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omg why everything that i draw looks like garbage, i swear
sigh anyway where do i start
im completly mess right now and i can't control my emocions very well
my mental health is fucked up
and i feel more suicidle than ever
my depression is getting bigger and bigger and it hurts so much
and its not like i feel REALLY loney bc i don't
i have friends
i have people that i can talk to
but its so hard to me to actually do this
i don't know why

every morning i feel dead inside and i see no purpose in life
no purpose to get up
no purpose to eat
no purpose to do anything
everyting is so emty to me
and every action i do i found worthless

and please don't say to me things like
"oh just eat some choclate and watch cool film ^^ it always help me!!"
PLEASE DON'T MISTAKE SADNESS with DEPESSED
both are diffrent things
even tho their might be sometimes similar
but still don't take tchem as one emocion
bc depression isn't emocion
its way serious and complicated thing

i, as myself see me as very boring person
and everytime i see that someone want to talk to me or anything is very surprising thing to me

and my idenity problems aren't helping me either
i don't know who i am anymore
hmm, maybe wortless little bitch

i can't make myself happy anymore
but,,
only thing that makes me happy is see other happy
especially people that mean i lot to me

and no matter ho much i try i still fail
and still anything is just so empty
everyone is just saying " its gonna be better!!" "Just keep trying"
no, nothing is going to be better in my life
everything is still gonna be empty
just like me
im really hollow.
and i really want to end everything
my life
my existence
i really want to hurt myself and never return
im not scared of death anymore
im scrared of life

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omg why everything that i draw looks like garbage, i swear
sigh anyway where do i start
im completly mess right now and i can't control my emocions very well
my mental health is fucked up
and i feel more suicidle than ever
my depression is getting bigger and bigger and it hurts so much
and its not like i feel REALLY loney bc i don't
i have friends
i have people that i can talk to
but its so hard to me to actually do this
i don't know why

every morning i feel dead inside and i see no purpose in life
no purpose to get up
no purpose to eat
no purpose to do anything
everyting is so emty to me
and every action i do i found worthless

and please don't say to me things like
"oh just eat some choclate and watch cool film ^^ it always help me!!"
PLEASE DON'T MISTAKE SADNESS with DEPESSED
both are diffrent things
even tho their might be sometimes similar
but still don't take tchem as one emocion
bc depression isn't emocion
its way serious and complicated thing

i, as myself see me as very boring person
and everytime i see that someone want to talk to me or anything is very surprising thing to me

and my idenity problems aren't helping me either
i don't know who i am anymore
hmm, maybe wortless little bitch

i can't make myself happy anymore
but,,
only thing that makes me happy is see other happy
especially people that mean i lot to me

and no matter ho much i try i still fail
and still anything is just so empty
everyone is just saying " its gonna be better!!" "Just keep trying"
no, nothing is going to be better in my life
everything is still gonna be empty
just like me
im really hollow.
and i really want to end everything
my life
my existence
i really want to hurt myself and never return
im not scared of death anymore
im scrared of life