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There will be a point and time in your life, where everything stands still and it feels there's no light. That's when you admit that yeah, "i'm not alright". Don't turn away from the people that bring you sight. Because sometimes in life you'll hit an all time low, where the last shot, the last blow, has brought you off your toes. Don't turn away from the ones you know, just because you're afraid to show, that even you, fall too.
There's been times in my life i thought to end it all, there's been times in my life where i just couldn't take the fall. there's been TIMES and TIMES AGAIN where i felt no matter WHAT i DO it's not GOOD enough, and no matter HOW HARD i try, time goes by and they forget about you. Last night was one too. one of those battles in my head that left me out dead in the CENTER of my thoughts. VULNERABLE to the MEMORIES that it Cost.
Actions cause a massive effect to a person thats 'imperfect' to society. People TAKE them DOWN because they FEEL they need to, To be accepted. People HURT another because they feel its the ONLY WAY they can relief THEIR PAIN , but it's not true.
I've been through countless things, and my memories take me over, again and again. I lay awake at night wonder WHEN will it come again, WILL IT BE NOW , or tomorrow. Don't push those that you love, the ones that LOVE YOU , away. because they don't know your pain. They don't know you enough like you know you. Those that try, THEY TRY for YOU . Leaving them out Hurts them as well...

There's been times where i was afraid. I was AFRAID to open MY THOUGHTS and my memories to those that i love, why? Because of Loss.
There's been times i thought i would open my mind, my walls, my doors, my windows to them would cause them to turn away. Why? Because of previous actions.
There's been times i tried reaching out to those i love but stopped, Why? Because i felt they were sick of me. Sick of my existance.

Little do you know you also hurt the ones you love with a thought like that, but can you blame me, after all that i've seen, or got flung at?

It's alright to be broken. It's alright to be hurt. It's alright to be sad.
It doesn't make you weak.
Each Scar you can count, mentally or physically just makes you one step further thant the next. One step wiser, one step stronger. I don't believe in the words "sticks and stones break my bones" because MENTALLY it's a test. No one is better than the rest. We're all in the same pot, in the same spot. and EVEN if everyone has their worries, struggles and problems that doesn't mean ignoring the other is a wise desicion because on the end they think its them.
So i'm sorry if i'm not 'perfect', I'm bad at telling how it is, and i'm bad at asking for some sort of respect. Sometimes people don't know when they're putting you down, or act as if "they're" to blame, and play the "shame" game. Triggered? I Figured.
Take a moment to step back, and breathe. Look at those you love, and remember they are there for you. Don't think they're sick of you, not everyone is the same. Appreciate them more and if you haven't told them how much they matter it's time, because they want only the best for you, just as much as you want the best for them.

art SevenThunderBolts
Character SevenThunderBolts

Plushes: Vegaven / Ya-Boy-Iggy / ChaosGeass

Permissions: Seventhunderbolts / SilentDreamDrifter

Description

EDIT: VIEW THE SPEEDPAINT HERE:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rfkYU…

There will be a point and time in your life, where everything stands still and it feels there's no light. That's when you admit that yeah, "i'm not alright". Don't turn away from the people that bring you sight. Because sometimes in life you'll hit an all time low, where the last shot, the last blow, has brought you off your toes. Don't turn away from the ones you know, just because you're afraid to show, that even you, fall too.
There's been times in my life i thought to end it all, there's been times in my life where i just couldn't take the fall. there's been TIMES and TIMES AGAIN where i felt no matter WHAT i DO it's not GOOD enough, and no matter HOW HARD i try, time goes by and they forget about you. Last night was one too. one of those battles in my head that left me out dead in the CENTER of my thoughts. VULNERABLE to the MEMORIES that it Cost.
Actions cause a massive effect to a person thats 'imperfect' to society. People TAKE them DOWN because they FEEL they need to, To be accepted. People HURT another because they feel its the ONLY WAY they can relief THEIR PAIN , but it's not true.
I've been through countless things, and my memories take me over, again and again. I lay awake at night wonder WHEN will it come again, WILL IT BE NOW , or tomorrow. Don't push those that you love, the ones that LOVE YOU , away. because they don't know your pain. They don't know you enough like you know you. Those that try, THEY TRY for YOU . Leaving them out Hurts them as well...

There's been times where i was afraid. I was AFRAID to open MY THOUGHTS and my memories to those that i love, why? Because of Loss.
There's been times i thought i would open my mind, my walls, my doors, my windows to them would cause them to turn away. Why? Because of previous actions.
There's been times i tried reaching out to those i love but stopped, Why? Because i felt they were sick of me. Sick of my existance.

Little do you know you also hurt the ones you love with a thought like that, but can you blame me, after all that i've seen, or got flung at?

It's alright to be broken. It's alright to be hurt. It's alright to be sad.
It doesn't make you weak.
Each Scar you can count, mentally or physically just makes you one step further thant the next. One step wiser, one step stronger. I don't believe in the words "sticks and stones break my bones" because MENTALLY it's a test. No one is better than the rest. We're all in the same pot, in the same spot. and EVEN if everyone has their worries, struggles and problems that doesn't mean ignoring the other is a wise desicion because on the end they think its them.
So i'm sorry if i'm not 'perfect', I'm bad at telling how it is, and i'm bad at asking for some sort of respect. Sometimes people don't know when they're putting you down, or act as if "they're" to blame, and play the "shame" game. Triggered? I Figured.
Take a moment to step back, and breathe. Look at those you love, and remember they are there for you. Don't think they're sick of you, not everyone is the same. Appreciate them more and if you haven't told them how much they matter it's time, because they want only the best for you, just as much as you want the best for them.

art SevenThunderBolts
Character SevenThunderBolts

Plushes: Vegaven / Ya-Boy-Iggy / ChaosGeass

Permissions: Seventhunderbolts / SilentDreamDrifter