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I can't go back to sleep

Return to those demons and nightmares

They grab me and haul me under, making it hard to ever resurface

Talons grip my limbs, restraining me

My necklace becomes a chain, choking me as I struggle for breath

Stuck in between deep sleep and waking, I cannot breathe

Not one molecule of air fills my deflated lungs and my body is frozen

Accidentally suffocating myself by sleeping face down on a pillow, my brain fights to give me the will to move

It is granted for the evil beings don't want to lose their plaything just yet

But as soon as I can take a breath, I am pulled into their clutches once more

Fear like I've never experienced

Or

It has been such a long reprieve that I forgot what could happen

I can't wake up and I am trapped

Minutes feel like an eternity, ticking by slowly

I am abused for their entertainment but no longer are the dreams pure imagination

They are memories, twisted and real

Reminding me of what I lack and what I seek, but fail to obtain

Of how I'm too smart

Too boyish

Too ugly

Not black enough

Not white enough

Always either too much or never enough

As I stare into the darkness night brings, I wish

I wish I could sleep without fearing my dreams

I could wake without hating the mirror

I could pray without feeling guilty

I could love without regret or shyness

But life wears on me and none of these wishes will come true

And in the end, it all boils down to one thing

I can't rely on much

But as the sun sets, the dark ones will whisper their greetings

And I will slumber

Never sure if I am to awake again

Description
I can't go back to sleep

Return to those demons and nightmares

They grab me and haul me under, making it hard to ever resurface

Talons grip my limbs, restraining me

My necklace becomes a chain, choking me as I struggle for breath

Stuck in between deep sleep and waking, I cannot breathe

Not one molecule of air fills my deflated lungs and my body is frozen

Accidentally suffocating myself by sleeping face down on a pillow, my brain fights to give me the will to move

It is granted for the evil beings don't want to lose their plaything just yet

But as soon as I can take a breath, I am pulled into their clutches once more

Fear like I've never experienced

Or

It has been such a long reprieve that I forgot what could happen

I can't wake up and I am trapped

Minutes feel like an eternity, ticking by slowly

I am abused for their entertainment but no longer are the dreams pure imagination

They are memories, twisted and real

Reminding me of what I lack and what I seek, but fail to obtain

Of how I'm too smart

Too boyish

Too ugly

Not black enough

Not white enough

Always either too much or never enough

As I stare into the darkness night brings, I wish

I wish I could sleep without fearing my dreams

I could wake without hating the mirror

I could pray without feeling guilty

I could love without regret or shyness

But life wears on me and none of these wishes will come true

And in the end, it all boils down to one thing

I can't rely on much

But as the sun sets, the dark ones will whisper their greetings

And I will slumber

Never sure if I am to awake again