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Yeaaa boiii here's a nice artwork after some sort of semi hiatus i guess
I did change the title so it would match the name of my krita document. Now that the intro is out of the way, I'll
tell you guys something about me, hope you'd read!

Previously here on deviantart I said that I was just recently starting college xD anyway I'm currently taking up engineering
on a whim. Anyway here's a little secret. i don't really want to be an engineer or at least I think so. The past couple of weeks have been pretty fun with all the new people and at least somewhat manageable despite all the tasks dropping hard and midterms coming quick in about 3 weeks, but its just something I'm not really feeling. I did want to be a physics major sometime in the past xD but I didn't really think that through, the lifelong commitment required to be a researcher seems insane. Not really sure where to land in, I chose engineering just cause its the closest thing I guess.

But sometime later when the opening of classes dawned close, I sort of made a realization. some cliche ass shiete it might seem but it seems I really love art and drawing. And I thought that, with how things are going now, maybe and hopefully, I can make a career out of it. Architecture was something I thought about but just didn't really fit with how I wanted to go about using my skills. I also considered taking up art class but idk the only school that offers that here is reaally far + im way past enrollment schedule. Anyway tldr, I told my parents about it and that I wanted to not take up college so I could focus on art and yeah well that really didn't go well xD

So yeah they did say that if I wanted to go pursue art I could at least enroll in an art college or maybe take up animation.
Foolish as it may seem, I thought that it wasn't the way to go since we would have to spend much more money on those when I could've just done the same thing studying stuff on the internet. With dedication and focus, I thought that would at least be possible. Still, my parents insisted that I at least take up college, and that 4-5 years wouldn't be too long nor a waste of time.

Anyway I guess this is too long a description for a drawing xD so I might leave a journal a bit later. But yeah because of all of that, I felt lost and honestly, maybe even lost a bit of hope for drawing. But still, I'm hoping that it would indeed be possible to turn my dreams into a reality. The lack of my parents' support and insults that art is not profitable and something along those lines really hit me hard, like a red crystal spear.

But after some time I did gain a sense of courage again, if you could call it that. Which is probably why it took me a while to change the composition a bit and give emphasis to the crystals and flowers around it, which I thought best explained my hope and healing. Despite being almost entirely delusional, my friends do support me and have their hopes as well that I may reach my dream of becoming a successful artist one day. And I guess for now, that's enough really. I'm still in engineering so nothing much has changed, but I'm still giving my 100% to this craft, hoping that I could prove everyone wrong and would get to live the job that i love.

Anyway sorry for the little drama I guess. Art has been mostly my medium for feelings and for showing all sorts of stories so shooting up a long line of text like this to go with it seems a bit out of character for sasplayer
Regardless if you read this story or not, I do hope you guys like this <3 since I put a long time and love in this nifty art

Also made prints of this available! I currently do not have my own website so I'm testing out the prints feature of deviantart in the meantime. Anyway I'm not sure entirely about the quality so do tell me about it if the prints are alright!
Every bit of money helps me financially and in making my dreams come true, so do check it out!

Commissions will be back in a week or so after I finish another personal work

Description
l My Instagram l

Yeaaa boiii here's a nice artwork after some sort of semi hiatus i guess
I did change the title so it would match the name of my krita document. Now that the intro is out of the way, I'll
tell you guys something about me, hope you'd read!

Previously here on deviantart I said that I was just recently starting college xD anyway I'm currently taking up engineering
on a whim. Anyway here's a little secret. i don't really want to be an engineer or at least I think so. The past couple of weeks have been pretty fun with all the new people and at least somewhat manageable despite all the tasks dropping hard and midterms coming quick in about 3 weeks, but its just something I'm not really feeling. I did want to be a physics major sometime in the past xD but I didn't really think that through, the lifelong commitment required to be a researcher seems insane. Not really sure where to land in, I chose engineering just cause its the closest thing I guess.

But sometime later when the opening of classes dawned close, I sort of made a realization. some cliche ass shiete it might seem but it seems I really love art and drawing. And I thought that, with how things are going now, maybe and hopefully, I can make a career out of it. Architecture was something I thought about but just didn't really fit with how I wanted to go about using my skills. I also considered taking up art class but idk the only school that offers that here is reaally far + im way past enrollment schedule. Anyway tldr, I told my parents about it and that I wanted to not take up college so I could focus on art and yeah well that really didn't go well xD

So yeah they did say that if I wanted to go pursue art I could at least enroll in an art college or maybe take up animation.
Foolish as it may seem, I thought that it wasn't the way to go since we would have to spend much more money on those when I could've just done the same thing studying stuff on the internet. With dedication and focus, I thought that would at least be possible. Still, my parents insisted that I at least take up college, and that 4-5 years wouldn't be too long nor a waste of time.

Anyway I guess this is too long a description for a drawing xD so I might leave a journal a bit later. But yeah because of all of that, I felt lost and honestly, maybe even lost a bit of hope for drawing. But still, I'm hoping that it would indeed be possible to turn my dreams into a reality. The lack of my parents' support and insults that art is not profitable and something along those lines really hit me hard, like a red crystal spear.

But after some time I did gain a sense of courage again, if you could call it that. Which is probably why it took me a while to change the composition a bit and give emphasis to the crystals and flowers around it, which I thought best explained my hope and healing. Despite being almost entirely delusional, my friends do support me and have their hopes as well that I may reach my dream of becoming a successful artist one day. And I guess for now, that's enough really. I'm still in engineering so nothing much has changed, but I'm still giving my 100% to this craft, hoping that I could prove everyone wrong and would get to live the job that i love.

Anyway sorry for the little drama I guess. Art has been mostly my medium for feelings and for showing all sorts of stories so shooting up a long line of text like this to go with it seems a bit out of character for sasplayer
Regardless if you read this story or not, I do hope you guys like this <3 since I put a long time and love in this nifty art

Also made prints of this available! I currently do not have my own website so I'm testing out the prints feature of deviantart in the meantime. Anyway I'm not sure entirely about the quality so do tell me about it if the prints are alright!
Every bit of money helps me financially and in making my dreams come true, so do check it out!

Commissions will be back in a week or so after I finish another personal work