ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-08 07:03:05 +0000 UTC]

I think I have a problem similar to Anakin Skywalker. A fear of loss. I've become just fully aware of this character flaw this year. Its something thats been with me for many years, but I haven't been so painfully aware of it to change it as I am right now. You see, I have no problem forming bonds, but my problem lies in keeping them, because I have an insecurity and it undermines me. Fortunately I've had good friends over the years that are gracious with me. But right now I seriously need to work on this so no more relationships of mine get undermined.

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-10 15:17:27 +0000 UTC]

I have the same problem too, and it's a bitch to break, let me tell you. I've been working on it for so long. But its good that you're working on it! Stay in there

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-11 03:05:28 +0000 UTC]

I'm going to be staying in there, don't worry hehe. Hey, enough about me, what's going on over in your neck of the woods? How you doing?

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-11 16:53:45 +0000 UTC]

I'm fine. Just busy and all the usual. Haha. So is life!

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-12 01:32:56 +0000 UTC]

Well staying busy is a good thing! Is this your senior year of school?

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-16 02:23:49 +0000 UTC]

No, first year of college. But I have a lot of credits already from high school, so I am technically taking sophomore level classes. Haha

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-16 03:03:53 +0000 UTC]

Oh that's wonderful news. How long have we been going back and forth on here now? lol I think since January last year? haha. That's a long time. I feel the need to apologize for being nothing but drama lol.

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-16 23:09:00 +0000 UTC]

It has been a while, but don't worry about it. I'm not the best with advice, so it does make me a bit awkward often times, but I know it's nice just to vent it out.

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-18 20:27:51 +0000 UTC]

Actually, I think you give good advice. My neighbor gave me some good advice today. He said if he ever hears I had a nervous breakdown over a girl again he'll personally kick my ass lol. But he said something that made a lot of sense to me also, he said "God doesn't put you with people that aren't going to be good for you. He'll always tear you away from those sort of people in the end." And knowing how badly I was heartbroken over this, I can just imagine how much more hurt and badly I would have dealt with the ordeal if I spent a much longer time with her.

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-18 22:54:24 +0000 UTC]

That's a good way of looking at it. Your neighbor sounds like a smart guy XD I'm just of the belief that what should happen, will. I'm a horrible believer of fate. Haha.

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-19 02:07:41 +0000 UTC]

Well my neighbor is not a religious man at all, but there was plenty of wisdom to what he told me. He's been through quite a lot in his life, and he'll tell it to you as it is. He's a wise man and you name it, he's probably been through it. I certainly don't want him to open a can of wup ass on me, lol. The good news is I'm doing much better now. I've been focusing a lot on myself recently, which is what I should be doing. I'll never be able to rebuild if all I think about is her, it will just pull me down you know?

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-19 19:42:21 +0000 UTC]

Yes, and good for you! Keep it up

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-19 20:58:05 +0000 UTC]

All one can do is keep their chin up right? Oh, what are you studying in college?

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spotteh In reply to ImpassionedJedi [2012-02-20 14:54:34 +0000 UTC]

True that! It's the only way to survive.
Forensic Biology with a minor in general biology, Forensic chemistry and psychology. Haha. Busy stuff.

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ImpassionedJedi In reply to spotteh [2012-02-20 19:19:07 +0000 UTC]

Oh wow, I'm very impressed! Are you wanting to be maybe a medical examiner?

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