Meiyorin In reply to namiparmesani [2016-06-11 18:51:36 +0000 UTC]

namiiii ;__; please please, let's just find a way to talk to each other not using dA ;__; that would be so lovely! everytime I log back here I remember about you and I feel so sad that we don't talk as much (and it's my fault! lol! so sorry!)
But i kind of really want to stay in touch ;__; how have you been??

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namiparmesani In reply to Meiyorin [2016-06-12 12:25:53 +0000 UTC]

Oh my god you're alive

The heavens have spoken
And nostalgia. I remember how I was when I first talked to you, like 5 years ago. ahaha
ERM I have a cell phone. It's weird to exchange a number via Internet, but I myself am hardly on dA nowadays....
Stupid kid found a job and friends and real life in her face. BUT ANYWAYS I REALLY WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN TOO. I'M NOT AS FUNNY AND FLUFFY AS I USED TO BE THOUGH

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Meiyorin In reply to Geenu [2016-06-11 18:49:58 +0000 UTC]

och wyjatkowo pozna odpowiedz, ale dziekuje bardzo !! ;3;

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Meiyorin In reply to Jigoku-Rui-chan [2016-06-11 18:50:14 +0000 UTC]

very late thank you !! ;__;

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Jigoku-Rui-chan In reply to Meiyorin [2016-06-12 15:48:05 +0000 UTC]

Heh its okay.^^No problem at all.

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Meiyorin In reply to Pepsyl [2016-06-11 18:50:22 +0000 UTC]

very late thank you !! ;_______;

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Meiyorin In reply to Raakone [2016-06-11 18:50:26 +0000 UTC]

very late thank you !! ;__;

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Meiyorin In reply to Jigoku-Rui-chan [2015-08-04 09:54:17 +0000 UTC]

oh hey, only  now have I read it and... I couldn't be happier!! Thank you so much. These are such wise words.. they needed to be heard today. Thank you!!:3

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Jigoku-Rui-chan In reply to Meiyorin [2015-08-04 20:20:43 +0000 UTC]

Heh,no problem at all.It makes me happy that you think
that my words are wise.
Hope you have a great day.^^

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Meiyorin In reply to Jigoku-Rui-chan [2015-08-07 08:02:52 +0000 UTC]

Hope you have a great day too!!! : D

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Jigoku-Rui-chan In reply to Meiyorin [2015-08-07 19:36:16 +0000 UTC]

Thanks.

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Meiyorin In reply to sweetyammy [2014-08-23 22:45:57 +0000 UTC]

thank you sweetie : 3

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sweetyammy In reply to Meiyorin [2014-08-24 10:23:51 +0000 UTC]

no problem ;3

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Meiyorin In reply to BoneFreeze [2014-08-07 11:39:12 +0000 UTC]

OH HI THERE haven't talked to you in ages!

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BoneFreeze In reply to Meiyorin [2014-08-15 19:45:11 +0000 UTC]

Hi,
 Much have passed since last pseudo anonymous message i sent you, if i recall right, it should be around two years. To be honest, i am embarrassed to say this, but i sort of missed messaging to you. I though of saying "i'm glad to hear you are fine and now I am quiting dA myself, because it's just weird to message you now", but decided that giving you insight about me is even though pure attention craving b-ing is something I feel like doing, though not sure how personal and asking of responce it should be. I gave a try to both many and more absurd ideas, this will suffice also. I had my share of personal stuff dropped on you all around dA, wich is also embarrassing. Memory of having you responding to someone who has poor control over common english with those "hahha you funny : ) " brings back nostalgia and is to be blamed for my temptation to message you in first place. Did i thanked you yet? If no, then thank you very heartly. You earned yourself archaic symbol in my mind set and realization for what my childhood is, for that i hold your memory dearly. And maybe because of experience you caused of me being listened to and accepted in some sense kept me around dA, when every other reason to be around here faded in adulthood. Thanks again.
 And now, not being total gay about everything I would like to notice that i am glad to hear you being around town and taking step further in life. You know, i am totally releaved to know that you are alive and well from what i can know (it's easy to think of one dead when he becomes missing in online world for like two days). Good, keep that chin up. For me, well, I am star gazing from now on.
 About me  - not much. My love life is probably most hilarious event in last few years around town. Next to that I ended up school with above average grades, failed to apply for philosophy studies in Vilnius Univesity, so i got myself into physics course in same university (hurray for me). After half a year i dropped out (skipping classes, deppression and few moments of honesty with myself made me call it quits) and spend other half in my hometown, pretty much lollygaging and killing time (both relatives, family and everyone i meet almost openly criticizes me (some do crucufy, depending on how close to me they are and weird to say this but i do understand them and agreee with them, since they all do know little about me), but i atleast i am honest and serious about my intentions and Camus sayd  that suicide is not, in the end, an option, so i got that going for me wich is nice). Now, after failed year i am finally aplying in studies i wanted. Still hoping it's worth the shot.
 Also i asked hairdresser to give me mohawk, but she made me a Macklemore-wave alike mohawk. For now i heard peaople refer to me as skinhead fascist, undeveloped punk and troll warlord from first DotA game. Just me things. 
 So, how about you, how much of otaku are you now? Still drawing?
 -Awesome Me

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Meiyorin In reply to BoneFreeze [2014-08-27 16:47:55 +0000 UTC]

omg, I can't even express how happy I felt when I read the first part of your letter (so let me call it)!! firstly let me say how sorry I am for not being able to reply to you earlier! I have read it like a few days ago, because I was super busy with work etc. and now is finally a day when I had time to sit down calmly and write my reply ^^
the funny thing is, what you said literally made my day, it was something I was needing at that time of the day. I was tired and feeling a lil bit down, but what you wrote brought me a lot of feelings! : D so many feels man!
It's also amazing how we actually helped each other without even realising it, huh? I loved talking to you too, although at first I couldn't get you and I couldn't get TO you haha~! But I guess I managed just fine, judging by what you said ^^ let's talk now too! yoroshiku ne~!
The second part tho, made me worried. I didn't have a clue you had some much going on! I guess it was hard since we practically stopped keeping in touch, but still it shocked me a little. I'm sorry for what you had to go through. Don't worry about other people critising your looks and stuff. I, myself, am a veeeery insecure person when it comes to probably everything *feeling pity for herself* but I do believe that it's a matter of attitude, and if you believe their words/opinions don't hurt you they won't! So just try and be a little more optimistic than usual ok? Because I'm going to try to, so let's do it together : D
Oh and I'm also sorry to hear you failed to get to your dream school, but right now do you best! I'm postponing my dream university too, but I'm going to study now anyway, just to have my mind occupied (but I also like the other things i'm going to study - it's going to be English Transative Studies with Japanese; the other thing that I'm postponing is Graphics; and I'm probably starting it next year!) So let's both do our bests now!!
Looking forward to your reply~!!! bai bai !   

PS. I'm still and otaku, but a smaller one probably~! I still watch animes from time to time, but i'm just so busyyyy   

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BoneFreeze In reply to Meiyorin [2014-09-11 18:19:11 +0000 UTC]

Hi there,
sorry for the long pause, been procrastinanting as much as it is possible . Don't get me wrong, I feel both excited and happy to contact you once again, also excited that I was able to make your day *Yuss...* . Point is, besides past and what is happening to me now here and there I don't know what else I have to say that might catch your interest. Politics? I hope to avoid that. Religion? Could be fun, but in the end we stay with our original opinion and at best case feeling of having something in common (most likely you are atheistic just like rest of the generation, wich makes discussion even more ... one sided). Studies? Yeah sure, how are the subjects? Are you skipping classes already? Any cool or good looking professors? (Well, our academic literacy proffessor is somewhat mentioned as the one that every female student falls in love with (eventually), because he is quite enlightened and handsome (no homo, iI can't differ sponge from Jennifer Lawrence when it comes to understanding who is good-looking). Since he is married you can notice him from time to time lean on table in pose that highlightens his hands in front of auditory while playing with his weddng ring. Just saying things so you get the picture. Lol) Anything else cool? You are in private or "student community" housing at the moment (not sure how to put it)?  What music you prefer? Anything else so I could make a image of how you changed since past time? (I don't change, atleast not really much)

Talking about studies, I might have mistaken you. I am in my dream studies right now - philosophy. I also enrolled myself in aditional subject called "independant american movies". Haven't had it yet. Might turn out to be awesome. 

Since it would be only a shame to wirte such a short and plain letter in like 2 or more weeks, I might have come into part where I start putting up the earlier "sketches" of letters I made. Yup, it wasn't a singe sitdown attempt, wih makes it less justified. 

"Hi,

To begin with honestly I've been postponing response for awhile which is not really nice from my side. Mostly because it's so hard to comprehend what and how I have to say. I hope you weren't looking forward a fast reply, if so - please forgive me.

 However, keeping a fine lady on wait is lame and I shall not make it my habit. I hope . Talking about hope, I have had some "insight" into things around me lately and I think I have figured it out now, you know, life. Get born, Get yourself to college, starve (who needs food anyway?), find yourself some buckwheat you made x? days ago, top it with ketchup (it's good for you ), and eat it. Taste every bit of that. So slowly and passionate that it becomes somehow not suitable for children to watch. It's just so bad but you can't not love it! You feel the crops slide through Mojave desert that once was your throat. All becomes one as buckwheat enters your stomach. We are one. We understand. Buckwheat understands. Buckwheat is my friend. He knows. As I become one with buckwheat I can not argue simplicity and beauty of roommate's and mine worn-out socks that are hanged right through the door. Ah, humanity at it's finest. I stand up and pull off my sock and lift it closer to my now wet lips and dizzy face. Although passion for Buckwheat is still strong, Sock is the new lover of mine. Buckwheat doesn't mind, he understands. The color, the shape. And smell, oh my God, what a divine smell *sniffs*. It's not one of those smells where you bend and say "hmm, as good as buckwheat and my soon to be bachelor's degree". No, it's a whole new dimension. It's so thick and dense you can feel it through your skin. It surrounds you. It warps space-time. Actually it conflicts with science field - how come it's not a black hole yet? Ah, I am whole at that moment. But world has it's plans for me. I get my stuff and move out in the open air. I have some nice six kilometers to walk in these long-lasting, yet soon to give up shoes. This morning, as I was putting them on I noticed my finger can already fit throug the hole in one of their pad. Shoes does tell stories about people, mostly about their voyages. I've had my time with these, they are part of who I define myself with by now, a physical memory of humble and shy feelings, of submission I had when my sight catches person's I gaze upon eyes looking at mine. All the times I look down and see those two fellows there, same as always, whispering all the things to me "It's real, you are not dreaming, you are alive and fine, just lift your chin up". So I do , once again at the sky black or blue. I might be somewhat wrong and not right in all this life and future thing, but that is not what I am all about. If I end up being a lesson to young felows of what not to become so be it. After all, I am the one who writes and reads the rules of life of mine. Just being fine is enough. Those who I care about doesn't need me to be Nobel Prize winner or guy who knows all and does even more. They just need a companion in this cosmic sand box, a face to read, a thought to share, a smile to spread. And even though I lack of social skills, have limited amount of knowledge about self representation, my thoughts are hard to "get" and usually turns out to be purely self absorbed, despite all that I can be. Be well and live life as it is meant from my stand point to be: "to be, to try, to accept truth of death and embrace loneliness one can feel in crowded room, to move up and down, to say and listen, to make impossible a matter of time, to put up a helmet, saddle up Rocinante and charge the windmill, enthusiastically, for blows to take, to get myself stuck in one of the windmill's wings, lift myself and Rocinante up in the air and wtness the sight rare will care to ". Don't think ill of what I just said. It's rather a promise to keep myself well and to do the best I can for the ideals and people I care, despite how dull it may sound. No matter how lame those motivational posters are, how depressing it feels to read them, how cynical it gets to quote them, there are times I would could wrap myself in one of those and go to sleep. Not much of masculinity, I know. But hey, I might improve over time and you are not perfect yourself... Just kidding : o) . You own like big time."
 And that's where I start hitting a brickwall of tought. I might aswell pass the task of writting to you now. Take care, have fun.
 -me

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Meiyorin In reply to BoneFreeze [2015-08-04 16:15:54 +0000 UTC]

oh  my... i can't believe it's been a year... i'm so sorry!! i hope you're there and you're going to read my response!! and really, your letter as I must say... well, it swept me out of my feet! I wonder if you're still there by the other side of the screen? I hope so. Otherwise anything I'm trying to type so desparetely is going to waste.

I mean... Lukas, what has happended to you that made your mind so beautifully fregile and wise at the same time?

I can't really gather my thoughts around it, really. I mean, I'm speachless. Can you just give me a sign? And I'll.. I'll think about what should I respond to all that. It's incredible, Lukas, really. I thought I've lived a harsh or weird life, but it seems.. as I know nothing now.

Take care!
I'm looking forward to hearing from you! I really do!

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BoneFreeze In reply to Meiyorin [2015-10-18 04:35:46 +0000 UTC]

I am fine, glad you liked it. I already made 2 letters and decided to start from scratch again since I start to repeat myself. It's best you say what you think. Because my scattered mind is not helping me at all.
I can listen, I hope. I hope I get a chance to answer also. I would love to.
-me

P.S. www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAWurn…  What have been you choosing as entertainment lately? Videos, music, visual art, video games or anything worth sharing? :>

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Meiyorin In reply to Hirisson [2014-05-05 11:31:22 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome, really   

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Meiyorin In reply to Hirisson [2014-05-04 14:52:34 +0000 UTC]

awh, that's really cute of you, thanks!! <3

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Meiyorin In reply to SaffronKix [2014-05-04 14:52:58 +0000 UTC]

well thank you:3 I could try as long as it's something I would be comfortable to draw!! what's yours?

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