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First things first - no, I´m not back home, still on vacation. This is a scheduled submission, and I sincerely hope this stuff works!

My contribution to the Never Forget - Trinity Blood Theme Day 2016 , hosted by sisternightroad on tumblr.

Other contributions:

Trinity Blood and I have quite the history. I do love vampire stories and vampire lore in general, and I recall reading a review of Trinity Blood in a German manga magazine, tearing the story to pieces, calling it "unoriginal" and "boring". Still I was intrigued, though my attempts to hunt down the manga (the internet being a new and scary place for me at the time) were unsuccessful. I believe it was almost a year later that I stumbled upon the first volume in a comic shop in Zurich, Switzerland. I instantly fell in love with the story and was delighted to see that it turned out to be far more complex than it seemed (or, like my girlfriend eloquently likes to put it - "Man, that´s some deep shit.").

And I instanty fell in love with Abel Nightroad, because iI could see myself in him.

While we physically have nothing in common except for the glasses and the ponytail, I saw myself in his cheerfulness and clumsiness. I also saw myself reflected in some of his darker moments - I mean I can turn into some kind of a beast when I´m really angry, but you get what I mean.

What most astonished me though is what I learned from him. I don´t know where this is coming from, but I often find myself lamenting over mistakes I made in the past. Wondering how things would have turned out for me if I had made a different choice. And while a number of these things would have made life way easier for me had I done them differently - ultimately I think it would be a bad thing if I would try to forget my mistakes. I made them. I suffered; so did others, and I feel sorry and ashamed. But they also helped me shape the person I am today. I don´t think I would have matured the same way, or met the same people, and while there are still things in my life that could use a little fixing, I´m happy with how I turned out to be.

I am not sure if Abel sees it the same way; probably not. Looking at what he is, where he came from, and what his position was before he became a priest - it always seemed a little bit off to me that he would choose a religious profession. Now I do believe part of it is because of his (self-inflicted) role as a penitent. It just fits. (I also headcanon that the fact that he dislikes feeding the Crusnik so much is not only because he has to kill to do so, but that he deliberately does it sometimes as an act of self-flagellation, to emphasise his role as penitent even more. But that´s just me thinking things up.) Though I love Abel, and I don´t think he would be the same person if he had made different life choices. Even if his past deeds were horrible and still torment him, they shaped him into who he is today. Of course that does not excuse them, it´s never that easy.

But I think that´s something I learned from Abel while musing about him, and it did teach me a good lesson: No matter how horrible your past mistakes were - never forget them. They could perhaps have been prevented, but you learned from them, and they helped shaping you into who you are today.

Pose reference by SenshiStock

Abel Nightroad / Trinity Blood © Sunao Yoshida (Thores Shibamoto / Kiyo Kyujyō)

Description
On tumblr: sweetlittlevampire.tumblr.com/…

First things first - no, I´m not back home, still on vacation. This is a scheduled submission, and I sincerely hope this stuff works!

My contribution to the Never Forget - Trinity Blood Theme Day 2016 , hosted by sisternightroad on tumblr.

Other contributions:

Trinity Blood and I have quite the history. I do love vampire stories and vampire lore in general, and I recall reading a review of Trinity Blood in a German manga magazine, tearing the story to pieces, calling it "unoriginal" and "boring". Still I was intrigued, though my attempts to hunt down the manga (the internet being a new and scary place for me at the time) were unsuccessful. I believe it was almost a year later that I stumbled upon the first volume in a comic shop in Zurich, Switzerland. I instantly fell in love with the story and was delighted to see that it turned out to be far more complex than it seemed (or, like my girlfriend eloquently likes to put it - "Man, that´s some deep shit.").

And I instanty fell in love with Abel Nightroad, because iI could see myself in him.

While we physically have nothing in common except for the glasses and the ponytail, I saw myself in his cheerfulness and clumsiness. I also saw myself reflected in some of his darker moments - I mean I can turn into some kind of a beast when I´m really angry, but you get what I mean.

What most astonished me though is what I learned from him. I don´t know where this is coming from, but I often find myself lamenting over mistakes I made in the past. Wondering how things would have turned out for me if I had made a different choice. And while a number of these things would have made life way easier for me had I done them differently - ultimately I think it would be a bad thing if I would try to forget my mistakes. I made them. I suffered; so did others, and I feel sorry and ashamed. But they also helped me shape the person I am today. I don´t think I would have matured the same way, or met the same people, and while there are still things in my life that could use a little fixing, I´m happy with how I turned out to be.

I am not sure if Abel sees it the same way; probably not. Looking at what he is, where he came from, and what his position was before he became a priest - it always seemed a little bit off to me that he would choose a religious profession. Now I do believe part of it is because of his (self-inflicted) role as a penitent. It just fits. (I also headcanon that the fact that he dislikes feeding the Crusnik so much is not only because he has to kill to do so, but that he deliberately does it sometimes as an act of self-flagellation, to emphasise his role as penitent even more. But that´s just me thinking things up.) Though I love Abel, and I don´t think he would be the same person if he had made different life choices. Even if his past deeds were horrible and still torment him, they shaped him into who he is today. Of course that does not excuse them, it´s never that easy.

But I think that´s something I learned from Abel while musing about him, and it did teach me a good lesson: No matter how horrible your past mistakes were - never forget them. They could perhaps have been prevented, but you learned from them, and they helped shaping you into who you are today.

Pose reference by SenshiStock

Abel Nightroad / Trinity Blood © Sunao Yoshida (Thores Shibamoto / Kiyo Kyujyō)