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Stars bath

A hot bath. Something that should relax me.
It doesn't.

Oils. Candles. Lounge and chill-out music.
And yet that unbearable pain in my shoulder for three days long. Damn'it. If it was another one's shoulder, I would be able to massage it easily, but alas I'm all alone and I can't call for help.
The only thing I can do is to twist myself enough and to try to massage myself, to make that shoulder feeling better.
It hurts. It fucking hurts.
And I'm all alone.

Yeah, all those years I passed and still pass a LOT OF time to massage the others because I do good massages, because I listen to them, because I make them to feel at ease and such.
And when I need one massage, no one can do that for me. "Sorry, I don't know how to make massage, I would make it worst", "sorry, don't have the time for", "be strong and don't bother me with futility like this", ...
I have passed three days in an awful pain, unable to drive due to that shoulder paralyzing my whole arm, only to try to massage myself in the bath, and with a damn ball in the bed, rolling it the long of my spine and such.
It sucks to be alone.

Watercolors, the 6th November 2010

Description
Stars bath

A hot bath. Something that should relax me.
It doesn't.

Oils. Candles. Lounge and chill-out music.
And yet that unbearable pain in my shoulder for three days long. Damn'it. If it was another one's shoulder, I would be able to massage it easily, but alas I'm all alone and I can't call for help.
The only thing I can do is to twist myself enough and to try to massage myself, to make that shoulder feeling better.
It hurts. It fucking hurts.
And I'm all alone.

Yeah, all those years I passed and still pass a LOT OF time to massage the others because I do good massages, because I listen to them, because I make them to feel at ease and such.
And when I need one massage, no one can do that for me. "Sorry, I don't know how to make massage, I would make it worst", "sorry, don't have the time for", "be strong and don't bother me with futility like this", ...
I have passed three days in an awful pain, unable to drive due to that shoulder paralyzing my whole arm, only to try to massage myself in the bath, and with a damn ball in the bed, rolling it the long of my spine and such.
It sucks to be alone.

Watercolors, the 6th November 2010