitcases stacked in the corner looking like they hadn't been emptied. A certain red head laid on the bed her red hair spread out on the bed where she laid with a bottle in her hand. She didn't move which gave me the impression she was passed out. Her face was towards the ceiling and her eyes were closed as she laid there. Carefully I made my way over towards her and grabbed the bottle and slowly started to pull it out of her hand.
"Mike I suggest you release the bottle if you want to live..." She mumbled without opening her eyes as she pulled the bottle back towards her. Carefully she sat up and took a drink without opening her eyes. Once the bottle was placed in between her crossed legs she opened her eyes, they widen as they saw me.
"Sorry to disappoint you but i'm not Mike.." I said with a weak smile which made her laugh drunkly as she took another gulp of bourbon. I stood there waiting for her to speak. Instead she just downed the entire bottle before tossing it into the pile of other bottles.
"I tried... it was just too much.. After that night in the diner it was just too hard... Surgery after surgery, I was basically paralyzed.. Paralyzed and pregnant... I didn't think I would make it through the pregnancy but I did. Once our daughter was poor I watched as night after night Mike cared for her because once again I was helpless. I hate feeling helpless.. You would know that better than anyone else, you've dealt with me the longest out of everyone, yet I don't know how you still stand beside me to this day. Tell me Jethro why, why do you come chasing after me, why do you still stand by me when all I do is run especially when I feel helpless, why Jethro?" She asked looking up at me. I stood there for a few minutes before I took a step forward and kissed her. She sat frozen for a few minutes but soon kissed back only pulling away when she needed air.
"Because I love you Jen. I really do. I always have and always will. When you walked out on me in Paris it crushed me Jen, I wanted to marry you but you left and I questioned myself. I drank for awhile before I realized that it didn't help your memory was everywhere and I would never get rid of it. You came back as director and I was excited. Excited to have you back in my life but that was when I realized you were now my boss and I wasn't yours. I was afraid, afraid if I tried to get you back it would cost you your job and I didn't want that. Yes all that fighting was unnecessary. That one night things got a little out of hands no I would never take it back because I love you Jen. We got a beautiful daughter out of it. I'm not mad at you for hiding it from me for eight years because I understand you were trying to do what was best for you. Just promise me you'll come back and this time let me back into your life. Jen I can't live without you please do this for me." She just starred at me for awhile before she finally nodded. When she did a smile spread across my face as I kissed her once again.
"I love you Jethro"
"I love you too Jenny." I said as I pulled her close. I laid down in the bed beside her as we laid in each others embrace and slept. It was the best sleep I had gotten in such a long time and I was glad I got it.
The next morning I woke early to a quiet house. I figured everyone else was asleep so I laid there and just watched. I watched as Jen slept beside me her breathing even, her form looked so small curled up into my side which I couldn't help but smiling thinking how fragile she really was and how it was my job to protect her. The sun that came in through the blinds made her red hair shine as if it were on fire. I don't know how long I was laying there watching her but I snapped out of my daze when I felt her turn to face me in my arms.
"Morning.." He soft voice came as she slowly opened her emerald green eyes and looked at me smiling.
"Morning Beautiful." I said as I kissed her temple still holding her close not wanting to get up. She smiled as she buried her head in my chest while I ran my hand through her hair. We laid there for a good while before we heard noises from outside the window. Carefully Jenny pulled away from me as she got up walking towards the window where she opened the blinds. I watched as a smile spree across he face, she turned and looked towards me as she waved me over towards the window.
Carefully making my way over towards the window I stood beside her wrapping my arms around her waist and kissed her neck before I glanced outside. I smiled as I felt her shift into my arms moving closer to me. I didn't look towards her I was too busy watching Mike and Kate outside playing together. Kate was chasing Mike, they were both laughing and smiling which just warmed my heart even more. My gaze shifted back to Jenny who was smiling as she watched them.
"Jen?" I said as I glanced back out the window tightening my grip on her.
"Yes Jethro?" She said leaning into me slightly.
"Come back home."
"This is my home Jethro.. It has been Kate's home for the first four years of her life." She said without looking towards me.
"No Jen it isn't we both know that.."
"There's too much pain there Jethro I can't go back."
"Never said you had to go back there."
"Than what do you mean Jethro?"
"Come back with me, you and Kate can stay with me. We can start over. Jen I still love you, I always have and always will. Yes these last eight years have been hard, you've haunted my dreams since the night you were 'killed'. Not only did I blame DiNozzo at first I blame myself, blamed myself for being too stubborn and not going with you to Decker's funeral. He was one of my agents as well, he was part of my team. I've lost so many over the years Jen that it's hard... I really is hard to keep saying goodbye." She turned in my arms to look at me.
"Don't blame yourself it isn't your fault. I can understand it's hard loosing close family and friends but Jethro you can't blame yourself. Promise me if I do come back you'll stop blaming yourself" I nodded as I hugged her tightly.
"I promise Jen, i'd do anything for you Jen. I have never loved anyone since my first wife but the day I met you that all changed I realized you were the one I was meant to be with, Jen I love you."
"Come on.." She said closing the blinds and leading me towards the bathroom. Once there she let go of my hand as she made her way over towards the bathtub where she leaned over and started the water, I smiled as I watched her. After awhile she walked over and stood in front of me, she stood on her tiptoes as she leaned up kissing me gently. She than backed away as she undressed leaving her clothes laying on the floor as she smirked looking towards her. My gaze automatically shifted to her beautiful long legs that I had learned to love over the years I had been with her. Carefully she climbed in disappearing into the water. I soon followed after climbing in behind her.
Once I was in she leaned her head back against my chest as she closed her eyes taking some deep breaths she than opened her eyes and looked towards me a smile spreading across her face.
"I missed this, not only that I missed you. I love you Jethro" I carefully leaned forward and kissed her. We never needed words, we always understood each other better in silence. When I pulled back for some air I rested my forehead against hers as I looked into her shinnying emerald green eyes. They were filled with love, passion, sadness and so many other things mixed together. I leaned forward once again and kissed her, I smiled as she kissed me back.
We had been in the bathtub for awhile just enjoying the company of each other. It wasn't until we were all washed up and the water was starting to cool down that we climbed out. Carefully I helped her wrap a towel around herself before I wrapped one around my waist as well. Quickly I pulled her to me kissing her forehead as I took in her beautiful scent. She looked up at me and I kissed her once again.
"I love you too Jenny."
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