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Published: 2012-11-21 00:34:05 +0000 UTC; Views: 549; Favourites: 15; Downloads: 0
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Description "What do you think of transgenders?"

I remember seeing a Gamespot forum thread titled this, and amongst all sorts of responses ranging from supportive, kind words to "they're disgusting, if one ever tries to hit on me i will beat it to death"
One in particular stood out to me:

"I can only imagine what a incredibly lonely journey it must be"

How true that is. When I came out, life became a lot more quiet, and a lot more scary. I realized I wasn't safe at events, camp-outs, work, restaurants, home, and especially not at church. Most of my friends hurt me, even when claiming to be supportive. I've had to distance myself from some of my favorite people I know because of how much they hurt me. I even lost family and loved ones.

I drew this a long time ago, in a cafe, listening to "Kiss me" by sixpence none the richer. At the time, it was due to the loneliness of a long distance relationship, and over the years, it's reminded me of more and more people who have betrayed my trust, moved away or passed on. Relationship breakups, once-close friends betraying my trust, = dear friends moving far away, and recently, moving far away from a dear freind of my own, my little sister.

Today being the Transgender Day Of remembrance I wanted to come up with something in honor of the lives lost or broken by a world that is still predominately hostile toward us. While the day is primarily in remembrance of those who were killed due to trans-phobic hatred, there are many things that attribute to the issue, social isolation and rejection being one of them.
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Comments: 22

Ravenheart1309 [2013-03-15 08:00:58 +0000 UTC]

*tight hugs*
I wanna sit with you on that swing... ;_;

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tails-sama In reply to Ravenheart1309 [2013-03-17 08:56:49 +0000 UTC]

*hugs gently* You're more than welcome to.

The other swing has a dual meaning to me, actually. First being of abandonment seeing as who it originally stood for was one of many who turned cold at my transitioning. And also for the loss of lives being remembered on that day.

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Ravenheart1309 In reply to tails-sama [2013-03-18 01:14:11 +0000 UTC]

I didn't know I was a girl till I was 15,
but I've had many "friends" walk out on me over time,
without any explanation. I know how you feel, hun... *more hugs*

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CorvusCaelum [2012-11-23 21:09:24 +0000 UTC]

The internet can be a harsh, cold, cruel place. They do it because there is no fear of consequence through anonymity, but it's not ok to do. Hate speech in any direction will never be ok. Keep that chin up.

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tails-sama In reply to CorvusCaelum [2012-12-29 06:00:04 +0000 UTC]

There is certainly plenty of abuse over the internet, and I agree fully with you. However,I'm more upset that transgenders get betrayed by their friends and even their family, and that there are so many laws and policies against them. Being transgendered is the same as being black in the early days of the USA, and in some ways worse, and most of society doesn't even notice or care enough to do anything about it...

the internet thing is very sad in general. I don't know how people get this way, I guess parents everywhere are letting the computers babysit their kids without teaching them right from wrong. Then they learn how to be vapid, obnoxious children from all the others.

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RedNightDragon40 [2012-11-22 19:28:45 +0000 UTC]

You couldn't have captured the emotion regarding the issue any better. Very poignant. Good work.

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LauraSeabrook [2012-11-22 04:43:24 +0000 UTC]

I'd like this for the TDOR Webcomic Project Archive, please! (see [link] )

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tails-sama In reply to LauraSeabrook [2012-11-22 20:28:19 +0000 UTC]

Feel free to hun, I'm always happy to help spread awareness and understanding, as best as a socially awkward mediocre writer can, at least. I don't know if you accept stories for the site but my sis wrote something for the day as well [link] The illustration I see on your page reminds me of it and it's very heartbreaking...

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LauraSeabrook In reply to tails-sama [2012-11-22 21:29:33 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

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gaypurpledinosaur [2012-11-21 23:31:00 +0000 UTC]

It's never easy to go on such a journey alone. I actually know someone else who's on that same path as well, but they appear to have a lot of support going for them. My sister and all of her friends are all there for them, so that makes me happy.

Just remember that even when it seems as though people are leaving you, there are still those who remain and wish you the best of luck and all the happiness the world has to offer.

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Shinxgod [2012-11-21 16:14:23 +0000 UTC]

god this reminds me of your old tree... actually, did we ever find out who greifed it?

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tails-sama In reply to Shinxgod [2012-12-28 22:00:44 +0000 UTC]

That's... not very relevant to something this serious hun. It's even sort of insulting.

But no, I never found out - but also there haven't been any more incidents since then, and hopefully there never will be. "griefing" is another accepted form of abominable behavior in our culture but that's another battle for another day.

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Shinxgod In reply to tails-sama [2012-12-28 22:03:35 +0000 UTC]

sorry :/

Well, if it doesnt happen again, thats all that matters, I kinda got bored going there, nothing really happened and i cant figure out why i wanted to try out small servers in the first place now :L

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tbolt [2012-11-21 11:46:15 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry to hear this. Thank you for opening my eyes to that perspective. I pray that you will find peace.

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Rennon-the-Shaved [2012-11-21 03:11:08 +0000 UTC]

I know there's no way for me to relate to what you've been through, and my own personal struggles are of an entirely different sort, but you have my empathy and a friendly ear.

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flippedoutkyrii [2012-11-21 01:17:17 +0000 UTC]

Excellent job, I didn't know you went through so much

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Giruveganus-aevis [2012-11-21 01:15:48 +0000 UTC]

It remembers*

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Giruveganus-aevis [2012-11-21 01:15:17 +0000 UTC]

Wow, so you're a transgender? It must be very difficult to be one, but hey, you just did what makes you happy, didn't you? I think you did the right choice.

And this pic is so sad... Remember me from the days I was a kid.

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tails-sama In reply to Giruveganus-aevis [2012-12-29 06:00:47 +0000 UTC]

Also you got me curious, how does it remind you of your childhood? Was it a very lonely one?

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Giruveganus-aevis In reply to tails-sama [2012-12-30 00:31:19 +0000 UTC]

yeah, the first friend I had was when i was 15 already... But I'm okay with that

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tails-sama In reply to Giruveganus-aevis [2012-12-28 21:57:27 +0000 UTC]

As far as being comfortable with my gender, yes. Granted, that happiness tends to be tampered with in almost any legal or social situation as long as the world remains hostile and ignorant toward my kind. Which is what I'd like to see change..thank you, hun.

I do remember some depression as a kid but this is more what it's been like for me as a young adult, with many friends suddenly becoming abusive toward me since I came out - and before I came out, too.

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Giruveganus-aevis In reply to tails-sama [2012-12-30 00:40:58 +0000 UTC]

I personally don't care if someone is straight, gay, lesbian or whatever... and the same applies to transgenders as well! I mean, you guys are people, just like the ones who are straight, why the hell society can't look to you as a part a member as well? That's so sad...

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