NecktiePom In reply to SyoshoHiataki [2013-02-27 13:47:36 +0000 UTC]

aw,i'm sorry to cause you this sadness ,please do not be sad because of me -hug-

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SyoshoHiataki In reply to NecktiePom [2013-02-28 03:58:31 +0000 UTC]

If you wish to leave, then do as your heart desires

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-25 23:36:54 +0000 UTC]

She breaks everyone's heart. It's what she does best.

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cerebralthundre In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-25 23:43:10 +0000 UTC]

;-; I hope she's alright.

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-25 23:50:07 +0000 UTC]

*shrug*

I was her best friend and I tried to help her... but she didn't want it. Now I'm the villain for trying. She's self-isolating and self-hating... there's nothing anyone can do now, probably...

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cerebralthundre In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-25 23:54:28 +0000 UTC]

;A; Well maybe she just needs a little time alone...

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-25 23:59:30 +0000 UTC]

Who knows? When I leave her alone, she assumes I'm ignoring her/being cold to her. Then when I do talk to her, she doesn't listen anyway so idk...

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cerebralthundre In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-26 00:07:34 +0000 UTC]

I know how that feels on both ends of the rope....I hope she doesn't do anything foolish .n.

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-26 00:14:37 +0000 UTC]

Maybe if/when she comes back here, you can try to befriend her. Maybe you'll do a better job than me since I obviously suck so much at it.

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wufskii In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-27 02:03:54 +0000 UTC]

you seem like a good friend to Twi, not that i really know, but you seem to be helpful and kind.

I only realised today that her userpage was empty. I hadn't seen anything from Twi in a while so made sure to drop by. Anyway i hope she's okay. I'm sort of confident she will be, she has Atka to look after, and to look after her. but i always worry when Twi is quiet like this, maybe she just needs time off. It must be hard work to be amazing all the time.

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Meruseitai In reply to wufskii [2013-02-27 22:55:09 +0000 UTC]

I'm nowhere near helpful/kind. I'm just a stressed-out idiot.

She's left DA. Nothing more to see here.

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wufskii In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-28 13:53:26 +0000 UTC]

I don't really know, but maybe it's not your fault, maybe it's no ones fault, it's just a symptom of the universe that some things turn out the way they do. but again i don't know but i think you tried. that's all anyone can do. even if you fail or think you failed, at the time you did what you thought was right, that's all anyone can do. sorry for going on about what i probably don't know or understand.

I have just seen her journal, it sounds like she is trying to do what is right for her though, so i'm glad she is being positive. I think we are all going to miss her. she has been a great inspiration to me, maybe in ways she doesn't realise but she has been a force for good in my life, just by being herself, even though none of us are always ourselves.

I just read what you said about losing your best friend, I'm really sorry for you because i sort of know how that feels, though i hope i don't sound patronising by saying that because i know that i don't understand everything. but really as long as she doesn't do something stupid, she will still be there somewhere, and hopefully you will let her know that 'your door is always open' and maybe someday she will feel able to say hello again.

I guess i'm not much help but feel free to note me if you want.

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cerebralthundre In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-26 01:09:06 +0000 UTC]

Ohh don't say that...It's just hard to open up to people when you're depressed...And befriend her? That would be lovely. I'd be honored to be her friend~ Maybe if she ever returns, i'll talk to her.

But I don't want to bug her, because I'm sure there's going to be lots of people trying to talk with her.

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-27 22:53:42 +0000 UTC]

She won't be coming back. She's all-out ditching us... just ditching us.

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cerebralthundre In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-27 22:57:19 +0000 UTC]

I know.

And you seem angry about it....Don't get angry and blame her ;.;

Just try and understand that she just needs time away, and that she isn't purposely "ditching" us.

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-27 23:07:49 +0000 UTC]

It's my fault she's leaving. Because I'm terrible at everything. She sent me notes then doesn't give me a chance to figure out what to say. It's hard to think of a response and I don't want to do it wrong but then I do it anyways and she leaves so fast ; ;

My other friends tell me to cut ties since she causes me suffering but she was my best friend and then she tells me to not be around her because she causes suffering.

But then I still don't want to let go... It doesn't make sense to me and nothing is making sense to me now about anything...

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cerebralthundre In reply to Meruseitai [2013-02-27 23:30:45 +0000 UTC]

It isn't your fault. In ANY way. Really, I think that sometimes it just doesn't matter what's said or done, people just need time to be away from everyone else.

I do that a lot too. I'm a professional at pushing people away. But really, you aren't to blame for this. And I'm glad you didn't cut ties, but I think you should just not let it bother you. Just understand she needs to just take a break. From everyone. Who knows, she may be back? Only time will tell, i guess. And she may need a lot of it.

So don't get worked up. Some people are just like this. Me included. Don't blame yourself. Or her either. Things will work out soon for her hopefully, and when she's felling more up to it, she'll be back~

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Meruseitai In reply to cerebralthundre [2013-02-27 23:45:02 +0000 UTC]

She isn't coming back. The note she sent to me she says is the final one to me forever. I'm surprised she didn't deactivate this account since she deleted all her others on other sites.

Why shouldn't I get worked up?! She wasn't just some artist I watch here on DA. She was a long-time best friend :c It's not the same. I'm totally abandoned here.

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NecktiePom In reply to HolyFrap [2013-02-24 22:18:36 +0000 UTC]

I'm going away for a while and i'm not sure if i will return yet <3 i just need to get this depression sorted out and well i won't be here for a while,this account holds too much negativity with it so there may be a possible account change but may decide to just stay or leave altogether ,sorry if i made you worry ,it is not my intention D: i just need to start anew,You know?

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HolyFrap In reply to NecktiePom [2013-02-24 22:41:10 +0000 UTC]

Aww okay; well at least you're trying to make things better! A worse sign of depression when people stop caring. I'd rather you leave and figure yourself out than give up.

If you change accounts you will let me know, yes? I'd love to still follow you if you should decide coming back is good for you.

Good luck bb!

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NecktiePom In reply to HolyFrap [2013-02-24 22:58:39 +0000 UTC]

yeah it took me long to do this though and it's too late to fix what i broke, i've hurt a lot of people including my twin bowtiepom ,i feel like i've destroyed everything and i'm at my end (i have had depression for nearly 11 years now so yeah i left this waaay too late D: feel so guilty and crushed for not doing this earlier ) ,this is the only thing left now and i know i need to do this in order to stop pulling people down and hurting them constantly because of my depression ,i lost them because of myself and what i couldn't do because i can't seem to do anything and everything i think is right is actually wrong so yeah D: (going to the hospital tomorrow about it)


thank you ,i will certainly tell you if i decide to move or leave <3 hopefully i'll come back better and will start drawing again.

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HolyFrap In reply to NecktiePom [2013-02-25 00:40:05 +0000 UTC]

Depression hurts everyone, not just the person dealing with it... eventually though; people learn to forgive. I'm sure you and your bb will figure things out.

In the mean time, I'm open to talking if you feel like ranting about your day. Either here, or my tumblr or wherever else... I'll note you my stuff incase you ever need it.

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NecktiePom In reply to cat-fab [2013-02-23 14:36:08 +0000 UTC]

No, i don't really draw anymore,sorry.

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NecktiePom In reply to eellie [2013-01-28 11:06:40 +0000 UTC]

That is fine ,once it is done i shall link the artist-beware journal with finished image and hopefully the admins will mark it as resolved ,thank you ♥

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eellie In reply to NecktiePom [2013-01-31 11:10:05 +0000 UTC]

Okay, i'll try and have it done soon for you <3

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NecktiePom In reply to kiralikesfood [2013-01-28 11:36:52 +0000 UTC]

It's fine,i've been like this for a year or two ,i think i'm just a bit lost .

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kiralikesfood In reply to NecktiePom [2013-01-28 17:22:52 +0000 UTC]

Well you've always been an artist I looked up to, and I love your art so much, please don't give up :c

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NecktiePom In reply to kiralikesfood [2013-01-29 13:44:34 +0000 UTC]

it's okay ,i won't u__u
Thank you for caring ♥

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NecktiePom In reply to lunsie [2013-01-18 23:49:41 +0000 UTC]

lmao are you on sugar rush xD?

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lunsie In reply to NecktiePom [2013-01-19 00:22:25 +0000 UTC]

LOL NOPE. haha

I'm just happy and somewhat sad/angry because MATH STUFF but overall IM HAPPY
AND AND
i'm gonna be on TVVVVV asdfghjkl ;^; -nervous-

but yes pigeons make the best boyfriends.

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