Malitorci In reply to no-one-has-this-name [2008-03-27 13:37:38 +0000 UTC]

Oh... really?
Hmm....
I'm sorry... I don't know....
Sorry....

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no-one-has-this-name In reply to Malitorci [2008-03-28 05:33:19 +0000 UTC]

thanks anyway.

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Malitorci In reply to courglas [2008-02-18 00:02:51 +0000 UTC]

this makes me sad.....
sorry.....

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courglas In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-18 00:30:00 +0000 UTC]

Why is that?

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Malitorci In reply to courglas [2008-02-22 04:50:47 +0000 UTC]

a lot of the things here apply to....
never mind

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courglas In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-23 08:58:13 +0000 UTC]

What? I didn't type this, you can tell by the word structure, but whats wrong man, what?

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Malitorci In reply to courglas [2008-03-31 18:20:01 +0000 UTC]

It's like an embodiment of things that I actually look down upon in a friendship, heheh

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courglas In reply to Malitorci [2008-04-01 05:27:37 +0000 UTC]

Oh, I see, well they don't mean exactly, but all in all, it's basicaly saying there always there and they are as annoying sometimes as a brother or sister becuase they care.

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-01-24 01:00:23 +0000 UTC]

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-24 04:37:31 +0000 UTC]

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-01-24 16:22:31 +0000 UTC]

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-24 23:28:52 +0000 UTC]

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-01-25 00:19:26 +0000 UTC]

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-25 02:44:48 +0000 UTC]

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-01-25 03:46:20 +0000 UTC]

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-25 06:23:14 +0000 UTC]

how nice it must be to have nothing to worry about as i do with my problems ...
but ... but ... i am hurting everyday ... every miniute ... every secound of everyday ... even when i talk to you but theres always that small differance that i have with you ... you somehow ease the pain ... like a bandaid to a bad cut ... i have to put a mask on every morening to hide the scares and to ease the minds of those who do know something about my past and to hide from those who don't ... but it isn't your fault i taut myself to be this way and it isn't your fault that my life was far from happy ... oh so far from everything that could have been rly but still it isn't your fault ... you didn't know me then so there was nothing you could do ... i was alone ... so why take the blaim now ... you've only known me for a month or less and somehow ... someway you have slipped your way deep down into the sour and bitter kuts and gashes or my hart and trie desparetly to repair all of the damage that has been inflicted on me but you can not heal all big brother ^^ ... you do as Ian try's to do ... fix me, help me, heal me, but ... somethings just can't be fixed like the smile i faked yesterday for the sake of my mothers sanity ... to show that i am still strong and that the fire in me has not dulled in the least ... but it has ... so much but that des nt make it your fault ... you shouldn't place such pressure on yourself ... i fear that i am too much and that i might brake you and in doing so brake more of what little hope i have left for myself ... and i dare say you thought it yourself ...
big brother why do you care so much ... i know why i do ... but not you
you ... your so nice to me ... big brother ^^

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-01-28 15:01:33 +0000 UTC]

Hm? I never had to worry about it because my subconscious mind decided it would be important for me to forget it all until the time came for me to know.... I don't have problems because I'm apathetic. If I don't care, then I don't have any problems, because in order to have a problem, it has to bother you, first.

Your pain is unimaginable.... In a way I can finally say that I can relate, at least, a little.... You wear a mask because you care for those who care for you, who want to see you happy. I understand that.... But you don't have to wear a mask around me. There is nothing that you need to hide, because it won't hurt me.... Hurting me... isn't easy anymore... for anyone. So be yourself. You have my permission to be honest, although you already are being very honest, heheh. ^ ^
I really like the way you described that.... In a way, it further shows my relation to the snake....
I don't want to fix you. I know that that isn't possible. I can't remove your scars. I can't take the pain away. That's not my goal.... You are the only one who can take away your own pain. You have scars. To remind you. But you don't have to let them hurt you. I'm not trying to heal you. I'm trying to teach you. To use the reminders that your scars give you to your own advantage....
You won't break me. Only one person ever broke me, and he did a wonderful job at doing so, but he thus fortified my defense, and no one will ever break me again, trust me on that.
I care....
Because you are my little sis. ^ ^
And because I see part of myself in you....
Your past may have been more traumatic, but it's similar, nonetheless, to mine.

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-28 22:21:12 +0000 UTC]

oh i see ... hmmmm ...
i never thought of it that way before ...
it's not good to be too hard or to sencitive but somehow i came to be both ... do you know why?
yes, yes i do ...
i would asume it feels nice to have someone to realate too huh?!
i wouldn't lie, it bothers me to much ... and it hurts a lot too ...
thank you big brother ^^
i do trust you ...
what part of you would that be ... all i see is a sencitive hyperactive reatard who dosn't pay attention and cry's at least once a day and is to clumsy who's 15 and acts like a 4 yr old AAANND who thinks she can handle anything and goes for what she wants and gets pushed away for it but is to stubborn to give up ... it's what my mama thinks of me hahaha ^^
can i ask how it's similar ... plz?? ^^

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-01-29 22:24:23 +0000 UTC]

Mhmm.... But that way of thinking has its own ups and downs.
Perhaps you're both because you try to hide your sensitivity....
Mhmm, but I meant that I can relate to your pain, just a little, not completely, because what happened to you is still unimaginable....
That's good that lying hurts you, it's supposed to, heheh, but that means that pretending to be happy should hurt and bother you as well, you know....
You don't have to thank me, heheh ^ ^
Well, you present completely different results from me.... I simply shut my true self away and put up an emotional act that fools everyone into never noticing who I really am.... I also am afraid of people, I don't like having anyone near me. I give up if something goes wrong, but never cry. I've lost the ability to cry, and the ability to truly grow emotional over most things except for the few things in life that I still cherish.... I just put it behind me, and forget about it. I dismiss everything I don't like, and condemn it. But it does seem that you're the same as me in the fact that you think a lot, heheh. ^ ^
So, perhaps the extremities of your experience are the reason why you turned out a little different than me, heheh. ^ ^
I shall send you a note regarding that....

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-29 22:40:05 +0000 UTC]

why would i hide ... it ...
lieing is supoesed to hurt you?!!
it does ... i tihnk ...
oh no nonononnonono ... nyo i must thank you ... you do so much and i have done nothing in reaturn ...
your afraid of haveing someone near you huh ... hahaha ... you better hope you never meet me in person i would glomp you in a hart beat ... it's what i do to the poeple i love and seeing that you are my big brother you get an extra big tackle ... and an extra big hug ^^ *grins*
you shouldn't be hard ... my mom is like that, i say you should cry every once and a while i remember when i couldn't cry at all but now i make myself when something bad happens and i feel alil bit better and a little big can go a long way you know hmhm ^^
i think a lil to much i you ask me ... and my mama ...
yesh ... i agree
yup hmhm ^^

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-01 14:55:21 +0000 UTC]

for others' sakes....
yeah....
eheh....
o_O
I'll have to brace myself for then.
It's not something that I try to do, haha. I try not to be this way....
hmhm ^ ^

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-01 22:18:30 +0000 UTC]

i like the face hahaha ^^
*nods*
uh huh ... funny hmhm ^^
you laff again

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-11 14:53:49 +0000 UTC]

heheh....
yeah, but I laugh only when things get uncomfortable....

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-11 22:36:18 +0000 UTC]

are thing unconfortable dattebayo?!

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-11 22:39:22 +0000 UTC]

Hahaha, when aren't things uncomfortable?

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-11 22:42:07 +0000 UTC]

things are unconfortable big brother ... i dun feel anything dattebayo ... is that when you fiddle with things and figet and stuff and have that sort of sry smile plasterd to your face?!

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-11 22:49:57 +0000 UTC]

yeah.... that's almost exactly what I mean....
deciding not to do anything because you know that it's always going to turn out badly....

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-11 22:54:30 +0000 UTC]

how do you know ... things can change can't they?

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-11 23:06:57 +0000 UTC]

things can change....
but it's so obvious....
yesterday....
it was proven that I am the villain of this world....

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-12 02:05:48 +0000 UTC]

see, so doen't feel so bad, funny cause i brake everything i touch just about hmhm ^^ but i'm getting better *thumbsup*
how?... no uh you are not, your too nice and careing to be anthing like that big brother!!

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-15 19:08:18 +0000 UTC]

Heheh....
Figuratively, I do the same thing. My self portraits say so. ^ ^

Oh, but that's only part of what I really am....

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-15 21:08:14 +0000 UTC]

hahaha ^^
i dunno all of who i rly am, i still have to figure that out ... i guess hmhm ^^

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-02-16 00:29:11 +0000 UTC]

Well technically I have no clue who I really am, actually....
But I can make assumptions, heheh

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-02-16 01:31:51 +0000 UTC]

assuptions ... isn't that guessing in a way ... so ya i can do that too hahaha ^^

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-03-27 13:15:12 +0000 UTC]

hmhmhm, I assume so, haha

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-03-28 02:41:51 +0000 UTC]

i forgot what we were talking about ... hmhm ^^ sry

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-03-31 17:56:42 +0000 UTC]

Eheheh, well you certainly shouldn't say sorry considering that I'm the one who stopped talking.... I'm sorry....
And... anyway, I always forget what conversations are about and have to keep clicking parent to figure out what was going on and get my brain back into the correct mood, heheh

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Mugen-teh-ninja In reply to Malitorci [2008-03-31 22:59:55 +0000 UTC]

oh no no no dn be sry i'm alright thers nothing wrong anymore so everything will be fine ... it always turns out better ^^
hmhm ... funny ^^

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Malitorci In reply to Mugen-teh-ninja [2008-04-01 22:28:41 +0000 UTC]

are you sure?

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Malitorci In reply to killerfeeling [2008-01-16 20:11:26 +0000 UTC]

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killerfeeling In reply to Malitorci [2008-01-17 09:39:08 +0000 UTC]

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Malitorci In reply to killerfeeling [2008-01-17 19:00:50 +0000 UTC]

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