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Shayla06 ♀️ [8794519] [2008-11-09 18:59:16 +0000 UTC] "Shayla" (United States)

# Statistics

Favourites: 148; Deviations: 70; Watchers: 6

Watching: 65; Pageviews: 5460; Comments Made: 221; Friends: 65

# About me

Art Available:
Traditional - pencil, ink, colored pencil | Digital - lines or color | Photography (mostly of llamas) | Crafting - necklaces, leatherwork, etc.

About Me:
I a disabled stay-at-home mom, and I take art commissions as my only income. On the weekends, I work with my therapy llama, Lucy.

[NSFW Warning] Link below contains mature artwork not listed here!

# Comments

Comments: 59

JRWenzel [2013-12-28 23:03:04 +0000 UTC]

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Shaheen-Zaman [2013-12-17 05:00:40 +0000 UTC]

Good morning Friend..   

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-12-20 23:53:58 +0000 UTC]

Afternoon. Heh. Thanks.

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-12-21 04:41:42 +0000 UTC]

 

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Kyares [2013-12-15 09:45:16 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for llama !

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Shaheen-Zaman [2013-12-13 06:30:41 +0000 UTC]

Thank you my angel for the FAV... meant a WORLD to me... STAY smiling.... And don't forget to be the awesome...   

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GameAndWill [2013-12-06 02:04:55 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the  

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miszterpejnt [2013-12-06 00:21:53 +0000 UTC]

Thx 4 da , keep on rockin' nonfig/tribal  

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Shayla06 In reply to miszterpejnt [2013-12-06 01:20:38 +0000 UTC]

No problem. I train therapy llamas irl. My tribals are for sale to help pay for their stuff.

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San-Jorge [2013-12-05 22:31:46 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for the llama!

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olurk [2013-12-04 03:01:32 +0000 UTC]

#70



Thank you so much!

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Shayla06 In reply to olurk [2013-12-04 03:07:54 +0000 UTC]

Welcome. Thanks for the return llama. I train therapy llamas irl. I <3 llamas. It's a bit of an obsession... *pokes gallery* I also run "LlamaInfo" on Facebook and Twitter. >.>;

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icediamond7 [2013-11-30 01:30:58 +0000 UTC]

thanks for the llama your welcome to check out my gallery if your interested

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PURPLESKULL99 [2013-11-29 14:00:29 +0000 UTC]

may i ask a request

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Shayla06 In reply to PURPLESKULL99 [2013-11-29 15:49:45 +0000 UTC]

If you mean an art request, no. I work for money. This is my job. If you have a request as far as a question, by all means.   

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PURPLESKULL99 In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-30 22:12:21 +0000 UTC]

Fair enough

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RadioactiveNinja [2013-11-28 18:50:19 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much for the watch

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DeiDeiCat98 [2013-11-27 21:02:01 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the Llama *-* <3

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Shayla06 In reply to DeiDeiCat98 [2013-11-27 21:23:30 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome. I love llamas. I train therapy llamas! Share the llama love!

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Bonds-webComic [2013-11-27 20:36:36 +0000 UTC]

Cain and Abel : Thanks for the watch!

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EbilMe616 [2013-11-27 16:00:07 +0000 UTC]

thanks for the llama

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Shayla06 In reply to EbilMe616 [2013-11-27 16:02:48 +0000 UTC]

No problem. I love llamas. I train therapy llamas. Spread the llama love!

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EbilMe616 In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-27 16:03:12 +0000 UTC]

lol ^_^

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LaMusicaArte [2013-11-27 04:11:07 +0000 UTC]

thanks for the llama

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Shayla06 In reply to LaMusicaArte [2013-11-27 04:15:38 +0000 UTC]

No problem. Spread the llama love!

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LaMusicaArte In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-27 04:17:17 +0000 UTC]

lol XD

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DillaHana [2013-11-27 03:34:58 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the llama :3

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Shayla06 In reply to DillaHana [2013-11-27 03:38:46 +0000 UTC]

No problem. Sharing the llama love. I'm collecting them. I do actually own a llama. Her name is Lucy. Getting two more Saturday!

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DillaHana In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-27 03:39:32 +0000 UTC]

Cool (:

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byzho [2013-11-26 22:01:16 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much for the llama.

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Shayla06 In reply to byzho [2013-11-26 22:03:43 +0000 UTC]

You're very welcome. I love llamas. I train them for a living. Thanks for liking all the art! I do commissions for cash or points.

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Nexu4 [2013-11-26 20:23:49 +0000 UTC]

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Shayla06 In reply to Nexu4 [2013-11-26 20:36:55 +0000 UTC]

Yes... Llamas are so great. >X3 I have a personal therapy llama in training, Lucy. She has a "roommate" named Chism, and we just got another pair I get to meet Saturday! Llamas are the greatest animals ever. >.>
                           

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Nexu4 In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-26 20:51:52 +0000 UTC]

I also love them ^^  

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Shayla06 In reply to Nexu4 [2013-11-26 21:14:53 +0000 UTC]

Hehe. Can't wait to meet my new boy and girl siblings this weekend. They're just a year old and I get to name them Saturday.

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Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-26 19:01:24 +0000 UTC]

Appreciate you llama

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-26 20:38:33 +0000 UTC]

You're more than welcome... I appreciate your art for activism.  


Llamas are so great. >X3 I have a personal therapy llama in training, Lucy. She has a "roommate" named Chism, and we just got another pair I get to meet Saturday! Llamas are the greatest animals ever. >.>
                           


All the llamas shall belong to me! XD

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-27 06:35:14 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much for your words of appreciations for my devotion in art for activism.  And SEEMS LLAMAS ARE GREAT ANIMALS   llamas then seems to be too pleasing animals....   i have never see a llama. hope some dy i get a chance to see one...     


 Kittens are also utterly cute.....    you seem to be a BIG BIG llama lover...  

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-27 14:38:32 +0000 UTC]

Yep. I train therapy llamas. My llama, Lucy, has already brightened the day of a deaf child, an autistic boy, and many elderly people. I'm hoping to get her a saddle so she can carry kids around, particularly those who can't walk on their own. I think it would be a great experience for them. She's very gentle and sweet. I have two cats too. Kittens are definitely adorable.


Llamas are the American cousin of camels. They don't have the hump, and they have a lot more fluffy fur. Otherwise, they're pretty similar. They make great pack animals, and they're built to work great high up in mountains. I know lots of random llama facts. They're great all around. lol


I admit I don't do enough for activism for the other side of the world. I usually focus on local things. I've worked in animal rescue for six years, and now I train therapy llamas to help local people with disabilities. But I appreciate anyone trying to help further good causes.

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-27 15:06:02 +0000 UTC]

  Hey there... Wow....   came to know loads about your llama stuffs.. it's great to hear about you helping old and aging people down there.. and bring smiles to so many children... i hope i could be there to see it happen right in-front of my eyes.   And ya i believe that no deed it big or small its's the affection with which you perform it.   And trust me you did great work out there..    JUST A QUESTION will it be adorable to cuddle a llama..   my brother since his childhood had may cats... and he has been a passionate one... and as we shared the same room i too love them around me....    it's like a cute ball of fur. 


I am inspired by an American student Rachel Corrie who died aged 23 years only when she was crushed under an Israeli  bulldozer trying to protect the house of poor Palestinian kids.. 

 


Hope you carry on with all your good work and keep smiling...     


(Note - recently i too have developed interest in llamas....   hope it would be exciting.... 


 

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-27 15:18:26 +0000 UTC]

Llamas are great. They really aren't like any other animal, though physically they're a lot like camels. They are SO fluffy! Everyone loves hugging Lucy and petting her. Sadly, llamas tend to be a lot like cats. They don't generally "enjoy" petting, but they tolerate it, especially if they get food for it. They're very food motivated (but who isn't? lol). They don't touch each other unless they're fighting or mating, so they get confused at first as to why we want to touch them. But once they see you aren't trying to fight or anything, they get used to it pretty quick.


That's very sad about Rachel. I hadn't heard that story. But I have read several good books and articles about the situation in Palestine. It's awful some of the things that go on out there. But there are plenty of good people like you fighting for them. I'm sure it'll work itself out eventually. Actually, my favorite book relevant to that was a true-story comic book called Persepolis. It was a textbook in one of my college comic classes (I have a degree in writing English). Good reading.


If you want to know more random llama facts:

www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/com…

Also, my twitter is "LlamaInfo" where I post random llama facts.

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-27 19:43:01 +0000 UTC]

Hey they..!!   i read loads about llamas for the past 4 hours.... they are very interesting animals... Loved your stuffs on "AskReddit" about llamas.   I am a researcher (Social Activist, Student of Comparative Religion, History, Computers and Finance/Business/Economy) aged 24 years old    and your hard work on llamas has made me interested in llamas..      And ya one more thing you have a very strong command over your writing skills. Your thoughts are so structured.. and so well jotted down.   Presently i am writing a book on my personal experience with LOVE and CAPITALISM together. (NAME OF MY BOOK - My Capitalist Love)   hope chatting to you makes me a better person with a good writing skills. I have quit two JOBS in one year both well paid. one at HCL Technologies and Infosys Technologies.    I had quit both the jobs because i CAPITALISM robbed me of My LOVE..    Any ways hope when i am done with my book, you may find it some day on the selves of some book store around the corner.   



Ya... one more thing I am too much in watching animated movies a have Tera-bytes of them. One of the is named PERSEPOLIS. Its a story about a girl in Iran and her experiences in her country and in Europe (France)  Is it the same thing you read in your college...??   Sorry if i am too verbal.. and blabber a lot..    I don't have friends that why i am sure about how to talk to people... coz i spend 85% of 24 hours working (Not for any Capitalist guy or company)   Any ways have a great time good to hear it from you... Hope to hear from you soon..   Byeeee..!!

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-27 20:02:29 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! I'd be happy to help you work on your English. I admit, I'm a fan of capitalism for the most part, but I grew up with it. I feel like every system has its flaws, and there are a lot of things about capitalism that have let me down. One thing is how much people forget about helping others and charity work. Makes my job harder, because finding people willing to donate to charities is getting harder all the time... But we're making do.


It sounds like the movie might be related to the book. I was thinking it talked about her going to Palestine, but maybe it was Iran. lol It's been a few years. Speaking of books, if you need help with it, let me know. I may not agree with everything, but I can certainly point you to places to get published or edit things for you. I was supposed to publish a book this year, but then my father died and it sorta got shoved back and forgotten. =/

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-28 06:55:53 +0000 UTC]

OMG i am so soory to hear about your father....   But what was you book all about..?? Was it a fiction or non- fiction. My book is about the aspects of capitalism as follows...

  

 

  Class struggle and social mobility    

  Consumerism in society 

 

  Social stratification 

 

  un-employment, underemployment and employment  

 

  Business ethics-a myth   

  Rat Race-working i.e. working for money rather than making money work for you.   


and various other issues through my own story and experience working at MNCs that led myself to nervous break down.  any way i do agree strongly that any system (open or closed) has both - good and evil in it's belly. and it also depends upon the individuals using the system to see both sides of the coin while using it so vigorously. recently only i have finished studying capitalism, socialism and communism (Adam Smith, Karl Marxx, Max Weber, Meads, Mike Maloney). I am also studying history of United States of America (Native Americans, English Colonies, Interest Free Money, Founding Fathers, Difference between American war of independence and American Revolution, George Washington, Removal of Gold standards of US dollar in 1971, Federal reserve, fractional reserve money mechanism, derivatives used at NASDAQ, Al Gore's rejection in 2000 election of state of Florida, Al Gore's environmental hoax (Montreal), Walmart's History, the Rothschild family, JP Morgan Chase, JKyle island secret meeting of banking cartel after the great depression of 1929, Quantitative easing (QE1 and QE2 in 2012 and likely QE3 in Dec 2014), Assassination of President JFK, President Thomas Jefferson, Cuban missile crisis, Various Stages of Cold war between US and USSR, Vietnam War, Iraq War, War in Afghanistan, US embassy Crisis in Iran 1979, Strong Lobby of Israeli Businessmen in US, Oslo Agreement (Between Israel and Palestine by US), Current agreement between P5+1 and Iran by IAEA Nov 2013, etc) and found out that there is some wrong in every system.... it be capitalism (where i came to know that UNEMPLOYMENT and INFLATION are inherent characteristics of Capitalist economy) or communism (where suppression & oppression by state is obvious because of low productivity due to lack of competition.)      Any ways but i would love your comments and insight into my book..      



(Note - sorry i am a bit verbal and speak and question a lot..  will you be my friend...??   )

 

 

     

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-28 15:47:23 +0000 UTC]

Ha. I think you know more about our history than I do. lol I never really liked history class, and we didn't really go into much detail on a lot of those things. And our books didn't really have anything from the present in them, so I certainly haven't studied current events banking practices and whatnot. Would be interesting to learn about, I'm sure.


For what it's worth, I think communism works out great on a small scale, but with more people you have more chances for people to mess it up by not doing their part or abusing the system. If you have willing people, communism works great. But when it's forced on large groups, people quit trying. =/


My book would be considered fiction. It's about my personal dragon character's life, mainly when she was young. She gets rescued by a boy who raises her when she's really little. They become friends, and he proves to the town that not all dragons are bad. Eventually they go to war and he fights while riding her. The book ends on a bit of a sad note, but it has a lot of feeling to it. Her friend is killed in the war, so she flies off back into the wild. I wrote it last year and was going to get it published. Dad was excited to read it, but he never got to. Right after it got finished, he got very sick. When we found out his cancer had come back, it was too late. He only lived 8 days from the time they told him he had cancer. There was nothing they could do. It was across his colon and liver. When he died, his liver was 3 times the size it should have been. ;-; Today is going to be hard. It's Thanksgiving, and I spent all day yesterday baking desserts and will be cooking all day today, but I don't have any family left to share it with other than my husband and daughter.


*adds as friend*

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-28 18:25:13 +0000 UTC]

  Learning history has been my passion (according to Robert Kiyosaki Passion + Love + Anger) For the past 4 months have been a real enlightenment for me. I have started studying subjects like Sociology and Modern Money Mechanics (On which your Federal Reserve works). I learn HISTORY because to forget history is to repeat it, and i learn TECHNOLOGY so that how can i implement the idea of a better world from the lessons i have learnt form history. I am a Muslim but i 've studied BIBLE thoroughly. Recently i had a chance of collect a good collection on elaborate BIBLE from a charitable organisation in US. i very important lesson is "We should know the rule of the game we are playing "  (This entire WORLD is a play ground (Shakespeare) and we are mere players.) So to be a better player you should know yourself and your neighbors too.... that is why i always devote 16-18 hours daily studying HISTORY, TECHNOLOGY, FINANCE, POLITICS, ECONOMY, COMPUTERS, SOCIOLOGY, ART, etc... and since i devote so much time in studying i don't find time to make friends anymore, you won't believe i do not have any friend... sometimes i feel sad about it but then i feel it's fine.. 


Karl Marx analysed Capitalism very well but could not diagnose it well with this solution "communism" i think the world needs something better than communism and capitalism. i don't know what it is.. but i am trying to find out.. hope i find it some day. 


 i know about thanks giving.. one of my friend's brother is in US and he too spent his entire week celebrating. Do you love cooking..?? i enjoy helping my mother cook.. and prepare somthing special for the family. My grand father, my sister, my brother, my father, my mother and my uncle we all stay together in our big house.. its great to live together. hope you too could enjoy it.. hope someday i can call your family over to my place in India and we can have great time together. I hope you have a very loving and caring husband. How old is your daughter..?? she must be adorable.. it's been really sad on my part when i heard about sudden demise of your father.. it's very hard too loose someone you really love and care for.. hope is fine up there in haven smiling at you all.. i pray for is wonderful stay close to the almighty.. may his soul rest in peace.. "And the soul that turneth after such as have familiar spirits, and after wizards, to go a whoring after them, I will even set my face against that soul, and will cut him off from among his people." And most important don't ever forget to stay smiling... the world would turn a better place to live if we all just smile a bit everyday.. Take care and have loads of fun with Lucy...


(Note - sorry friend is still dont know your name, may i know you good name please... By the way i am "Shaheen Zaman"    )

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-28 22:44:24 +0000 UTC]

Most people just call me Shayla. lol My legal name is Tracy, but more people call me Shayla. I grew up on the Bible, and unlike most Christians here, I've read it several times. When I left college I left that too. I admit I have yet to read the Koran, but I hear they have a lot in common. A shame people can't agree to disagree on things like that. A lot of religions really have a lot more in common than differences. 


My daughter will be two in January. Besides her and my husband, we have 3 roommates at our house, so it's never too lonely here. It's just sad that my family is gone. I don't have any family to share the holidays with. But we have lots of friends...

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-29 03:53:16 +0000 UTC]

It's great to hear from you Shayla (Legally speaking Tracy )that you have been a regular reader of the Bible. It's good to know what you are actually following. Most [eople just follow religion as a customer with even knowing the basic tenants of their religion. I always ask people around me to know more and more about the religion they are following.  and ya both Islam and Christianity are "Abrahamic" religions including Jews too.. but trust me the more the common origin we have the more we fight... And you are very true about the fact - "A shame people can't agree to disagree on things like that. A lot of religions really have a lot more in common than differences."


Great to hear about your daughter too... she must be adorable. i love playing with kids when so ever i find time and it's good that you have so many friends around you to cheer you up..  It must be fun.. i havent known the fun of having friends... hope it is a good experience..  


Loads of care,

Your Friend,

Shaheen Zaman (Shazire)

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Shayla06 In reply to Shaheen-Zaman [2013-11-29 16:24:07 +0000 UTC]

Yeah. I read the Bible cover to cover seven times and decided I didn't like it anymore. There are a lot of good moral truths, for sure - all those parts they read in church. The rest is full of hate and death and stories they wouldn't dare tell their kids. It also struck me how few people had read it and how shocked they were when I quoted things they should have read. That, and I found out the hard way how few "Christians" actually live by their own rules. I could probably count on one hand the number I've met who even try to live by the "golden rule" (Do to others as you would have them do to you, aka treat everyone how you want to be treated). It's a shame really. There are plenty of good stories in with the bad, but they can't even follow the good parts... I assume it's the same in most religions, at least the Abrahamic ones... My dad started studying Judaism before he died, and he loved telling me all about it and the good bits from it while ignoring the bad. The final nail in the coffin as it were, was when my mom died. It was out of the blue and tragic. One day Dad came home from work and found Mom trying to get up. She was laying in bed, and he caught her as she rolled off and almost hit the floor. She had a stroke, and she couldn't move the right half of her body at all. She couldn't recognize that it wasn't moving though, so she was trying to get up, to walk, to even sit up, and just kept falling over. She had Alzheimer's mildly before that, but it made it a hundred times worse. She couldn't remember more than five minutes at a time. She spent two months unable to remember the decade, names of family members, that her parents died years ago, or where she was. When she died, they weren't sure why. Now I'm pretty sure she died of an allergy they ignored - because I have the same allergy to certain medicines she was on...


You should have more friends. Studying is great, but humans aren't meant to be alone. It's good to share your feelings and thoughts with people. Family is great (and I do miss mine), but you can only tell family so much. We all have things we keep to ourselves that wouldn't be comfortable conversation around family. It gives you more freedom to express yourself, to have people you trust around and relax, and to really get an outside perspective on things too. You're family knows you, who you are, what you like, what your past is like... Friends don't at first, and learning about each other is half the fun! I've certainly enjoyed learning from you. No one I know here really studies the same things nearly as in depth. While we may have 3 roommates, most extended families here don't live together. And a lot of people here can't seem to grasp that all the different religions largely follow the same basic rules of "be nice," "trust in a higher power" (by any name), and "love people." Every religion is there to remind us to do what is right and best for everyone, not just ourselves. If you grasp that, you really don't need religion to tell you the same thing anymore - you just do it... because it's the right thing to do. I work with non-profits, do fundraising, and train llamas to help people. Before that, I helped rescue dogs and cats. I've always wanted to do my part to make the world better. Not just for me. Not just for my family. For everyone and everything alive. What's the point of living if we spend all our time trying to kill each other?

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Shaheen-Zaman In reply to Shayla06 [2013-11-29 19:22:38 +0000 UTC]

simply wonderful..!! every word you wrote was beyond the understanding of most people.. because they are not true at heart as you are.. I must say i have met a very very good human being on earth.. Simple and creative.. I hope more and more people could be like you.. Honest and trust worthy.. You really create an aura around your words.. it binds the reader and he actually is able to imagine your word turning to the script of a movie.. i could literally see things happening right in front of my eyes as i read when you were talking about your family and parents and surely friends. God has gifted you with a charismatic personality.. (if not getting too personal may i know just the date when you were born.. i just wanna know you stars, i lve studing them too.. i was born on 11th day of November 1989.. i'm a scorpion) 


Shayla i really understand to what do you mean when you say "It's great to have friends" and when you use the word "trust" for friends.. I just want to tell you something personal about my life.. --((when i was a kid just about to enter 1st grade the next morning i took a very bold decision to help my friend.. he was in trouble.. i never knew how did it come to my mind but i felt i can help him.. he was expecting his parents to pick him up by 7 o' clock in the evening from a place where our school teacher had organised a small treat for all her students i.e. us, around 6-8 of them (Our parents were supposed to pick and drop us, but we two had sneaked out of our teacher's house). It was well past 7pm but neither his nor my parents showed up. i decided to accompany him to his home..!!!!!!! trust me i was not even 5 yrs old. i walked with him to his home (as he knew the path, it was around 3 miles from our teacher's place) as he reached his apartment he ran towards the elevator leaving me behind. I was expecting someone from his family to accompany me back to my place.. but my friend had already abandoned me. i gathered all the strength  a 5 yr old would have and tried to track back the path i had followed till his apartment, after walking for 5 min a i realised that i was on the wrong way back. i spotted a cross road which i had not encountered while walking to my friend's place.. tears rolled down my cheek i did not know what to do next.. because i thought i will be able to return back.. just when i started to loose myself, i heard a voice from behind.. it was a rickshaw-puller asking me what i was doing in the out skirts of the city as he could figure out a backpack on my back.. i told him i was lost.. he really was an angel.. he helped me return back to my home... i know not who he really was but from that day onward i believe there are angels on earth in from of good human being.. all we have to do is to find them and try to be angel to anyone who is ailing.. ))-- you might be thinking why did i tell you this story.. -- reason --  this was the first time in my 24 yrs of life till today when i was betrayed and ditched by a FRIEND.. after that there have been i guess countless number of times when my TRUST was broken.. 


I have donated blood to a relative of my friend when i was a grad student in Marine College and after a few day he was the one who beat me so mercilessly that i was unconscious for 3-4 hrs.. (TRUST broken again) -- My dear these are just one of the many betrayals i have faced.. (all of them i believed them to be my BEST FRIENDS..) final nail to my coffin --((i was in a serious relationship with a girl (i would not like to take her name as because i still start shivering in pain and agony) whom i was about to marry in a week filed a case of assault against me.. (a fake allegation, just because she was dating someone else and wanted me no way near her (as we worked in the same company) result of her action.. I LOST MY JOB.. i was threatened on my life by his uncle who was a senior Bureaucrat) i had  serious nervous breakdown. My height is 6.1'' but during my nervous breakdown i weighed only 50 kilos, doctor had given up.. but just because of the help of my family i am alive today))-- i feel afraid now when i even hear the word friend, love.. i still her.. love her so much that even if today she comes back to me and says i am sorry... i would hug her in my arms so tight that would never ever let her go again.. and forget all the bad she has done to me.. when we were in love i had promised that we would have wonderful kids.. i love children.. love to play with them... but now when she is gone i will never ever marry any other woman.. because deep in my heart there is only she.. (first and last.. she might not love me now but i will love her forever.. and wait for her to return to me till i die.. )



but leave it now i love to be alone.. in solitude.. and try to find good people.. through my art, knowledge and creativity.. not through the wealth i own.. i only study study and study so as to understand this world better (for example i have studied the entire cold war from 1945-1989, it took me around 19 hrs at a stretch to complete it.. i have seen how WAR and LOVE shape the world.. i know how GREED for MORE (MONEY OR POWER) manipulates your outlook to the world outside..) I love to study.. gain knowledge.. till the day i die.. i want to represent an IDEA.. i want to explore possibility for a better world full of love and care.. irrespective of caste, creed, colour or race.. i want a smiling world.. i am working hord for my DREAM.. and i m willing to die for it.. i want kids from US, Palestine, Israel, Canada, Kenya, Russia, China, Japan, Chile, West Indies.. and every country; every religion Jews, Muslims, Hindu, Christians, Jain, Buddhists, Atheists ......  out there to smile alike and never ever shed a tear because of the miseries we men (Full of Ego) have created and done to the world..


Sorry Shayla if i made you feel bad or annoyed... it was just an outburst of emotions because you are the 1st person in 6-7 months i have talked to other than my parent's and sister.. i  spend 95% of my time in my study and sleep for 3-4 hrs a day.. hope this message of mine leaves you with a smiling face and a good memory of your friend "Shaheen"



 (Waiting to hear it soon from you...   )

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