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you left me with a noose and a chair
and expected me not to hang
i've been chasing cars ever since
hoping one day to find you
my mind is wide awake despite my body
and i can't seem to stop
stop searching for you
your myopic point of view is haunting me
because you never saw the big picture
slow me down and count to ten
i try to breathe in and out
but i can't seem to breathe without you
i'm unfolding before your eyes
god damn, things have to go right
without everything else going wrong
i feed off of the disdain you have for me
and hope that one day you'll return
maybe it's a pipe-dream, hoping so
that you'll just embrace me again
i can feel intravenously your love
pumping through my veins and
coursing your way to my heart
but you want nothing to do with me
and i choke on the reality of things
when you told me you loved me
damn right i believed every second
but you never even meant it
and i'm up shit's creek without a paddle
trying to navigate my way into your heart
to no avail, i have my map coursed
but the directions lead me nowhere
fixating on getting you back i
slowly crumble beneath the weight
like atlas himself i carry
the world upon my shoulders
shoot the stars from the sky
until everything is pitch-black
tonight i'll make my final attempt
to bring you back to me
and if all else fails i'll at least
be able to say i gave it my all
a million different whispers tell me
that i should just give up
and turn back without finding you
but i can't seem to stop
yearning and aching for your presence
but the truth in it all, every ounce
is that you were never mine to begin with