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The next day, my Dad and couple of other police men arrested Takahashi. My Mom was furious and demanded questions, she asked me why did I lie and how would we survive with out him. I didn't have to worry about that because my Dad had temporary custody of me until further notice. I told Aoi about, what was going on and he said he wanted to kill Takahashi.

I told him that he won't be needing to do that. My Dad told me I'll have to go to court with this and not to be afraid and just tell them everything Takahashi had done to me. That was the scary part, telling everyone in the court what he did. All the things he did, what if they don't believe me. Half the things that happened to me over the past year I can't even believe.

My Dad took me to the doctor to see if I was okay, and didn't have any type of disease fortunately I was okay. I had to go see a Psychiatrist, and her name was Hidaka Mizukawa. She's nice but I'm afraid to tell her anything, and she says to take my time but I know she feels as if she can't do anything and that we're wasting time. She told me people all over the world have and are being abused or raped, but they don't have anyone to talk to about because most of them are scared or dead.

I haven't been feeling right lately, I've been having nightmares and have been screaming in my sleep. I'm tired a lot and afraid of being touched. I can't even hug Aoi without thinking about Takahashi. I begged my Dad not to take me to school because now everyone knows what happened. He still took me, and I'm more afraid than ever. I walked through the doors looking at everyone talking, some people stared at me then whisper insults to each other. As I sit in class some people are staring at me, it's really making me uncomfortable.

At gym was the worst time of my life because I forgot we were supposed to have Sex talk today, and it was mostly about Sexual Abuse. All the boys were in the gym, and were sitting in the bleachers. I was alone as usual but I was getting these weird faces. Our gym teacher came in, Mr. Kuroki he was loud and he was very honest. I mean, like if you're doing something wrong or weird he'll tell in the most hurtful way ever. I don't understand why they haven't fired him yet.

"Hello, everybody!"

"Hello Mr. Kuroki!"

"Okay, now you all know why you boys are here. So, at the age you are now you going to start thinking or having sexual intercourse." I really didn't want to hear this, I was already having sex with Aoi. So, I already know what he's going to say.

A little while later he got into the topic of rape. I covered my ears I didn't want to hear it, soon I started seeing images in my head about what Takahashi did to me. I finally broke down when it was too much. I was crying hard, embarrassing myself even more. I got up and ran out of the gym, running toward the nearest bathroom to cry my eyes out. Two teachers found me, and asked me if I was okay.

"Do I look like I'm okay? All of the things I've been going through. That's a pretty stupid question to ask right now, don't you think?" I continued to cry and they led me out of the bathroom towards the office. I knew I was in trouble for talking to an adult like that but I didn't care. I was angry and hurt and I wanted to go home. My Dad came and picked me up.

They told that was being disrespectful and they were just trying to help me. We got in the car and drove off.

"Do you always get in trouble at school?"

"No, I never get in trouble. I just-."

"Then why were sent home then?"

"Because, I- I don't because-." "Because you were disrespectful, right?"

"Yes, but I didn't mean to be disrespectful. I was mad and they asked if I was alright which was a very stupid question."

"You could've just said 'yes I alright.'"

"I wasn't alright, I was crying; I was hurt."

"Then say 'no I'm not alright.'" I looked out the window, it felt like the whole world was aganist me. I started to think about this court thing I have to go through.

"Dad, what happens if I don't win on Saturday?"

"Then Takahashi doesn't go to jail and custody goes back to your Mom."

"But he didall those things to me." I didn't want to go back to her if she's going to call me a liar.

"Then you don't have to worry about anything right?"

The next day was brutal, we had a really big thunderstorm last night, so school was closed because of a power outage, and flooding in the school. I decided to talk to Akira, one of my friends. Akira usually calls himself Reita, he doesn't have a good relationship with his Dad at all and he HATES his older

Sister. We've known each other since I was four, he's older than me but he's still my best friend. He mostly hangs out with Aoi because he is his age. He called me and asked if he could come over. The door bell rang and I got up to go get it, "Hi, Akira I'm glad you made it safely." He came in and we went to our room just to talk.

"So, why didn't you tell me that your Takahashi was doing this to you?"

"I don't know, I was scared. I know I can tell you everything but that wasn't something I wanted to discuss with you."

"So, tell me everything. I can tell you left some things out about him." I looked away and started to cry. He came over and sat next to me.

"It's okay you can tell me."

"Well, you know that he used to rape me and sometimes he would get a friend of his to help him. His friend would rape me too."

"Do you know who the guy was?"

"No."

"Kouyou? Are you sure you don't anything?"

"Yes, I'm sure I don't know who the person was."

"I think your lying."

"I'm not lying; why would you say that?" "Because your shaking, and you also said the guy would do it 'sometimes' so he's obviously done it more than once."

"I wouldn't lie abut this! I can't tell you who it was."

"Why?"

"Because you'll get mad at me and call me a liar."

"No I won't I promise." He turned my head and got really close, our faces inches apart from one another.

"Kouyou, you know I've always loved you." And with that he kissed me, I didn't try to stop him I went with it. The kiss was strong and passionate I opened my mouth and his tongue slipped inside. I laid on my back and he was on top of me. Touching my face ever so gently wiping the tears off, his other hand was going up my shirt. I let him continue because I felt I really needed this but I knew it wasn't supposed to be from him. I really didn't care at the time I just wanted to be with someone, I felt guilty and hurt. I shouldn't be doing this but I couldn't stop, it felt good at the same time. I felt him pull up my shirt and pull it over my head. He threw the shirt in the corner, and continued kissing me.

"I love you Kouyou, I want you." I effortlessly tried to push him off, but I don't think he even noticed it.

I thought we were going to stop when he realized that his shirt was off, but it went further. I wasn't thinking straight, I should've told him to stop. He knows I'm with Aoi, or does he?

The next day, Aoi called me but I didn't pick up the phone. I couldn't after what I just did. I can't tell him, but I know eventually I will. I got up early that morning very drowsy, and I felt that bed was cold and damp. I realized I had wet the bed, I don't really didn't know the reason. I haven't done this since I was five. I sat there thinking what might've caused me to do this. Also thinking about Aoi and Reita, how this would affect their relationship as friends. I could never tell Aoi about me sleeping with Reita or Reita might tell him.

I have to think of a plan.