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[2012-04-24 18:53:06 +0000 UTC]
"solitary psychopath"
(United States)
# Statistics
Favourites: 4190; Deviations: 25; Watchers: 26
Watching: 102; Pageviews: 6020; Comments Made: 1695; Friends: 102
# Interests
Favorite TV shows: Do. who, FMA, SAO, AOT, death note,Favorite bands / musical artists: blink 182, the killers, lincoln park, skrillex, green day, evanescence, RWBY songs.
Favorite books: hunger games, percy jackson, divergent, enchanted forest chronicles, leven thumps,
Favorite games: cave story, tf2, ratchet and clank, kingdom hearts, gmod,
Other Interests: homestuck, music, marble hornets, creepypastas, RWBY,
# About me
my close friends and i believe we are all crazy, but sadly, being obsessed with anime and fandoms is not enough evidence to decide we are all insane. but dont worry, we'll get there eventually... because as the wise cheshire cat once said... "we're all mad here..."sadly I am terrible at art, i joined to be able to hang out with my friends. I like sonic and I create my own fan characters, but I cant make digital art, so i rely on my friends to make them. luckily im not the type to bother people, i dont even ask for art gifts on my birthday. my character posted in my gallery is my first completed character Lupin the werewolf. i was lucky enough to have a friend sketch him for me.
# Comments
Comments: 497
you're welcome!
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i would say thngs are rather boring around the home, but it would seem my life is happy nonetheless... i am on antidepressants now to assist with my temper and depression, but i dont believe there is much else worth mentioning...
well, i told you about me, how are you? did you enjoy your holidays? my family drove to utah and stayed there for the week for thanksgiving.
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Well I understand that...I usually get depressed pretty easily and I get like...I feel sometimes bad about myself and sometimes hurt myselfΒ
but I hope you will feel better soon and if you are sad or anything
talk to me
and well ...it was stressed awful since my stepmom keep pushing me and I've been very stressed and was panicking sometimes and I need calm down since I have asthma... So yeah
bot very good actually but at least I'm fine, ad they didn't bring you with..?
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oh, no i went to utah as well... i am pretty sure i didnt have a choice although i wanted to stay home... now that im back, im not sure which i would have chosen if i would have to do it all over again.
its so sad when families get torn apart and get divorced, then fight iver their children, then trap their children by marrying another person... sometimes it is for the best, but very rarely does the child benefit from the battle in any way...
nah, im not exactly sad anymore, ever... if i am sad, i cant seem to understand what i am feeling is sadness... i used to know, once; but the memory is gone now, i guess... i just feel bored all the time. i have tried to hurt myself before, but i have very low pain tolerance. the most i ever do is punch and kick hard things, hoping to hurt something, or pull my hair, or hit myself.Β
i tried to cut myself, but i guess my pocket knife is duller than it looks, because i could never draw blood... i was also too chicken to push down very hard, the sharp, accurate pain was too... fast for me. it wasnt very much, but it stung so quick, my reflexes took over and i couldnt keep going. i have little faded scratch marks from my knfe attempts, but it only was the outer layer of skin that was ever damaged.
i think i should mention, i was trying to cut myself to relieve my depression, not in any suicide attempt. i have thought, still think, and will continue to think about suicide, but i am positive that i could never go through with it. i just find the big, philisophical questions, like, "whats after this life," and "are there other worlds" and "why am i on this world, why are there so many people." i find these questions interesting, even if they cause more depression...
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i understand....when i get depression i usualy cut my arms which it covers with blood andΒ
sometimes i bite myself which it bleeds sometimes to forget the pain
and the best way to not hurt yourself is to hold two big ice hard which it hurts a bit but it works
but the bad thing is...that i feel sorry for those who doesnt have a happy life or are very depressed
i would srsly help you or anyone else at least make them feel better, i dont know if i can make the happy or make u happy but all i want is that you would be able to smile^^
since im kinda of that person c: i usually help people and do my best at leastΒ
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thank you. i might try that ice thing sometime when im feeling especially low.
also, i really apreciate your understanding of the matter...
depression is so frusterating, it just makes you hate yourself and hate everyone else.
people like you are a blessing to everyone else on earth, you aren't only able to talk to people and help them feel better, you are also able to experience the way they feel (to a point)
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Yeah and you're welcome, but I hope you won't cut yourself or hurt yourself since it will just get worse, but don't you have a friend which makes you feel better?
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dont worry, my cutting days never even begun... oh, and because of high school i rarely see my friends much... i know where one of my closest friends live, but i HATE intruding on people. i hate it so much, i refuse to text people unless they text me first. idk why, theres something twisted in my mind...
i think it had something to do with a visit to an older friends house... i stayed over there for almost the whole day, and then the mother asked me if i "was staying" for dinner. oblivious to the social hint, i replied i would love to, and i decided i would stay even longer to finish watching the hunger games with them. (i hadnt seen it yet)
eventually i finally leave, and halfway home, my phone goes off with like, 10 messages from both my parents asking where i was. there were apparently pockets in my friends house where i couldnt recieve messages. when i got home, my mother had a talk to me about when it is polite to visit people, and how long to stay for...
i guess i decided it was easier if i simply never visited people.
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Well why not? You should visit your friends house so you can spend time with them and you can say to your mom tht you will be there like...8:00 on the night don't know if it's am or pm
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i would simply love to do that... but the friend i am interested has a complicated relationship with her mother, and the last time i was over there, and the only time i think i met her mom face to face, she snapped at my friend for having friends over when she was supposed to be grounded...
i used to just walk over there, and knock on the door to see if she was home, but she rarely was, and its sort of rude to do that, when you're a teenager...
also, im not sure if she has a plan for her phone yet, so im pretty sure i cant text her and ask if i could come over...
i rarely see her at school anymore, so i cant talk to her and ask any of these questions...
its just... sort of hard to get in Β touch with her... i guess i could talk to her on facebook, she's usually on there, but i want to see her face so i can read her expression.Β
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well...i wonder why...
haven't you asked her when you saw her in school or in facebook?
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why what? why her mom snapped at me, or why she doesnt hve a phone plan?
oh, i never seem to get around to it... im a procrastinator, which makes it even harder because my homework piles up too
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Nevermind....
but haven't you seen her somewhere?
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not very often... i bump into her at school once in awhile, but we rarely have time to talk about anything...
i talked to her on FB but she's apparently too busy for me to come over and hang out...
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oh...i understand.. :/
but..don't you miss her then..?
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yes, i miss her, but most likely not in the sense that most humans share, the physical longing of a cherished one for social comfort... i simply miss her, i notice the lack of her presence in my life and sometimes i notice the impact it has on my mood at the time. i do not have the same physical longing normal people have, i simply am like artemis fowl in a sense, i dont need other people, and have not properly developed how to socially interact with other people.
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oh i understand..but havent you asked why she was so busy ?
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she has dance practice a lot, and a writers club, and she goes to the library a lot, theres a bunch of reasons. i dont mind much, she loves doing all of those things, and i would hate to pull her out of it for my own selfish need to see her...
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oh...i understand...but why don't you try to make new friends?
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because im antisocial, asocial, and im terrible at remembering names... there are a lot of reasons, i dont feel like reciting them all, its too hard to remember every single one
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oh.. :/ well that's the problem...but if you keep hanging out with them then you maybe know their names
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nah, there are more reasons than that as well... for example, i hate rap music which is basically what half the people at my school listen to, i also like certain things that most people dont know about, like homestuck and kingdom hearts. my family has really high standards and its just messed up to hang around people who dont even think what they are doing could be uncomfortable to me. im just too different...
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well...i would like to be your friend and besides i dont even like rap music either
i usually listen to random music not dupstep i hate themΒ
and i play video games a lot and i have played kingdom hearts as wellΒ
but being different is nothing since you are just yourself.
i can be cheerful and happy and i giggle a lot of course but im not happy actuallyΒ
never was and never will
i have friends since they think im funny and im the girl whos always make them laugh and thats why they like me
but i get tired of joking as well since i want to be alone for the most of the time so i can be myself
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yeah, i know how you feel... i try to be funny a lot but its really hard and im not good at it... i dont like being around the stereotypical jerks and mean girls that society and peer pressure has created, i dont understand how anyone can be happy succumbing to something so filthy and vulgar because everyone else around them does it. i like being around people who are nice, and arent afraid to say what they're thinking. i try really hard to be friends with people in the background, the shadows that want to stay invisible. because im a lot like them, i have different hobbies, im not comfortable with a large amount of attention, and i dislike what everyone else has become.
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oh but well....its not always fun to be funny, for me i laugh at everything
im todally weird and very silly and i sometimes make my friends happy because of that
but i dont know how to make you happy but maybe make you feel better somehow?
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simply talking to you is making me feel better, i dont really talk to people much, its very relaxing being able to speak my mind... i know what you mean, i like to laugh at everything too
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Really? Well that great ^^
And why don't you talk to people so much then?
well that's great, but I sometimes laugh for nothing or silly thingsΒ
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because a lot of the time, people just dont give a **** about what i have to say. i dont get along with them and they dont get along with me.we are too different to even interact... every time i try to be friendly to them they say something stupid and i get mad and they act like they have no idea why im angry.
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Okay now I understand why, I feel actually the sameΒ
since some in my school only want friends which are popular very beautiful and have a sexy body, I get tired of themΒ
So if they became a bitch I will just leave them. I don't want to have a friend which being a bitch and thinks she's so hot so every boys like her -.- i hang out with boys more than girls actuallyΒ
Some boys are players
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i know, its so weird? how do we end up around the opposite gender the older we get? i still have plenty of guys that are my friends, but its harder and harder to pump into them at school... i tend to hang out with girls a lot more often.
i understand how you feel, i hate it when girls greet each other by calling each other "bitch" and "slut." guys call other guys "jackass" as if its "hello." it completely removes the severity of those words and is causing society to change to accept those words. its just so annoying now, because theres no longer any lines about what you can say to other people... you can say whatever you want to somebody without hurting them now, until you drive them to fight you.
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yeah...sometimes i have great friend here on deviantart but which dissapoint me
is that we live too far away...Β
sometimes i just we could live closely so i could get to know a lot of people
which are more nicer here Β in sweden..
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i know that feeling, i just wish the world wasnt so big and complicated... stuff is too hard and confusing, i just want to live a simple life around a bunch of friends.
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yeah....well this is life and i cant change it..
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i know... thats the most annoying part. we could all be so happy, but everything is just too big because of what people before us thought was good for us.
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yeah... for me i never cant be happy...but i dont know if you are happyΒ
or you are just like me
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i have my ups and downs, but i tend to be a negative person, i look at all the bad things in life.
it doesnt help that i sit around all day not accomplishing anything.
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but being negative is not good u know...have you ever tried to be positive?
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yes but then everything turns negative again... its like the math equasion, 2 negatives make a positive, a positive can never go negative, and a positive and a negative stay negative...
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Oh...I understand :/Β
well thinking negative is wrog you knowΒ
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funny thing about people is they have evolved enough to develop enough of a thought process to make morals, but they still choose not to follow them.
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what do you mean?
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hello there sir ;u; you have faved some of my chars
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why, it appears i have!
surely i would do such a thing for good reason...
*shot* jk, they are pretty nice. i love the designs of their clothes.
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why thank you so much sir, you deserve a cookie ;w;
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*snacks on cookie*
nomnomnom nom nom nom...
thank you very much for such a lovely treat!
but do not exclude yourself, you made the characters after all, and with success comes reward!
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well to me all of the comments and faves seem to be the reward for me knowing they're getting out there uvu
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yeah, but i tend to go overboard with the faving a little...
i usually dont comment on art though, Β so if i end up commenting on something, i try to say something nice about the art.
yep, i know that feeling... especially since i dont really make art very well. all i really make are little fan stories about my own characters like a freaking self-obsessed jerk. but whenever anyone faves one of my stories, i feel really good inside, because someone actually bothered to at least read one of my stories, and (supposedly) liked it. in case you havent noticed yet, literature is sort of a shadow on deviantart, a secret corner that nobody cares enough about to explore. why waste 5-30 minutes reading a story when you can look at a picture in 1 minute that says (and shows) the same thing?
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well I like your art :3
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