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"PROUD Yaoi lover and writer!"
(United States)
# Statistics
Favourites: 1870; Deviations: 135; Watchers: 60
Watching: 159; Pageviews: 16828; Comments Made: 1373; Friends: 159
# Interests
Favorite TV shows: Supernatural, Doctor Who, and any animeFavorite bands / musical artists: All kinds except country
Favorite games: Anything good (i.e. AC, Saints Row, GTA...the works)
Favorite gaming platform: XBox360 BBY!!!!
Tools of the Trade: Paper and pencil, a little liquor doesn't hurt either
Other Interests: drawing,singing and playing the piano
# About me
Where other men blindly follow the truth, remember...Nothing is true.
Where other men are limited by morality or law, remember...
Everything is permitted.
We work in the dark, to serve the light. We are Assassins.
Current Residence: Alabama
# Comments
Comments: 368
what happened to your Bleach fanfictions? did you give up on them? cuz I was planning on drawing a doujinshi about 'My All' but if it's dis-continued. then there's no point to 
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no i'm working on it I'm sorry I had somethings going on I'll get right back to it
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omg yay
can I make a doujinshi out of it?
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it's up to you if you want you can go ahead
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I'll start on the doujinshi... I'll credit you for the story of course
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Crimes of passion chapter 11,12,13
The weeks that had gone by after Lavi’s break down, he and Allen had become increasingly close. Each relying on the other for support, Lavi’s didn’t mind being open about his childhood abuse but he soon found their little hearts to hearts a little one sided. When he would ask Allen about how he came to the order or what happened to him; he would give the same worn out answer: That he was kidnapped and held prisoner for a number of years along with other people. When he would ask about the whereabouts of the other people Allen would quickly change the subject, as much as Lavi wanted to push and figure this man out he decided that it was best not to and would drop the subject.
As the weeks turned into months, Allen’s enraged outbursts became few and in between, partly due to Lavi’s constant presence and reassurance every now and then and a small fraction to his therapy sessions with Lenalee, who had prescribed him medication to keep him calm. Though his sessions were about as eventful as a plastic bag floating in the wind, he continued to go to them and each day he would talk a little more, though they never brought up the subject of Cross.
One day, near the end of a session Lenalee, who had gotten up and fixed both of them tea, handed Allen his cup and sat down in the chair in front of him.
“Allen,” She began, “It’s been a while since I’ve asked you about your decision to stay with Kanda, so I know you’ve had and ample amount of time to think about it. So what do you say?” She smiled hope his slow, but steady change in mood would get her a definite yes.
Allen sipped at the tea and frowned at its bitter taste, after setting it on the table, he answered, “No, I can’t go and live with him, Lavi needs me…” he paused and then added, “ we help each other.”
Lenalee let out a small sigh then set her tea cup down as well, “I know you feel you have a connection to Lavi, but I know for a fact that you’re not telling him the whole truth. Now how much help can you be if you’re lying to him? How do you think he’ll feel when he finds out about that Allen?”
“If,” Allen corrected, “If he finds out.”
“So you have no intentions of telling at all?” Lenalee asked.
“No, because he doesn’t need to know.” Allen said and began to get up from the chair.
Lenalee looked up at the clock above the door, “That’s not fair to him Allen, but I guess this session’s over with for today. Until next time.”
“Bye.” Allen said and left to go home,leaving the mischievous psychiatrist to her thoughts.
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The following day kanda invited Allen to lunch seeing that his session was cancelled at the last minute. It had become sort of routine for the two talk. Amongst themselves before and after the sessions, each day they got to know a little more about one another, but Allen made sure never to say to much and kanda made sure never to go to far. Yet the day before it was brought to Kandas attention that he had yet to get a statement from Allen.
So as they say across from one another in the booth' kanda cleared his throat and began questioning the now now smiling boy,
"Allen I know we've never discussed how you came to meet cross and yesterday I was told that we hadn't received your statement yet and without it we cannot prosecute that man we found in your room that day nor can we find the other perps." He paused and watched the going an as he toyed with the ice in his cup and shifted uncomfortably in his seat.
"I didn't know if you would want to give your statement down at the precinct or would u like to give it in a more relaxed setting." Lands finished and waited as Allen sat himself upright and sighed' " I don't want to do this, in fact I don't even wanna think about him or the things that happened between us, but I starting figure out its just one of those things that can't be helped." Allen got up from his chair and preceded to leave out of the building, kanda followed behind him throwing a twenty on the table in haste and met him beside his truck.
Allen stood with his back against the passenger window, biting his lip.
"Look I know it isn't easy for you but I wouldn't ask you if---"
"I met cross at one of the shelters I'd been staying at one night and while we were eating supper we talked and got through the basics of friendly chitchat then we went our separate ways and that was the first of many times we would actually "run" into one another. Later on though I found out that he was stalking me I was just too stupid to realize it."
"Don't say that." Kanda interrupted.
"Allen rolled his eyes at the comment and opened the door to the truck and got in, kanda followed suit on the other side, " where to?" He said.
"Just drive." Allen replied and then continued with his recant.
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Continued from chapter 9…
"No, I want him to stay with you." Lenalee told him as they came to a stop near the pond's edge and closer to Allen…
“You want him to what?” Kanda asked in total shock.
“Stay with you.” Lenalee put simply as she started back walking towards Allen.
“Why? What the hell can I do that The Order can’t?” Kanda exclaimed, “Explain that to me, this isn’t making any sense to me.”
Lenalee sighed and stopped yet again, “If he stays with you then he’ll be less of a danger to others and probably feel more secure around instead of being overwhelmed with more than a dozen or so men roaming freely around him.” She paused and looked at Kanda, “Is that a good enough explanation for you?”
“No.” Kanda spit at her, “If that’s the case then why then he doesn’t just stay with you? Taking him out of a house full of men is good, but to isolate him and stick him with one singular man…where’s the sense in that?”
“I get your point, but Kanda you know how small my apartment is. Where would he sleep?” She said challenging him to find a better idea.
“What’s wrong with the couch?” Kanda said unashamed.
Lenalee reached out and smacked Kanda on his chest, “Idiot, the couch is fine for a few weeks yes, but who knows how long it will take him to get back on his feet.”
“Exactly! So once again why stick him with me?” Kanda pointed out yet again. “What makes you think I want him as a permanent house guest?”
“Tell me Kanda, what the hell are you doing in the enormous house all alone? Besides moping around and feeling sorry for yourself? Being depressed isn’t going to bring Alma back and clinging to all his old things isn’t really helping you move on either.” Lenalee said smartly, mentally smiling as she watched the fight leave Kanda.
“Let’s just stop talking about this and let him decide.” Kanda said voice returning to its usual monotone and his face returning to a solemn expression.
“He was always going to decide, I just needed your consent so he could stay at your place.” She said and the two continued the rest of the way towards Allen in silence. As they came upon the man throwing rocks into the pond, Lenalee cleared her throat.
Allen narrowed his gaze but pretended not to pay her any mind, “Allen I want to ask you something?”
Allen paused in mid throw and waited for her to continue, “Kanda and I were talking and we want to know how would you feel about leaving The Order?”
“And go where?” Allen said showing some curiosity to where this where this was headed.
“I was thinking that maybe you could stay with Kanda and that maybe—“
“No.” Allen said and continued throwing rocks into the pond.
“You didn’t even let me finish.” Lenalee said.
“And I don’t have to because I’m not leaving The Order.”
“Why don’t you think over it for a week or two?” Lenalee said determined not to take ‘no’ for an answer.
“I don’t need to think about it I’ve given you my answer and it will remain the same this week or two weeks from now, no.” Allen said once again.
“You say that now Allen, but who knows you could change your mind.” With that said, Lenalee left the two, bidding them both a good day.
Kanda cleared his throat, “Ready to leave?”
Without a word said Allen got up from the ground, brushed off his pants and began walking ahead of Kanda, and Kanda practically jogged behind him to make sure he didn’t run off. As they two got back to the truck and Kanda drove off Kanda spoke, “You don’t have to if you don’t want to. Really it’s no big deal.”
“I know and I won’t, I refuse to move in with you. I don’t know you from a hole in the wall and I’m not going to be taken advantage of again.” Allen said angrily as he stared out of the window.
“Who said anything about taking advantage of you? I just want to help you.”
Allen scoffed, “Funny, Cross said the same thing and look where I ended up. You sound just like him.”
“What?” Kanda shot back.
“You’re no different from him, you just want to use me. You don’t care about me, only what I can do for you. You-“
“Wait a damn minute, just where the hell do you get off comparing me to him? Yes, what he did to you was wrong, but don’t go blaming his actions and ill intentions on those who want to help and care for you.” Kanda retorted.
“If you really cared for me, you would put me out of my misery and be done with it.” Allen told him.
Kanda opened his mouth to object, but couldn’t find the words to say without becoming angry and with no other words said to one another, they drove back towards The Order.
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After Allen had left Lavi found himself bored with nothing to do but sit back down on the couch, nurse his broken arm and watch T.V. So stretched out as he was for an hour so eventually Lavi dozed off…
A young Lavi, no more than six or seven, sat in the middle of the floor of his home pushing around his toy trucks as his parents readied themselves for work. As they got ready to go out the door, Lavi’s mother came up to him and kissed him and told him his uncle was going to keep an eye on him today while she and his father at work. Lavi smiled eagerly at this because he knew his uncle always had something planned and somewhere for them to go. So when he arrived moments later and goodbyes and hugs were given to his parents, Lavi turned his attention to his uncle.
“What are we going to do today Unc?” Lavi said climbing atop of the man’s lap and smiling with excited eyes.
His uncle pushed him off of his lap, “Not today Lavi, Unc can’t deal with you right now. I’ve got problems of my own.” Just as he said that his phone began to ring.
“…YES, I know I have till three to come up with payment….I’m well aware of what fucking time it is!” his uncle shouted at the phone, then instantly calmed and his eyes became wide. “…um, yes sir I do fully intend to pay for it, but I have no money at the moment and I’m currently watching my nephew at the moment.”
As he said that his eyes rested upon Lavi’s pouting face and seemed to have an idea. “…sir will you accept collateral as I collect on the money?” There was another long pause before his uncle spoke again.
“…well I know how your sexual tastes are different from most and I am willing to make you an offer, if you’ll accept…” Another pause, then “We’ll be there soon sir, thank you sir.”
Lavi’s uncle hung up the phone and went up to angry young boy still sitting on the floor.
“I’m sorry Lavi, do you forgive me?”
“No.” he pouted.
“Well what if I took you somewhere special, somewhere that only you and I can go and only you and I can know about.”
Lavi’s face brightened at this, “Where is it?”
“I can’t tell you, I’ll have to show you. Is that alright?” his uncle said smiling wide at the boy.
Lavi pouted again, “I guess.”
“Alright then, let go.” His uncle said and they left. About an hour later they arrived in front an enormous house and Lavi’s uncle exclaimed, “Here we are.”
“Who lives here uncle?” Lavi asked as he stared in awe at the mansion before him.
“A few good friends of mine.” He replied as they walked up to the door.
“Are we going to play with all of them today?” he asked.
“No, it’s just gonna be you.”
“Why?” Lavi asked, but didn’t receive an answer due to the fact that the door flung open and a man casually dressed stood in the door staring down at him. Lavi felt uncomfortable under the man’s gaze and move behind his uncle.
“Don’t be shy Lavi, say hello.” His uncle told him and pushed him inside.
“Hey.” Lavi said keeping his head down unable to look up at the man.
“Well what do you think?” His uncle said to the man who continued to roll his eyes across Lavi.
“It will have to do. This will extend your deadline for a couple of days.” The man said coolly.
“Thank you sir.” Lavi’s uncle smiled.
“Leave and come back within 2 hours.” The man said and Lavi’s uncle turned to leave and Lavi tried to follow behind him.
“No, you stay here. I’ll be back ok? I ‘ll be right back.” His uncle promised and then turned and left Lavi with the man.
As the man took Lavi throughout the house and asking him numerous questions, he took Lavi into the kitchen,
“You hungry?” he asked, a hesitant Lavi nodded and the man open his cabinets and brought down an enormous jar chocolate that immediately enticed the boy.
He set the jar on the counter and then picked up Lavi and set him on the counter, “Dig in.” He smiled at the boy as he nervously dug his hand into the jar and popped a few in his mouth.
“Your momma lets you have all this?” Lavi asked putting more and more into his mouth.
The man chuckled at his innocence, “My mama didn’t buy all this, I did.”
“You’re lucky, my momma doesn’t allow me to eat a lot of candy, she says it’ll rot my teeth.” Lavi said taking another handful of the candy.
The man laughed again, “Is that right? Are you thirsty?” Lavi nodded and the man fixed him a glass of water and took it to the boy who grabbed for the cup, “I’ll hold it for you your hands are all covered in chocolate.”
“Okay.” Lavi said as the man put the glass to his lips as Lavi drank his fill, “I think that’s enough candy for now.” The man said as he wipe away some of the chocolate away from Lavi’s mouth and got Lavi down from the counter.
“How about we go watch some T.V.?” he asked guiding Lavi into the living room.
“Okay.”
As they got in the living room the T.V. was already turned on cartoons and the man went and ushered Lavi to the couch where he sat down and motioned Lavi to sit on his lap. Lavi went and sat on the man’s lap, “Relax.” The man told him as he rubbed his up and down on Lavi’s back, “I would like to sit on the couch.” Lavi turned around and told the man.
“Do I make you uncomfortable?” He asked Lavi.
Lavi unsure of what to say, remained silent and stared ahead at the T.V., “Okay,” the man said as he took Lavi off his lap and placed close beside him, “Do you feel better now?” he asked and Lavi didn’t respond, he felt scared and asked, “When is my uncle coming back?”
“Soon, are you ready to go?” He asked placing a hand on Lavi’s thigh and massaging his way inwards.
“Yes.” Lavi began to fidget. “Can you move your hand?”
“Is this hurting you?” the man said moving his hand closer to Lavi’s privates.
Lavi pushed his hand back, “Please move your hands, I want my uncle!”
The man put his hand around Lavi’s throat and forced him to look at him, “You’re so beautiful.” He shoved his face closer to Lavi’s and kissed him, forcing his tongue down the young man’s mouth.
Lavi kicked at the man clamoring atop of him and screamed, “Get off me! Get off me please!”…
Lavi shot up on the couch, chest heaving and sweating as he looked around him. To the left of him, sitting in the chair beside him, sat Komui reading the newspaper. The two looked at one another, and before Komui could even open his mouth to speak,
“Don’t.” Lavi said and got up from the couch, stretching from the stiffness of sleeping in one position.
“Lavi…” Komui started.
“I said don’t. Don’t say a word about it. I’m good Komui it was just a dream.” Lavi said forcing a smile towards the man as he folded the newspaper.
“You can’t keep pushing it away.” Komui said, “Eventually you’re going--”
“I’m going out. I should be back later on.” Lavi said and headed to the door.
“Where are you going?” Komui said his face growing stern as he got up and followed him to the door.
“Does it matter? I’m just going for a quick walk around the block.” Lavi said and opened the door and left.
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Kanda and Allen had finally arrived back at The Order, “Just think about it Allen. If not about moving in with me, then how about getting out on your own?” Kanda suggested as he stopped the truck.
In annoyance Allen rolled his eyes and mumbled lowly, “Whatever.” Then Allen got out of the car and walked inside without another word to Kanda.
“Don’t forget you’ve got another session next week.” Kanda shouted after the man who clearly was not interested in a word he had said, so with a shrug of his shoulders Kanda drove home.
Inside the house, Allen went straight to his room and threw himself on the bed.
‘Move in with him!’ He thought, ‘They must take me for some kind of fool. It’s bad enough I’m staying here, the sooner I can get out of here the better.’
Allen got back up off the bed and decided to take a shower afterwards he went into the living room and watched some T.V. Around three a.m. Allen began to get drowsy and curled up on the couch, no sooner had he yanked down the thick blanket hanging on the back of the sofa and warmed himself beneath it, a slow pounding on the door started.
Determined to ignore it, Allen put a pillow over his head in hopes that whoever it was would either go away or had a key and was just being too lazy to get it out. Even after 3 minutes of stop and go knocking at the door, they had not entered nor did anyone else come to the door, leaving Allen to the be the one to open the door.
As he did a clearly wasted and red eyed Lavi barely stood up in front of him. “What took you so long?” He slurred and shuffled inside.
“I thought you had a key.” Allen said now following the drunken man to the room.
“Nope, lost it.” Lavi said fumbling with the door knob to the room, Allen brushed by him, “Here let me get that for you.” He reached for the door but Lavi roughly slapped his hand away, “I don’t need your fucking help!” He growled and rammed himself against the door, pushing it forcefully open.
“Are you gonna be alright Lavi? Maybe you had too much to drink? Do you want me to get you some coffee or something?” Allen said now hesitantly following the man inside the room, as he went to his bed and struggled with his shoes.
“Lavi…” Allen said and quietly walked up and knelt beside the man, helping him to unlace and take off his shoes.
“Allen stop it.” Lavi said half jerking away from Allen, “I can do it myself, I’m not a child.” Pushing Allen away from him, Lavi snatched off his boots and threw them into a corner.
Allen got up and took a quick glance at Lavi’s puffy eyes, “Have you been crying?”
“Just leave me the fuck alone Allen.” Lavi said standing up to try and brush past the man, only to find himself wobbling and falling forward onto Allen.
“Lavi what’s wrong with you?” Allen said trying to get him to stand up right.
“Nothing damn! Just get off my back.” Lavi said and pushed Allen out of the way as he drunkenly made his way into the hall way, and began to bang on the walls as he walked towards the backdoor and into the backyard. Along the way the other sleeping tenants of The Order began to stir and grumble, poking their tired eyes out of their doors to see what cause the ruckus. Allen apologized to all as he tried to quiet and shush Lavi on his way outside.
“Lavi you damn near woke up the whole house; I think you need to go to sleep.” Allen said to Lavi who now stood staring up at the sky,
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Thank you so much for the favorite on "Wow, Fantastic Baby"
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