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   she stands on the stage-
      her face a collage of all
         the worst moments of your life.

     the saddest most pitiful thing you will ever see

       all that heartbreak written in her face
       you almost want to scream out
       'no, stop;' because once is enough
       you don't want to read it again.

                because a knife hurts worse
                        when you pull it out,
                          not when you are stabbed.

...................................................

    she's in the spotlights-

and the way her eyes sparkle,
  it's as if they were choreographed

  to the overture of love.
    and the way her lips curve of to smile
    is the very same as Emily's back in seventh grade:
    your first kiss under that elm tree.

      your initials are carved not only there,
          but maybe always in your heart too.

.....................................................

    you go to her next play, sit front row center,
        waiting for what she will bring to you tonight.

she is hideous.
    she is grotesque.

   and you laugh,
       how you laugh.

   because laughter is the only way
     you can describe
        how horrible this world can be.

     and in one moment of terrifying ecstasy
     you realize that the whole world is nothing
     but the largest practical joke ever made.

  you laugh until tears run down your face.
      and you begin to sob,
      her misshapen form twisting in the light.

          no matter how hard you try
           you can never see yourself the same ever again.

........................................................

you sneak into her dressing room-
   you don't know why,
       maybe you want to kill her.
maybe you just want to touch her
         know she even exists.
       maybe you don't believe she ever did.

         she enters.
    you hide in the shadows

        waiting
        waiting

         now! and you pull off her mask.
       you just needed to see,
                needed to.

  but there is no face.

          only a mirror.