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Description “Is there something terribly wrong with me?”

I sigh and look up from my book. In the evening light my grandmother stares back at me, utterly unaware that it’s the third time she’s asked in as many minutes. Complex maps of wrinkles frame her wide eyes, each crease charting the grief, joy and laughter of a lifetime she is slowly forgetting. I look at her and I remember the wit and spark that used to punctuate her speech. I remember the way she used to strike up a conversation with anyone, anywhere; how she’d find wonder in the simplicity of everyday life. Her curiosity, her sense of adventure, her love of the world and of all the people in it have been replaced by a child-like fear of the unfamiliar.

I look at my grandmother and behind her old, tired eyes I see a young girl who has lost hold of her mother’s hand in a world full of strangers.

“No, Grandma. There’s nothing wrong with you at all.”


curtains shift –
the faint glow
of a waning moon
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Comments: 110

somnomollior [2015-11-12 13:57:24 +0000 UTC]

Very moving and beautifully expressed.  It doesn't seem cheesy to me at all.

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hazel-thorne [2014-07-04 22:57:17 +0000 UTC]

You've said so much, so beautifully in so few words. It made me sad, but the grandchild's care and sympathy was touching.

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the-beastie In reply to hazel-thorne [2014-08-12 17:40:40 +0000 UTC]

Thank you

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Shadow-Walker-22 [2014-06-10 06:08:55 +0000 UTC]

Nicely done and congratulations on DD

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the-beastie In reply to Shadow-Walker-22 [2014-08-12 17:40:33 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much

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Shadow-Walker-22 In reply to the-beastie [2014-08-12 18:43:25 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome!

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wei-en [2014-06-09 11:29:04 +0000 UTC]

This is really...I don't know. It fits together well.

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the-beastie In reply to wei-en [2014-08-12 17:40:24 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for reading

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rufus-kun [2014-06-09 07:04:33 +0000 UTC]

Reminds me of my grandmother, 93 and still going strong. Happy to see everyone but can't remember her family's names, as long as she is happy we don't mind

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the-beastie In reply to rufus-kun [2014-08-12 17:40:16 +0000 UTC]

That is the most important thing thank you for reading.

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Azuri-chann [2014-06-09 05:43:49 +0000 UTC]

It's really beautiful...and sad. Now I have this urge to go to my grandma and hug her. Really great work! Congrats on the DD!  ; A ;

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the-beastie In reply to Azuri-chann [2014-08-12 17:39:28 +0000 UTC]

Go give her loads of hugs! thanks for commenting.

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FractalEyes [2014-06-09 05:27:23 +0000 UTC]

I just lost my mother; she was 95.  She did not have any type of dementia (though she did get forgetful and would tell the same jokes and stories a lot) so I feel very fortunate that she was aware I was there with her the night before she died. 

I am sorry to hear your grandmother is not so lucky.

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the-beastie In reply to FractalEyes [2014-08-12 17:39:12 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for reading. It sounds like your mother was very loved best wishes

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FractalEyes In reply to the-beastie [2014-08-13 01:15:17 +0000 UTC]

She truly was and not just by my family.  I stayed with her for two years (she was 91-93 years old then) and everywhere I went with her, people would always tell me how much they loved her.

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bumpercarmcgee [2014-06-09 04:35:26 +0000 UTC]

My grandma died of alsheimers four years ago on Memorial day. I never got to see her much but I have these distinct memories of the old timey trailer she used to live in, her buying me watermelon and cheap model cars and yelling at my cousin, and that gravelly yet somehow comforting voice of hers. And her jowls. I didn't see her at the end and I'm glad for that because that's the way I like to think of her-- as someone very kind and mothering but still very human. You made me think of my Granny at a time where I've nearly forgotten her and at this juncture that's something I never hope to do. 

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the-beastie In reply to bumpercarmcgee [2014-08-12 17:38:45 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for your comment - I'm glad this resonated with you. I'm sorry for your loss

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shuryukan [2014-06-09 03:54:20 +0000 UTC]

I cried ;-;.

BEAUTIFUL!

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Arokag In reply to shuryukan [2014-06-09 05:19:05 +0000 UTC]

You didnt cry.
Iidot.

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GreenElephantGirl In reply to Arokag [2014-06-09 06:37:53 +0000 UTC]

Charming.

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Arokag In reply to GreenElephantGirl [2014-06-09 06:38:47 +0000 UTC]

Quite so.

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GreenElephantGirl In reply to Arokag [2014-06-09 06:41:11 +0000 UTC]

Are you OK? Is there something upsetting you? Like, a reason for snapping like you did up there?

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Arokag In reply to GreenElephantGirl [2014-06-09 19:56:54 +0000 UTC]

No.
I just hate.
Everyone.
<3

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GreenElephantGirl In reply to Arokag [2014-06-10 05:36:25 +0000 UTC]

Oh. Well, I'm really sorry to hear that.

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Arokag In reply to GreenElephantGirl [2014-06-10 05:48:37 +0000 UTC]

;v;

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RedDragonfly [2014-06-09 03:11:32 +0000 UTC]

Wonderful writing!

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the-beastie In reply to RedDragonfly [2014-08-12 17:38:18 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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neurotype-on-discord [2014-06-09 02:57:13 +0000 UTC]

The topic might be a little cheesy, but it's so plainly told it's appealing, and the imagery in the end haiku is both evocative and just enough unexpected (I would've thought a waning moon).

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the-beastie In reply to neurotype-on-discord [2014-08-12 17:46:53 +0000 UTC]

PS. you were absolutely right about the waning moon

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the-beastie In reply to neurotype-on-discord [2014-08-12 17:38:09 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry this has taken me so long to get to, but thank you so much for the DD

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Lucrexcia [2014-06-09 02:53:33 +0000 UTC]

Aww, so sweet, and yet sad.

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TheGalleryOfEve [2014-06-09 00:43:22 +0000 UTC]

Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!!
I’m very happy for you!!!

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cremep0ps [2014-06-09 00:15:51 +0000 UTC]

i've never really had anyone important to me die or have a disease or anything so i don't know what it's like. i still kinda enjoyed this though.

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the-beastie In reply to cremep0ps [2014-08-12 17:36:08 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for reading

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Relic-Angel [2014-06-08 23:34:20 +0000 UTC]

My pa had developed dementia before his health shut down and he died. This poem of your is a reminder that we should cherish the people in our lives, even when they aren't at their best.

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the-beastie In reply to Relic-Angel [2014-08-12 17:35:55 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for your kind comment, and I'm so sorry for your loss. Best wishes

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Relic-Angel In reply to the-beastie [2014-08-13 06:23:12 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much.

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segura2112 [2014-06-08 22:01:25 +0000 UTC]

Beautiful and heart breaking, I lost my mother 4 years to this. Thank You and congrats on the DD,

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the-beastie In reply to segura2112 [2014-08-12 17:35:34 +0000 UTC]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for your kind comment

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Shawn-McClurg [2014-06-08 18:27:38 +0000 UTC]

This is completely true.

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the-beastie In reply to Shawn-McClurg [2014-08-12 17:35:19 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for reading

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XxPolkadotxX [2014-06-08 18:27:06 +0000 UTC]

Very beautifully written...really hit home for me. Reminds me of my grandparents, my grandpa had Alzheimer's and my grandma had dementia.

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the-beastie In reply to XxPolkadotxX [2014-08-12 17:35:10 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for reading and I'm glad this resonated with you

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EpicLPSWolf [2014-06-08 17:59:36 +0000 UTC]

Reminds me of my oma. <3 I love her.
She can't remember anything for more than 4 minutes. But it's so sweet because the only thing she remembers is her husband. Who's... dead. And she forgot that he died, so every day when my aunt comes to visit her, she asks when he will be home from work. It breaks our hearts to tell her that he's passed...

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the-beastie In reply to EpicLPSWolf [2014-08-12 17:34:51 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry you are having to deal with that - but it sounds like she has the perfect, loving family to surround her

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EpicLPSWolf In reply to the-beastie [2014-08-13 01:02:15 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

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KairaNakune In reply to EpicLPSWolf [2014-06-09 00:45:10 +0000 UTC]

same thing just that my aunt is completely alone. She is 94 years old. No childeren, friends, husband, cousins, sisters or brothers but she knows she alone. She isnt really related to me but I call her that. She can't remember anything for 4 or 3 minutes either. :/

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EpicLPSWolf In reply to KairaNakune [2014-06-09 00:50:28 +0000 UTC]

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KairaNakune In reply to EpicLPSWolf [2014-06-09 01:01:42 +0000 UTC]

yeah...

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Itsmellsofdoughnuts [2014-06-08 17:26:03 +0000 UTC]

What a beautiful-- wait, what's a haibun?

Uh, anyway... This is really, really lovely. I try not to dwell on things that get me super emotional.... I'm I might start crying later. But in a good-way-bad-way, good way being first.
....
...
(This is me when I can't find words.)

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