RunningForMyLife In reply to Aicent [2012-03-11 21:49:46 +0000 UTC]

Good, this is my new account. c:

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 02:46:24 +0000 UTC]

sorry, was reading

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 02:48:08 +0000 UTC]

its fine. i get lost in a book, but not as easily as i do in your sexy eyes...

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 02:49:20 +0000 UTC]

Which reminds me...
I wear glasses now. Well, I started having to wear them... thursday.
Although I rarely do unless I ahve to look extremely far. xD

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 02:50:29 +0000 UTC]

i dont care. it doesnt change anything... i love you no matter what.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 02:55:20 +0000 UTC]

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 02:57:00 +0000 UTC]

thinkin bout u, again... i wanna kiss you sooooo badly.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 03:05:12 +0000 UTC]

blah

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 03:06:29 +0000 UTC]

i picked up a couple seductive tricks... wanna try em out, but, ur so far away...

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 03:15:53 +0000 UTC]

sorry, I keep nodding off

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 03:18:35 +0000 UTC]

its okay, i dont mind.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 03:25:17 +0000 UTC]

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 03:26:45 +0000 UTC]

ha. ever heard of a tiger kiss? it sounds fun doesnt it

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 03:41:07 +0000 UTC]

dont know what tha tis.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 03:44:53 +0000 UTC]

its when you sneak up like a ninja and gently nibble your lovers neck,
slowly upwards into a kiss.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 03:54:09 +0000 UTC]

:33

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 03:56:10 +0000 UTC]

^-^" when i see u... im gonna eatchu up! like and ice cream cone, or an egg... idk

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 03:58:30 +0000 UTC]

baha

... I just wish I'd stop crying. :l

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 03:59:06 +0000 UTC]

ur- ur crying? why?

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 04:05:00 +0000 UTC]

Just... reasons.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 04:05:29 +0000 UTC]

no, tell meeeee...

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 04:09:57 +0000 UTC]

Its just...

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 04:11:32 +0000 UTC]

hun just tell me. i wont judge

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 04:19:27 +0000 UTC]

Lauren, you understand, I love you, a lot.
The thing is... all I've been able to do sense all of that happened a few months ago is cry, and tell myself the pain will go away. Then it makes me cry, because I know if you didn't leave me before, theres a good chance me and you would still be together,I wouldn't have switched schools, I wouldnt cry myself to sleep every night, I wouldnt have so many regrets between the point there was a you and me, and right now. It feels like it's killing me. The regrets, the pain, it just grows. I can't run. Medication won't help. I feel like I have something I need to say or do. But I don't know what it is,I feel like a mute. And every day I cry, because every time I actually havesome bit of hope restored, its always torn down, even if only in a small way. I want to go back to the start. When I was there with you. When the pain of today was irrelevant. When none of this mattered. It feels like theres no hope at the end of the tunnel. Just people holding me back, and others blocking my path. I don't get it. The logic is pointless, and the solution so utterly simple that it just won't happen. I don't know what to do anymore. I try to find the bit of meaning, the hope of happy endings, "Love". But it all seems so vague and indefinite. I forgot what it feels like to really be happy for longer than a minute. I forgot what it feels like to succeed, what it feels like to be able to get up in the morning without fear of whats next. I can't take it anymore, it feels like it's tearing me apart. Oh please, take me back to the start. 👍: 0 ⏩: 1

Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 04:28:33 +0000 UTC]

thats why you left? we got back together and technically, we still are cuz we never broke up. i know you miss me and i miss you too, but you cant keep breaking down like this! if i can wait you can too, and i really feel for y, being a new kid isnt easy, but i envy that, you got to totally start off fresh! i dont understand how you can be so, so, mopey. you have a roof and food and edjewcation, yet you are thinking of suicide... look for the silver lining! you have friends, dont you?

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 04:36:00 +0000 UTC]

Lauren.
I understand my life is better than many,
But there are hundreds choices I have to choose from,
Each one contradicting the other.
I miss happiness.
But it seems, I can't be "happy" anymore. I smile. I laugh. But just as abruptly as things get better, someone drags it down to make themselves feel better, something goes wrong. I feel like my very being is just a decaying mass of what could have been.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 04:40:59 +0000 UTC]

please dont pull suicide. please please please. i miss happy too, thats why im up, cuz being in contact with you makes me happy, doesnt it make you happy? knowing that we can still talk together? ur not a decaying mass either. you could turn out to be something amazing! (not that youre not already) i gotta go, i wish we could talk some more... listen, no matter how bad things are, they will eventually get better. i love you more than anything you could ever imagine, sleep well. <3

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 04:46:03 +0000 UTC]

I love you too... good night, sweet dreams.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 12:09:58 +0000 UTC]

hey... u still okay? feel any better?

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 13:19:58 +0000 UTC]

Just a bit.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-15 16:04:47 +0000 UTC]

Shoot this arrow▬▬▬► to 10 people you're glad you met. . . If you get 5 back you have a ~ BIG HEART
good... i love you <3

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 00:19:54 +0000 UTC]

Ugh...

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 00:21:32 +0000 UTC]

i know, awful, but i would. for nobody else.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 00:39:50 +0000 UTC]

Well, don't. Not for anybody, especially not me.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 00:41:54 +0000 UTC]

if i ever did you couldnt stop me... i wouldnt ever dream of ending my life, unless you ended yours. you know i would do anything to be with you. pretty audacious huh?

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 00:49:20 +0000 UTC]

P

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 00:50:47 +0000 UTC]

wat would you do if i went...?

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 00:57:08 +0000 UTC]

?

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 01:01:04 +0000 UTC]

if i died, wat would you do? forget? mourn? come along? idk, im asking you.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 01:09:49 +0000 UTC]

I would run away, and let myself starve.
As they do say, starvation is one of the most painful deaths that can be expierienced.

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 01:18:30 +0000 UTC]

hmmm, father says eventually, adrenaline will flow through the veins and numb. i think not. starving is excruciating.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 01:19:39 +0000 UTC]

The process is rather painful. And, if you don't eventually fall into a coma, all you really can do is watch yourself decay until death

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 01:21:24 +0000 UTC]

bene, you would come along. thats what i was wanting to hear, er read. i was scared youd say "crazy bitch foget you" or something a dark skinned man would say.

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LordInfamy In reply to Emowolf33 [2011-10-09 01:24:28 +0000 UTC]

. . . what?

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Emowolf33 In reply to LordInfamy [2011-10-09 01:27:45 +0000 UTC]

never mind, my bro talks like a negro... "hai bro, get meh a waffle"
"imma trai"
yeah, like sam B on dead island. "aww haell naw"

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