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ServantofJesus — Memories of Lost Love
Published: 2005-11-12 11:25:21 +0000 UTC; Views: 346; Favourites: 7; Downloads: 6
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how I miss those happy times,when I felt I had a someone,
to come and laugh and play each day.
Those days of crazy fun and games,
that breached those spots of loneliness inside,
eagerly awaiting the next time we talked again.
Each time we talked got better and better,
always finding new things to Laugh Out Loud for.
always ready to pull a joke, or do something special
Those days are but a glimmer in the sands of time and life,
I cherished each chat we had from Day 1
but now Real Life has set in, and those days are lost.
but now it's mearly 'lost love'... unable to be found again.
Until another time perhaps; with someone closer to home
My lonely heart is still calling out, in need of companionship
Spiritual needs be met in Christ, but where am I without the physical ones?
I can try to hide my truth and my feelings,
quite easily, in this faceless world;
but as they say "truth hurts"
but so does loneliness.
I pray this to God our awesome Father: "help me.. to finally, let.. this... go......."
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really good poem. best poems, I think lately, are those that express a common feeling that many of us experiance, in a clear and straight forward way. I can easily relate to this. so it's a good poem.
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thanks so much for the :fav: there
I'm really glad you liked it
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Oh Gareth. . . . .
I have played the fool, my brother. I have played the fool.
Our times are not lost; I beg entirely to differ. If they were lost, there would be no friendship between us anymore and, at least from my side, that is entirely untrue.
I still consider you closer than a brother. You are such a wonderful man of God, Gareth; I yearn for the desire in my own life that you show for His word and for truth. During that time of my life when you and I dated, I was young and naive to love. Somehow, I knew that I wanted it, but I was naive to the force it has to seemingly bend hearts at will. I was a fool, Gareth, because I jumped in headlong without praying about my feelings first and about telling them to you. I was young and stupid, not for my feelings towards you, but for being so reckless about them. I adored you then, and I adore you now. Nothing about that will ever change. However, I think it needs to come to a point when both of us realize that though we are similar and though we are close in spirit, God has someone even closer in spirit planned for you in the future (isn't that awesome??? 
Gareth, from the bottom of my heart I apologize. I never meant to hurt you in any way...I pray that someday you will be able to forgive my shortcoming and for failing you in that area. I never meant to hurt you and I never meant to cause any pain that may have ensued. I love you dearly, and I always, always will. You are one man that I can say I've drawn very close to and can trust without reserve or hesitation. I know that one day you will make a woman so honored and proud to have a husband like you.
God has someone out there for both of us, ours is but to wait, even when it's difficult. It is not mine to say when you will court or when you won't or when God will bring someone into your life who will fulfill you more than I ever could have. I pray for that for you, Gareth. I want you to know that. And when it is time, He will send an answer to our prayers.
I'm going to send you a note later about some of this...
Just know that you're not alone and that I'm always there with you. 
"Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."
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"During that time of my life when you and I dated, I was young and naive to love. Somehow, I knew that I wanted it, but I was naive to the force it has to seemingly bend hearts at will"
I think I can see what you mean there, thinking back on the times we were together and everything, and I'm really beginning to see what you mean by your point of view there. By which decisions and choices have to be made for the good of the person, and not for trying to hold on to what God hadn't intended on.
So I'm sorry too Tina! Because of the way I acted [or reacted?], I think I'm still naive in myself because of my selfishness to want to have it my own way once the circumstances had been brought to light, and [for me] not being able to let it go [which is what the end bit of the poem was about].
I think it's also mostly to do with my own stubborness and wishful thinking which has made it harder for both of us to come to terms with reality in these changing times. Because Ive never had much luck with girls before [
I think what you have truly shown here, is that that you really DO put God first, and not try to hold on one man's wishes and dreams to carry on something that's not in God's will - and I truly commend you for that! It shows that you've finished God's test of [perhaps] your loyalty to Him; so something good DID come out of all this!
Me, on the other hand I think, have still yet to learn this lesson that God helped you with
sorry if I rambled on too much there; I kinda kept on adding bits and pieces together to form some sort of logical reply [and not just broken sentances that'd make you confused], heh
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Nah, don't apologize.
I think in a sense we were both new to the concept. Thinking back on it, I know that it wasn't God's will for us to be together in that sense. I know that He put us in each others' lives for a reason because we can both offer the other a shoulder to lean on and we can both lift the other up spiritually. I also believe that during a time in both our lives where we both thought perhaps that we were "alone in the world," God put us together. I don't believe that He intended for it to become a romantic entaglement, however. That, I believe, is my fault. I gave my heart away too quickly without realizing that it wasn't in God's will and from what God has been showing me with curent developments, I believe that may be happening now, too, which is why I've been in prayer about it as much as I have.
Gareth, I look foward to the day that God provides you with your ultimate soulmate. Someone who completes you (I know that God completes us, but you get the drift) and knows how to be a blessing to you in ways that I could never do. I know that He has molded someone out there for you and you for them.
Patience is a virtue.
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thanks so much for all of this Tina!
yeah, I really think God has brought us together in a special way too; not to date then it seems [which is still a bit of a shame tho - I miss the funny little 'lovey dovey' quirks that we did on MSN 
y'know, just about every time you talk like that, it's almost like you're talking like how my mum would talk to comfort me! It's as though... I don't know, it's like you're "talking my language" - like the way I would talk, sorta. You use such easy language to explain things, and as though you could read my thoughts or something, lol. That's what I've been noticing, anyway
there's just 1 last question I'd like to ask you over MSN [or Yahoo!] still - it's not urgent; it can wait, so don't worry about that
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'petulla' sounds an aweful lot like the name of a flower, lol
sure thing, no problem then
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