Volderella In reply to xiphoidwood [2012-04-17 23:15:57 +0000 UTC]

Fffffffffffff. <3 cx Thank you for thinking of me!

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Volderella In reply to TrippyDharma [2012-04-02 03:31:29 +0000 UTC]

Omgoodness! Thank you so much >/////////////< I appreciate all of it

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TrippyDharma In reply to Volderella [2012-04-02 05:15:08 +0000 UTC]

Sure, no problem man

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-03-21 15:57:15 +0000 UTC]

Yes it has. S'been a bit hectic, but m'getting through it. cx How've you been? Update me!

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-21 21:04:58 +0000 UTC]

It's good to hear that things are getting better. I've been...well, since we've talked last I've had my ups and downs. mostly ups. I'm trying to re cooperate from a pretty tough time.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-03-21 21:07:37 +0000 UTC]

Yeah? Is it going well? M'glad to hear more ups than downs. Downs are unavoidable, but so long as there's a bit of good amongst all the bad, it's a lot easier to pull through heh...

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-21 21:09:57 +0000 UTC]

It's going so-so. But death is never easy to overcome. I agree. Its never easy, but it's life.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-03-21 21:13:27 +0000 UTC]

I'm really sorry for your loss. No, nothing's ever easy. Heh. That's the first rule of everything. I'm glad you're here, though. What've you been up to lately? Any projects? School? Lovelife?

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-21 21:19:07 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, it really helps.

Mostly schoolwork. Lots of project with Spring Break coming along. I have made some time in the past few months. Valentines Day was a little more than a month ago and I took the time to create a small gift for my girlfriend, and with Mallory's birthday just this past Sunday I made her something as well.

Writing has unfortunately taken a backseat behind the school work. I have not updated a story since...like early February or something.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-03-22 00:19:57 +0000 UTC]

I saw. I haven't commented on things, but I skimmed your gallery heh. Did she like the gift for Valentine's day? Is she helping you through these times? Your girlfriend, I mean, not Mallory, though really, heh, having anyone to just talk with, to take your mind off things, is helpful.

I definitely understand about taking a backseat for writing. I hope you can do it again soon, not to pressure you into updating, but because it seems like you really enjoy writing. Try to take breaks and remember to do things you enjoy, even through the hard work. Doesn't have to be a lot. Don't lose yourself in that heh. Unless you like the school work? I generally do, but it still gets stressful.

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-23 11:08:33 +0000 UTC]

She loved it. Hehe and I loved what she made me. I actually haven't told her. I don't want her to worry. I haven't told much of anyone yet.

I love doing school work. Its just that there isn't enough time in a day to do everything I love to do. I'm getting into the habit of staying up a little later just to finish a paragraph or something.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-03-23 22:53:37 +0000 UTC]

I understand not wanting her to worry, but I think she'd like to know, to help out wherever she could. It's your business completely and I really understand your reason, but I'm just thinking of how I'd feel about my girlfriend keeping stresses to herself. Going through a hard time is nothing to be ashamed about, and allowing people in can be really beneficial, if you let the right people in. Of course, again, I understand not wanting to alarm or bother people. I just don't think you give the people who love you enough credit heh.

I really get that heh. M'sorry. I hope it's temporary. Sleep's important. I know not doing the things you should are also important though. Hope a better balance comes soon... You deserve a break heh

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-25 03:09:02 +0000 UTC]

I agree with what you're saying, I will tell her the next time we talk. Just holding a conversation with her is the perfect therapy. But that is also very difficult. We live in different time zones, and actually different countries, so it is very difficult to have a normal conversation.

Its not shame exactly, its mostly fear. I have a lot of trauma in my life, and I fear that if I share all of it, people will soon get annoyed and just add more trauma. Its a strange fear, but a very realistic one in my eyes.

I get that a lot. That I need a break, I mean. I just got a job and that's eating up more of my valuable time, but I really need the money. I had to quit my school play as well as my position in the local newspaper. I have been making progress though, and in hoping some updates can come very soon.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-03-26 02:09:30 +0000 UTC]

I understand that fear. I know how real it is. But anyone who adds to the negativity because you told them wasn't worth telling, and while it would undoubtedly horribly painful... they weren't ever really there for you to react that way. >< Just saying, if ever it happens.

I'm sorry about time with your girlfriend, but I understand how it can be therapeutic heh. I hope she can help you, more than she already does heh. Or maybe more isn't necessary... but it's still good that she's there for you. The way you talk about her is really sweet heh.

You do need a break. But you seem to be working really hard. Might not seem like it, but that does pay off. A lot of people don't think so, but school is easy to go back to. It's always there. I'm sorry you've made so many sacrifices though. ><

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-28 22:20:23 +0000 UTC]

I understand, and have been in that situation. Only it was a little reversed. I was happy, and she was jealous. So she tore me down and taught me never to flaunt anything or complain.

I just love her more than anything in the world. And I know that its really strange, because I have never actually met her,but she is the most important person in my life. The thought of her stops me from all suicidal attempts. She just...puts meaning into my life.

I'm off of school entirely next week, so I will be able to catch up on some much needed rest and relaxation, as well as updates and writing, though I suppose its going to go by very quickly

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-04-02 03:34:24 +0000 UTC]

I'm so sorry. That doesn't sound very fair, for someone to be jealous of happiness... Happiness should be something that's absorbed, not envied. Like when you smile randomly as you walk around people, and someone sees it and smiles, and then someone sees them and smiles... a whole chain reaction of smiles heh. Sounds kinda corny but...

Dude, it doesn't sound strange to love someone without having met them physically. What's different from that, anyway, except that there are physical features to go with everything you fell in love with. It's personality, thoughts, opinions, things that tick them off, things that make them smile, that you fall in love with heh. I very much understand.

I hope you get some much deserved rest. .______. It's more about time to do things that make you happy than having time to update. No pressure on any writing or drawing. That's your homework for the week heh. Hope it's an awesome one though. Spring break?

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-04-02 04:27:39 +0000 UTC]

I do love making other people happy. Its one of my favorite pass times. I know it is not fair, to me and the people around me, and I do believe I will start sharing some more sentimental and personal details of my life, so thank you for talking me into that <3 hah and no. Its not really that corny at all.

Thank you for your support, all of my friends that do know about her and us say that I'm dating a pedophile. I do believe that they are saying that because I have had that happen to me before. :/ but that's not how it is this time around, and I know that if they could talk to her, they would think something totally different.

Heh, well I've been off for two and a half days and pulled two all-nighters. But only because my "wife" that moved to a different state last year came to visit and she left today. So now its pretty much sleep for the next few days. Yes, spring break, I'm not quite sure what you mean to ask, because I believe it has a different name in Canada.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-04-02 23:09:03 +0000 UTC]

Heh awesome then. Everyone deserves an ear. And you'd be surprised how people can help even if they haven't gone through something similar.

Pedophile? I'm /really/ sorry that's happened before. While I can really tell you love her, there really is no pressure to do anything you're not comfortable with. Besides that... trust is a huge part of any relationship. I'm sure if your friends saw you together they'd know it was different *nod*

Heh awesome! What did you guys do? Sleep is fecking awesome. Um, well, iunno, we call it the same thing. It's still in spring and all. *nod* I guess when I was younger we called it March Break, because it was in March... << >>

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-04-03 02:23:47 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so very much, Bianca. you make me feel much more important than a lot of people i know. I really appreciate it, and credited you in my latest deviation. Simply the least i can do for your wisdom and compassion.

Yes, it was a complete fluke. I have a problem with trust, with so many untrustworthy people on the planet. But i have full trust in her; as well as my friends. I just want to badly for them to just communicate.

haha, we pretty much watched a lot of movies and talked about a lot of personal things. As well as buy bracelets as a symbol of our friendship. I love sleep so much. Hm, well, i wont argue that.

But how have you been? and how is school going, i feel very conceited only talking about myself.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-04-04 16:53:55 +0000 UTC]

I'm honoured you'd think of mentioning me. It really touched me. >///////< Thank you.

*nod* I understand that. The more exposed they are to each other, the more they'll get used to the idea of the other being okay I think. While it sucks and it's not really fair, I think it's really just your friends looking out for you and wanting you to be okay in life. I think with time they'll get used to her. After all, if they're your friends, and she's your girlfriend, they have you in common, and m'pretty sure they trust your taste in people. You're their friends, after all. >> Heh.

That sounds really awesome. cx Yaaay. Bet it was really relaxing. .____. Friends seem to know how to take the pressure off, with silliness or talks. M'glad you got to unwind after so much hard work.

It's not conceited, dude. I want to know. Still do heh. You're an interesting person to talk to. <3 But I've been alright. Skies kind of consistently cloudy lately in my life, always seems to be something wrong, but the promise of sunshine soon is too sweet to ignore. Heh. Things'll get better. School's actually done for me this semester. Class, anyway. Today was my last day. Two finals, one the 18th, one the 19th, and then my summer is here. cx

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-04-06 04:33:52 +0000 UTC]

I glad you are honored, you deserved it. You are very welcome

My friends and I are like one big family, we sometimes joke around and say that when one of is in a relationship we are all in a relationship because that is how close we are. Its just a little awkward because I'm the only one that feels that way about women and I think they are uncomfortable to share this kind of relationship with me....after all, she is my first girlfriend... so this is just as new to me as it is to them.

It was the most relaxed I think that I have been in months. And also the happiest. I can tell them things that I can't tell my parents or my sisters, you know. It's just beyond amazing to even hear their voices.

Awwww thanks so much X3 I hope the sunshine is sooner than more cloudy skies. I heard that you are going to be with Mallory again soon, so I'm sure that will brighten things up. summer so soon? I do not have summer vacation until the middle of June. but I guess that is only fair, my work is most likely nothing compared to yours. What year of college are you on? Hope you do very well on those exams...back to back, that seems pretty stressful.

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Volderella In reply to ririmania1335 [2012-04-10 01:19:49 +0000 UTC]

Heh. That's a very close friendship. cx It's like... polygamy. o_________o But I understand the girlfriend being new thing. What's kind of fun is you have a lot of people to help you with it. Being uncomfortable means they haven't relaly been exposed to it, not that it really bothers them.

M'glad it was really fun, dude. You deserve it.

Thank you. Yes I am! I'm leaving the 22nd of April to see her, staying two weeks. <3 Awesome~. Awh, well, I hope the next few weeks of school aren't as bad as they used to be. I have one year of university left to get my bachelor's degree in biology. Yay me! Then I'm going to work in the field a little, then go back to school for my master's. It's not so stressful; I have a lot of time to study for them. *nod*

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ririmania1335 In reply to Volderella [2012-04-11 00:10:26 +0000 UTC]

hehe polygamy is about the best word for it. my best friend has a boyfriend and he says that we are almost Mormon. We are all putting away a little money each day so that once we all finish school, we will live together. I know it sounds stupid...but when we put our mind to something, it happens. thank you. They are all very happy for me (though i do get my fair share of teasing) and want nothing more then to talk to her...mostly because i really talk her up around them.

<3

Im sure that will be an amazing two weeks. It will make her very happy. The end of a school year (in my past experience) can be either very hectic or very relaxed. But i hope it is more relaxed. a bachelor's degree? That is quite an achievement. What field of Biology are you going to specialize in? And then a masters? Very exciting. Good luck! I guess that does make it a little less hectic.

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Volderella In reply to BlurTweek314 [2012-03-18 03:50:33 +0000 UTC]

Awesome! Hullo! I haven't been back on youtube yet, but m'definitely gonna subscribe to that channel. You guys are awesome.

cx

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BlurTweek314 In reply to Volderella [2012-03-18 16:34:22 +0000 UTC]

Aw thank you! We all really really appreciate it!!! <3

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Volderella In reply to Xx-Deidara-kun-xX [2012-02-07 23:14:39 +0000 UTC]

Hey dude! I saw we were friends again on FB... but I've no idea when we stopped being friends there heh. But m'glad. cx Ah, well, lots up. Lots to get through, but what's life without challenges, eh? ><

Do you still go on MSNM? Do you have AIM?

What's been up with you? S'been really long! Updates?

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Xx-Deidara-kun-xX In reply to Volderella [2012-02-08 11:02:02 +0000 UTC]

FFFF Yeah I had to switch over my account so yeahhh. crazy and shit. But yeahhh. Nothing much has been up. Tonight I found a cosplay group that wants me to join. I get to cosplay cartman. <33333 I get to be an ass hole for no reason. Soooo excited. Yeah I still go on msn but chu never be on anymore.

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Volderella In reply to SouthParkDoodles [2012-02-07 23:14:59 +0000 UTC]

Heh awh. I miss you too. You're such a rebel getting on when you're forbidden...

so fecking bamf. unce unce.

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SouthParkDoodles In reply to Volderella [2012-02-07 23:17:18 +0000 UTC]

Actually a few days ago in my english class I doodled a picture of my self that said 'Maddie, the BAMF'
pretty coolio bro.
&& hey, when the parents aren't home, it's like a freebee so XD

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