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Published: 2018-12-03 15:32:15 +0000 UTC; Views: 1927; Favourites: 208; Downloads: 0
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Description I had it all
And still couldn't move forward
Left Behind
After all
after all
after all..
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Comments: 28

EtherKhaos [2019-12-25 01:56:55 +0000 UTC]

The effort was a noble one, but success here would have led to a greater defeat in the long-run

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paintausea In reply to EtherKhaos [2019-12-25 20:20:46 +0000 UTC]

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000SkyArrow000 [2019-06-02 23:44:39 +0000 UTC]

that one fits perfect with the way I see you....I am not in your shoes and I am not able to understand you....I can not feel all the pain you feel ....and you face it alone....but I have my own perspective and feeling about your arts and all you say....about you...

I see you like an angel....a being of pure light not able to see your own goodness and beauty.....suffering alone in an ocean of loneliness...seeing your own reflection on water waves....distorted reflections that make you see yourself like a monster.......and alone through seasons....during cold and warm seasons....you still keep in the same point in that ocean of loneliness.....with wings you forget to have....and even don't know if could even be able to fly.......and just with the distorted reflections on the water that never will be enough to represent the special existence you are...


congratulations for another masterpiece with great shadow and lght effects....proportion....delicate trace and details....and with a deep feeling....and make me sad always to think this world looks so inappropriate and wrong to make special people suffer so much....

there is nothing worng about you....the world that looks so worng..

even suffering so much alone in an ocean of loneliness....and forgetting your own beauty....forgetting how to fly....you still are and will always be an angel...a being of pure light...

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paintausea In reply to 000SkyArrow000 [2019-07-29 15:35:32 +0000 UTC]

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000SkyArrow000 In reply to paintausea [2019-11-25 02:06:46 +0000 UTC]

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WillLeavey [2019-01-11 18:32:29 +0000 UTC]

I want to say something about this but I can't put into words how much I love this!

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paintausea In reply to WillLeavey [2019-01-16 17:54:32 +0000 UTC]

I'm so glad then! (: Thank you!

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RotmetX [2018-12-13 08:17:56 +0000 UTC]

nice...

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paintausea In reply to RotmetX [2019-01-16 18:22:33 +0000 UTC]

thank you...

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HuouinKyoma [2018-12-04 03:46:55 +0000 UTC]

None of us could, we are all broken.

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paintausea In reply to HuouinKyoma [2018-12-04 14:07:11 +0000 UTC]

I suppose that makes us all less lonely and more understood.. if people were to admit it with open hearts

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NotWithoutHonor [2018-12-04 03:00:50 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful, and haunting too.

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paintausea In reply to NotWithoutHonor [2018-12-04 14:07:17 +0000 UTC]

Thank you.. (:

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falzelo [2018-12-03 22:59:55 +0000 UTC]

A lovely, emotional piece. 
One can say "believe in yourself. Either you think you can or you can't, you are correct"
Motivational quotes are easy to speak, but the bitterness of failure is much harder to empathize

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paintausea In reply to falzelo [2018-12-04 14:08:05 +0000 UTC]

I very much agree.. 
But I think this bitterness can make us connect as much as trying to inspire one another does..

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Vladimir32 [2018-12-03 21:15:37 +0000 UTC]

God, this piece aches so much... I often wonder about this myself, if I'm trailing behind when I should have flown so much higher and farther...

It's not your fault that your wings were clipped by the people you should have been able to trust, and it's okay to need time to heal and grow those feathers back. And at the risk of sounding corny, you'll always be a little angel to me~ 

(Also, small detail, but I love how you drew the water! So many shades and contours and subtleties!)

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paintausea In reply to Vladimir32 [2018-12-04 14:12:33 +0000 UTC]

Aaahh.. I really just want to forget the past.. 
But my wings will always remind me of it.
I don't wish to be an angel, but just one that is at peace with maybe never meant to fly..

(I'll have to painfully admit that I didn't completely draw the water myself, but overlayed it with a water image because I was just too exhausted to work on it.)

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Vladimir32 In reply to paintausea [2018-12-04 18:19:08 +0000 UTC]

Mrrr, I get that. So many nightmares that deserve to be buried and forgotten...

And hmhm, that's true. Not all angels must fly~ And hey, you are *important*. I know I always say it, but you've made such an impact on me, and I'm sure so many others, for the better. You don't have to have some big personality or lead a dramatic, flashy life to have an effect on people. You've nestled yourself in our hearts, bun, and we're all different - better - for it. I had no idea that I would be cultivating such a friendship when I first ran across you, but now I have the privilege of having grown to know one of the kindest, sweetest people I could hope to meet. You'll always be in my heart, and I'm so grateful that you've trusted me enough to let me into yours. (Heh, now that song from Wicked is stuck in my head. x3)

(And eep! That's okay! It looks lovely, and that's the whole point! <3)

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paintausea In reply to Vladimir32 [2018-12-08 10:52:00 +0000 UTC]

Mama Bear is being cutely mushy again.. xD ♥

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Vladimir32 In reply to paintausea [2018-12-10 04:39:51 +0000 UTC]

Eeee!   You make me blush~ (Seriously, reading that made me smile so hard. uwu)

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paintausea In reply to Vladimir32 [2019-01-26 16:16:50 +0000 UTC]

Hahaha sweet one

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Vladimir32 In reply to paintausea [2019-01-26 19:01:48 +0000 UTC]

Hrhr, *you're* the sweetheart~ <3

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Charles-Knapp [2018-12-03 16:03:53 +0000 UTC]

I want to fly
But my wings are underdeveloped
I want to escape so badly
But gravity always pulls me down
As the winter snow piles up
I sit her here and wonder
'why?'

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paintausea In reply to Charles-Knapp [2018-12-04 14:10:34 +0000 UTC]

The 'why' might someday break us down to try no more..

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Charles-Knapp In reply to paintausea [2018-12-05 04:08:48 +0000 UTC]

I know. The why broke me down once. The poem was written when I was fourteen during a really painful time in my life when I was living in Alaska. The picture reminded me of it. 

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paintausea In reply to Charles-Knapp [2018-12-08 10:50:38 +0000 UTC]

I see.. I hope you were able to mend to those shards..

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Charles-Knapp In reply to paintausea [2018-12-08 18:22:04 +0000 UTC]

Don't worry I was able to mend the shards. I'm in a better place now. 

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paintausea In reply to Charles-Knapp [2019-01-26 16:17:12 +0000 UTC]

I'm so glad for you (:

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