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Sometimes I stop and wonder how it would have been if I actually told you before.

Sometimes I wonder if I told you if thing would be different.

Sometimes I wonder if I would have told you would you love me?

I remember seeing your beautiful eyes from afar and gazing for endless time admiring you completely and how simple you were and how perfect it was.

I remember the endless nights I defended you without you knowing the times I dared to defend your name even if I wouldn't get anything in return or worse, you wouldn't even notice.

I remember when I would have dreams of us sitting together holding hand until the sun decided to rest.

Even when I woke up with tears and sorrow I would still build up the courage to say Hi to you and move on even when my soul was turning around and screaming that I love you.

I lied to myself many times, trying to find the same feelings I had for you in others I tried for years and months but alas no success whatsoever.

To this day I haven't build up all the courage to tell you directly that I love you.
That I see you as my muse, my devotion, my everything.
That I see you as the only reason to smile.
That I see you a the only reason to wake up in the morning and fall asleep in the night.
That I see you as the woman of my dreams.
That I see you as the one for me.

But truly none of that matters now.

All of the squad is dead.
-You and me are the only ones left.
I hold you, gazing into your beautiful blue eyes for one last time and as your body slowly turns cold, and your voice fades.
I hear a slow weak whisper from your beautiful mouth saying:

"I always wanted you to be mine."
And a faint smile.

When your body finally collapses and a tear falls from your face.
I only smile and say:

"I always have been."

And hold you tight until they can finally pull the trigger and I can finally join you in true peace.

"I love you."

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Sometimes I stop and wonder how it would have been if I actually told you before.

Sometimes I wonder if I told you if thing would be different.

Sometimes I wonder if I would have told you would you love me?

I remember seeing your beautiful eyes from afar and gazing for endless time admiring you completely and how simple you were and how perfect it was.

I remember the endless nights I defended you without you knowing the times I dared to defend your name even if I wouldn't get anything in return or worse, you wouldn't even notice.

I remember when I would have dreams of us sitting together holding hand until the sun decided to rest.

Even when I woke up with tears and sorrow I would still build up the courage to say Hi to you and move on even when my soul was turning around and screaming that I love you.

I lied to myself many times, trying to find the same feelings I had for you in others I tried for years and months but alas no success whatsoever.

To this day I haven't build up all the courage to tell you directly that I love you.
That I see you as my muse, my devotion, my everything.
That I see you as the only reason to smile.
That I see you a the only reason to wake up in the morning and fall asleep in the night.
That I see you as the woman of my dreams.
That I see you as the one for me.

But truly none of that matters now.

All of the squad is dead.
-You and me are the only ones left.
I hold you, gazing into your beautiful blue eyes for one last time and as your body slowly turns cold, and your voice fades.
I hear a slow weak whisper from your beautiful mouth saying:

"I always wanted you to be mine."
And a faint smile.

When your body finally collapses and a tear falls from your face.
I only smile and say:

"I always have been."

And hold you tight until they can finally pull the trigger and I can finally join you in true peace.

"I love you."