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peterpeckerhead [2017-10-21 11:41:47 +0000 UTC]
You're not a moron.
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Yami-Yoru In reply to peterpeckerhead [2017-10-21 12:19:14 +0000 UTC]
Thanks, that's kind. I'm sorry I shouldn't post this kind of things, I'll delete it soon.
Or at least the description
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peterpeckerhead In reply to Yami-Yoru [2017-10-23 09:26:50 +0000 UTC]
It's better you post these kinds of things and let other people know there's something wrong than to keep it to yourself. Trust me, when I was nineteen (I'm gonna trigger warn right from this point) I attempted to take my own life, and I told no one. Probably the only reason I'm here today is a woman caught me on the street as I was on my way to do so and she took me by the wrist and refused to let me go because I was sobbing my eyes out and clearly shaken. I had no one in this period of my life besides some online friends, but.. I didn't want them to know or stop me.
It takes one person caring to save another person's life, sometimes. I'm twenty-five now and I still struggle with my mental health, but I'm thankful I'm still here and have people who love me (as well as am learning to love myself one day at a time.) I hope you'll keep trying, too.
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Yami-Yoru In reply to peterpeckerhead [2017-10-23 13:13:16 +0000 UTC]
Thank you a lot.
Don't worry, I don't want to hurt myself or anything. I'm just in a really dark period.
I've been "betrayed" by the most important person I had, and it just hurt so deeply.
It physically hurt like I had a hole in my chest...
But I know it's because he's not alright at the moment, and that he needs help, and I can't do much to help because I'm too broken for the moment...
And it all happened just before my friends left for 6 month all around the world for their studies...
They really try their best from afar but it don't really works.
I had the chance to be happy these past years, so I know brighter days will come.
It's just an hard period to go through.
Thank you for all, if you ever need to talk I'll be there. Brighter days will come, I'm sure of that
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peterpeckerhead In reply to Yami-Yoru [2017-11-04 04:07:02 +0000 UTC]
Gosh I'm sorry for not replying for so long I've been kind of stressed and busy at work (I work in a deli and Thanksgiving is coming up OTL)
I understand that feeling, I felt very similarly when I lost one of my friends of 10 years who also betrayed me very badly by posting very personal stuff about me publicly on Tumblr and telling me I was better off dead. It was an incredibly dark and difficult time in my life and a lot of what they said clung to me for years; it took a lot of time to heal and forge new relationships where people didn't see me as the person they painted me to be. Even my friend of 14 years (so I knew before that other person) didn't reflect that same opinion they did, but it was hard to wash the labels off myself.
Just know that there are people who for sure care and love you without a doubt, and you will find the people who treat you right and build you up instead of knocking you down. <3 That's what you deserve! Also you can't be fixing people all the time, there is support groups and therapists that are out there to help your friend. If someone is hurting you and pushing you for help that's not really fair to you. Yeah friends lean on each other, but like.. You also have to respect and not treat your friend like a mental health specialist, yknow?
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Yami-Yoru In reply to peterpeckerhead [2017-11-05 13:23:22 +0000 UTC]
no problem don't worry
I hope things go well for you now!
I've a least the chance that the one who hurt me didn't did it on purpose, He just have done a succession of awful choice that led me to my actual state...
And as he wasn't well, he didn't realise the concequences, and didn't though I would be that hurt (He even though that it was better for me)
thank you a lot. I'll do my best to be better.
I've only got 1 month left before my friends come back, it will help me a lot to see them, go out and stop thinking about all of that.
I hope things will turn up okay, as much for me as for him
thank you again a lot
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