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sol-angel
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[2007-08-17 09:45:51 +0000 UTC]
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What isn't strange about life? lol I hear this all the time from people and it doesn't surprise me. XDΒ
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well my mother just came out from hospital (after having been in coma,) I have practically taken on a housewife role at home and still have my psychology studies to worry about, among other thinsg
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My mum has had M.S for 11 years. She can't walk or use her hands very well. She live with us still and me and my bro look after her. You're not the only one with problems, you know...If you want some psychological studies, here are some. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, try figuring that out. Considering it's rare and most people are ignorant to personality disorders as a whole. Sorry, but I'm in a bad mood right now and I dislike anyone who does psychology, because most psychologists and suchΒ are wankers. They don't understand...Maybe you'll be different if you do psychiatry or psychology or end up like the rest of them, only caring about money and not caring about peoples mental health...Like over here in England where there isn't really any psychiatry available, so most of us suffer in silence. Anyway, don't take all the weight on you. AskΒ for help from someone close to you. You care about your mum, but make sure you get rest and take breaks...Sorry, i do this a lot. If you'll excuse me...>.<
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This wasn't intended as a pitty war, I was simply explaining why I have been busy.
I do however feel it offensive that you automatically see me as an idiot and a "wanker" because i study psuchology when you know nothing about why I do it or what I want to do with said studies. I will tell you anyway:
I study psychology because i find the mind interesting, not because I want to become a psychiatrist or clinic psychologist. If at all, I would like to become a forensic profiler.
Going to that "all who do psychology are horrible and wankers" is rather harsh though, as over 50 % that "do psychology" do not end up treating patients or have cases. Studying psychology has made me more aware, and less scared even of disorders and ailments of the mind, and made me a harsh critic of self-diagnoses made after reading an article on the internet.Β
On practicioners however, I have both defense and attack.
Β Too little is known about the mind, think about it. How many years have we gone away from what makes us human and our minds, to focus on outter things, so called BETA subjects? since the turning of time. How long has psychology been a thing? meh from about 1800s, 1700 if you squint, if you include philosophy from classic times. Now, how long has psychology tried treating people? Tried to understand why things happen? the end of 1800s with Freud being at the front.Β
Do you know how long we have known about personality disorders?Β
They first came on board after ww2. This is all short periods of time, aka, we don't know shit. Borderline is even more recent and they still don't know how to treat it properly, the more acomplished say medicines don't work because they induce an over kill as the medication used is either to treat mania or depression, whereas Borderline does not satisfy the criteria for either even if they too suffer from similar signs of bipolar disorder. This is troublesome, as borderline is the most common of personality disorders if you look at all the cases raging from mild to severe many however do not know they have it, once they do however many wish to be treated and Borderline cases are among the most succesfully treated (meaning there are few or no fall backs if the treatment works.) As mentioned, medicine doesn't seem to do the trick, CT however and other therapies are showing promising results (note showing promising, meaning no one are certain as of yet because of fail safing etc.)Β
I could go on, I passed my dissorder and treatments class with top marks and recomendations, but I won't bother. Also, there is no reason to go into defense over what I am typing here, this is my defense against what I think of unfair treatment of me and some of my peers.
only some? yes, because I know many practicioners in my country are idiots. The youth psychology system is a dying joke. Mainly because the therapists don't want to get busy and work properly, they want to strenghten the patient's ego (oh poor porr dear you m,ust learn to take care of yourself, put yourself in the centre) which makes them impossible to be with and makes them , in the long run feel more isolated. I have seen some friends, who show signs of typical borderline, go to treatment and come out the worst douche bags to ever have douched. Their already inflated ego (not the "I am simply the best" that is narcissm and many people suffering from disorders, especially personality dissorders have low self esteem which fuels the dissorders, but the kind of ego that say "memememememememe!") and lack of empathy, or increased apathy gets even worse and people shun them causing the condition to worsen. this is NOT how things should be, and I am VEREY aware and GLAD I am not heading in that direction.Β
Even therapists who take things seriously and want the best for each individual patient leads a hard and troubled life. why? back to my history lesson, We know NOTHING! It is damn hard to figure out what is "wrong" with a person when so many disorders lap over into one another. In some cases wrong treatments are catastrophical of astronomic sizes.Β
You know what makes life even harder for psychologists?Β
People who think all of them are idiots and wankers, that won't work with them no matter what. Many already have a set view of psychologists and therapists. And just as people have a narrow view on disorders, are ignorant and lacks knowledge upon the subject, the same goes for psychologists and therapists only they also receive ignorance from people they wish to treat. Β I could never be a therapist, I don't have the patience to listen to everyone about their deep personal troubles and feelings every day from 9 till 5, and even if I did it would kill me if I was unable to help or a patient refused to even acknowledge me as a fellow human being. It isn't about just sitting and "take doctor's orders" it is about working with someone who are supposed to have knowledge on the subject (if they don't then toss them out the window they have nothing to do in a therapist's chair), moreso than you ever will, to acchive something you are comfortable and happy to live with. Being critical to any kind of medical (mental or physical aid) is healthy and should be done, but there is a line between critical and down Β right ignorant.
Enough of that, some of it is already too heated. But I cannot say i appreciate being stamped because of my choices.
I KNOW what borderline is, I KNOW all the bloody disorders documented and the treatments listed for them. So how about you wag your finger at the ones who are ignorant, enlighten the ones who want to be enlightened and keep the personal attacks on a minimum.Β
I don't know how the system in ENgland works, I don't live there. From what you say it is much the same as here, barely any clinics or system for it at all. However I know that both ENgland and Norway have at least the abillity to diagnose, but what with people who have no clue about the works of psychology are diagnosing themselves left and right... well all seems rather hopeless, I don't even. But I know they cry of shame from all psychology institues from around the world, that want to help but find themselves unable.Β
No, I did not excuse you, because I found parts of your reply hurtful. And if you want to reply to this, reply in a fashion where you lead into a discussion about the psychology systems and how they work/not work, or about disorders. Or change the subject.Β
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It's not a pitty war. I wasn't fucking making it one. I didn't personally call you an idiot or a wanker. I said that most of them are. I didn't say you were on or every single on of them. Just a majority. Maybe you need to get your facts right and stop misunderstanding what I'm saying. If you really want to become a psychologist/psychiatrist. You need patience and you're not supposed to take things personally.Β
Sorry, but you're still ignorant to personality disorders. They're less talked about than bipolar. Also, you don't even understand what it's like to go through a personality disorder...Even if you were to have one, I doubt you'd be sensitive. I don't think I'm the one int he wrong. You've just wronged me. Big mistake. I get revenge on those who wrong me.Β
Also, I seem to know more about personality disorders than people who study them for a living, since I have one. I've done my own research. Also, I don't need you belittling me. You clearly are not a realist. That's not how it works. Nobody really cares. That's how it is. I've accepted it and now I could happily watch them burn.
If you find it hurtful, then don't speak to me. I'm sick of ignorant people like you! I don't care what you think, so screw you. You think you're clever, but you know so little. I found your reply to be very irrational.Β
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Oh my god, you didn't listen to a word I typed.Β
I am not even going to bother to point out all the facts you got wrong here,Β
I am not even going to attempt to arch a brow in your direction. This isn't hurtful, this is just proving ignorance and basket case.Β
You just proved you are unable to listen, unable to see more than your own naval view, unable to hold a serious discussion. Instead opting for "revenge" and doing your best to patronize and thumb down.Β
Sorry you have such issues with yourself and your life.Β Β
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sol-angel, not meaning to be demanding here but, check out my profile for a picture for unsung heroes, please and thank you!
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how in the world is that demanding! that's awesome!
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I dont know how it's demanding, but you'd be surprised at what people might think! and yes i know I'm awesome (jk i know im not that awesome)but you more awesome than me!
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I am really really sorry for this i mean after the art and everything, but I am leaving Deviantart. It's become.. weird with lots of... weird people who starts pity wars when you try to give a heads up and I don't even whut the heck is going on? *blinkblink* and I get so sad when I see people have liked anc commented my stuff (sad because it has taken me days! to see it and reply) time to face the facts.. i am no longer really active here... buu I tried deleting all my stuff and just be a lurker account but, now it won't let me delete anymore stuff, only option left is to wipe it all clean.
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I'm so sad to hear this news. but if that is what uou must do I cannot stop you. and hopefully I never hear of these stupid people fighting (some people just don't know that other people have opinions of their own). I hope you have a wonderful day where ever you are and have peace away from hate.
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I am on tumblr thoug? And my fics are posted on AO3
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*gasp* Yay! I shall find you then!
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My tumblr is Non-Contra-Veum
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i wrote it down so i will never forget!
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gimme a holler if you add me! 
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OMG I FOUND YOU!
I was reading Boy's Creed on FF.net and I wanted the link but you never replied ;n; But now, I found you!
WOOOOH! Thank you for continuing it on here
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I-I didn't? o_o
oh
my
God
I AM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!! D: D:
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NO WORRIES FRIEND.
WE ARE TOGETHER NOW.
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And thank you for the watch X3
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Oh I simply adore your art!
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Hope you have a good one!
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thank you
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You're welcome~! 
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You're welcome!!! ^^ Have a great day! :'D
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Holy-
Dude! long time no se! *pokes back*
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Yeah it has been. How have you been? ^^
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oh I don't even know anymore 
I guess I'm alright, if not a bit stressed out and frightened.
But nuff of that, how have YOU been? :'D
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Stressed or frightened by what?
I've been doing okay. Been trying to find myself a bit I guess.
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Stressed from preassure, scared of the future. Soul searching I did this summer, it was an exhausting process and sadly I'm still very uncertain. Said state of being uncertain is wearing me down
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Pressure from what?
What we do now will set us up for our future. That much we can control. Others we can't and so we shouldn't worry about it. Does us nothing good to worry about something we have no control over. Work with what you can and you'll begin to see what you're certain of.
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School , I'm studying Latin, backwards.
and I'm scared of the future because I have no idea what I want to do... besides write that is but I cannot JUST do that
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Studying it backwards?
What other things interest you?
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I ended up having to take the most complicated first
There are 6 "levels" of our latin course, this fall I have Lat1, 5 and 6.
As for what interests me? Languages, history. None of those subjects can really land me a job, if you say teacher I'm throwing something at you. I can't be a teacher, I'm no good with kids-teens. And it doesn't help that yes okay languages can get me jobs, but I still do not know what I want to do so yeah.
I do have other interests such as games and etc. DOesn't help me much I fear
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Why did you have to take the most complicated first?
I believe if you really -wanted- to you could be a teacher. You say teenage kids stop you from being a teacher. What stops you from being good with teenage kids?
We can look for something if we don't know. Ask, research, we've many ways of finding what we want. Most of the time it won't just come to us.
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It was a choice, perhaps a bad one. I made that choice in hopes I only have to spend one year and not 1 and a half on this year study.
as for teaching, no I cannot. Simply because I cannot do kids. I do not like them and they either do not like me or they do not respect me. You try teaching a group of awkward teens when you're an awkward potatoe with legs.
As for finding what I want, I believe I should chose something I like, something I find interesting. Or else my future job will be a drag. So I try things, read subjects, none catches my eye...
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Ah.
So you do not want to teach or just don't want to do kids?
Then try and see what you can do with what you do like. You keep saying there aren't things to do with those but there are a world of possibilities.
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i like writing, but again that is not something to invest all your hopes in
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Hello Beautiful, I see you're still using the avatar I made for you <3
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of course I am, I am emotionally tied to it now xD
thank you again~
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